Megan T.

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Well, It has been almost a month now that I have been dealing with Stricture... I know it is common... I was just hoping that it would be an easy fix... so they will go back in tomorrow to see if they can open it some more and then two more time next week... that will be a total of 6 times so far... so I am kinda worried about the affects of all the drugs on my system... but, it can not be helped.  So Wish me luck. 

So I went in to the hospital today and had and EGD done.  I have a stricture.. I was down to 6 mm ... Nothing was going down... I was vomiting everything I put in my mouth.  So, Dr. Wall said it happens in about 37% of people.  The Egd wasn't much they knocked me out and did it... I went home 2 hrs later... and I go back on Tue the 1st for another one... to see if I am progressing or if they are going to need to keep doing them.  So  We will see.
Hope everyone is doing great!
May God Bless!

Well Folks I am two weeks out... I feel good.  My Whole is almost closed.... I am having trouble with my pancreas... But, I had that before I had surgery.  I have lost 23 pounds and 8 1/2 inches... I was really hoping that the weight would come off like it did with the first week.... But, I guess 7 pounds in a week  is great.  I am just really ready to have to find smaller clothes... LOL   I know ... I know in time!  Well until  next time.

I have thought a long time about whether or not I was going to tell or let alone write about what is happing in my life. But, I have decided that if my journey helps anyone in anyway then it is more than worth writing. On May the 4^th 2010 I am having bariatric surgery.    I have thought about this surgery for a very long time.   For those of you that know me well, then you know I have always been over weight. For those of you that don’t I have been over weight since the age of 6. It was not that I did not try and lose weight or exercise. My parents can tell you that I did go outside and play almost all of the time. I never sat in front of the TV or video games. In school I played sport and participated in extra curricular activities. It did not seem to matter what I did, I could never get any smaller than I was.  When I turned 21 I was the smallest I had since I was 14… I weighted 250 pounds! Yeah, that was the smallest I had ever been as a teenager/adult. There comes a point in your life where you realize that no matter what other people say or think about you, you have to be happy in your life. Well, I was finally there. Not, to say that growing up I didn’t have my far share of name calling, one in particular stands out in my mind, thinking back “ Shamu” … yes that’s right like the killer whale.” Was what I was called while in elementary school. Teen age years were not any better. I thought about suicide, ending it all… and realized that was a Shitty way to handle my problems not to mention selfish. So, I learned to live with it and deal with my weight.  I meet my husband Logan when I was 16 we talked and were great friends. He was the first man I had ever meet that didn’t care how much I weight and thought I was beautiful not matter what. We talked for two years before really meeting and he knew he was going to marry me the minute he laid his eyes on me. Me, well I had a lot of growing and learning to do, before I would come to realize that he was the one I was meant to be with.  Logan loves me just the way I am or any way I will become. He is my better half, my soul mate.  I have two children Dakota who is two and Ty who is four months. I am thankful everyday for the both of them. The doctors told me a long time ago that I would never be able to have children because of a condition called PCOS. Well, God is amazing!!! He not only put Logan in my life but gave me two wonderful children that are the light of our lives.  I have made the decision to have a Roux-en-Y gastric bypass. I decided to have surgery when I look at my kids and think that I will not be able to run and play with them. I might not be around to see the important things in there lives! Not to mention that I would leave my husband alone with two children. I have never had any problem with my health because of me weight. But, the last time I went to the doctor he told me that my blood pressure was getting high and I might need to be put on medication. Also, that my blood sugar level was to the point that I needed to start monitoring it because it looked like I was well on my way to becoming a diabetic. My back and knees hurt all the time and I am so tired… not matter how much sleep I get. Part of that is because I have a two year old and the other part is sleep apnea caused by my weight. I avoid parking a long ways from the door at any store. I hate to go in Wal-Mart and have to walk around. But, I didn’t realize any of this until I stopped to think about it. I am always finding the easy way to get anything done because of my weight. I don’t take Dakota to the park to play or to go hiking. I am hurting my children because I can’t help myself.   Well, I am done having to shop in special stores for large (fat) women.   There is a reason that they don’t call them big and tall store like they do for men.   Could you imagine calling a specialty shop for large women Big and Tall for Women”… Well then they also would have to have one for “Short and Wide”. Sorry I am getting off track. I am done parking close to the door and not going to the park. I am done avoiding things that might cause me to be out of breath or hurt. I am going to start something that I will have to do for the rest of my life.    I am going to become literally half the person I am right now! That’s right half the person that I am right now. I will still be the same person just a lot smaller! I will still laugh and joke, have the same smile but, I will be able to run, play and keep up with my kids and husband. I will be able to hike, swim, run, and play any sport I want.    Now, I know that the road I have ahead of me will be long and hard. But, I am ready, ready to finally know how it feels to walk into a store and by a size 8 pair of pants. (Which by the way I am pretty sure I have never been able to wear) I will be in the hospital for four days. I will have a six week recovery and then I will have to learn to eat all over again.  I know that the surgery is not the answer to me losing weight but, merely a tool just like exercise and watching what I eat are also. But, I have the love and support of my wonderful husband and our families.   I am the only one that can make this happen.   There is a point in every ones life where you come to a Y are you going to be a watcher or a doer? Well, I am done being the watcher I am going to be a doer!!