Melissa S
A perfect person?
Nov 05, 2006
I am so sick of perfect post op people. Just because you eat a sandwich for lunch and I don't eat bread at all dosn't make me a better post op. Just because I drink through a straw and you don't does that make you better? I don't think so. Everyone preaches to follow your surgeons advice then you get flamed for doing so. I think everyone has to follow their own path. I only have mine to worry about. So just becuase I drink protein shakes, don't eat bad carbs or don't drink soda that doesn't make me perfect. I am far from it. I have ate a chip! I have ate bread! I just don't do it everyday. I don't come on here and cry and whine because I did it. I move on and make sure I don't make it a habit. My surgeon told me if I was good 90% of the time I would be a success. I think I am. I just wish people would lighten up on others and worry about what they are doing.
I love this new blog system!
Oct 25, 2006
When I first found out I was going to lose my other profile I was really upset. Now I am so happy about this one. I think it is because I did it all by myself. I am really proud how it looks. It took me a while to get all my entries transfered but it was so worth it. This is truley my profile now. Not just something someone did for me. I just wish we had a spell check.
My daughter got braces today. I think they look so nice. I guess I would for what I paid for them today. That is alright because she will have beautiful teeth in about a year. That is not long at all. My youngest daughter is not going to have to have them. She has perfect teeth. My son will be next. He has an appointment the first of the year. He was my thumb sucker. The best baby in the world but it affected his teeth.
I have to take my mom to therepy tomorrow. She is having alot of problems. It has been a week since her knee replacement.
My daughter got braces today. I think they look so nice. I guess I would for what I paid for them today. That is alright because she will have beautiful teeth in about a year. That is not long at all. My youngest daughter is not going to have to have them. She has perfect teeth. My son will be next. He has an appointment the first of the year. He was my thumb sucker. The best baby in the world but it affected his teeth.
I have to take my mom to therepy tomorrow. She is having alot of problems. It has been a week since her knee replacement.
Let it snow..Let it snow... Let it snow!
Oct 24, 2006
We are having the first snow flurries of the season and I am not going to complain about it anymore. I am really enjoying it. I live in a beautiful place with my family that I love. What more could I ask for. Well a couple million wouldn't hurt. LOL I have a friend that lives in Lousiania and she would love to see the snow. I get to enjoy the 4 seasons god made. How lucky am I. Makes me start thinking about Christmas. I couldn't imagine Christmas with warm weather.
Hubby told me I could buy a male Yorkie that I was looking at the other day. Not sure if I will buy it or not. Dh already named him Cujo.
Hubby told me I could buy a male Yorkie that I was looking at the other day. Not sure if I will buy it or not. Dh already named him Cujo.
Will I ever sleep again..
Oct 22, 2006
I am having a terrible time with RLS. I keep thinking it will go away. I hate to take medication for it but I think it is time to consider. I have to have my labs done very soon so I will check into it then. I need to go out and get something that might help me sleep tonight or it will be a long night again.
Wow.. time sure flys!
Oct 21, 2006
Ican't believe it is almost Halloween. Time goes by so fast. I am staying steady at the same weight. I bounce around 145. I am happy here.
My Mom had knee replacement surgery. It was terrible. She is feeling a little better today. They couldn't find any pain meds. that agreed with her.
Kristen get her braces on in a couple days. I am excited for her. Her teeth will be so beautiful.
This is my first offical blog here. I have transfered all my entries from my previous profile to this one. Wow I didn't knw I wrote so much. I did it to help others but for me it is a way to help myself. I can come her and express myself. It helps to look back and not forget what I came through to get her.
May 22 -September 2006
Oct 21, 2006
May 22, 2006
Today I am 23 months post op Lap RNY. I can't believe how so much has changed. I can't believe I have lost all my weight and then some. I am really happy with my body, life and family. I am looking forward to the beach this year. I can't wait to take the kids to the park, swim in our pool with them and we might play some basketball. I am working on getting my Yorkie(Jinny) to walk on a leash. She thinks she is the queen and has to be carried. She would have so much more fun if she would relax and walk on our trips.
Something funny happend yesterday and it got me thinking..WOW. My 6 yr. old son came running through the house and told me Mommy I now weigh 71. He was so excited and said what do you weigh? I told him I weighed 71 X's 2. So he got a piece of paper and figured it out. He would giggle and giggle. I thought is was funny that I only weigh twice as much as my 6 year old. Kaylee then said Mommy you only weigh 30 more pounds than me. They were getting a kick out of that but it was thrilling me! I never in my wildest dreams thought I would be at the weight I am now. Thank God for WLS!!!
Almost forgot I am going to get to see Bo Bice and Hank Williams Jr. at the summer picnic this year!!! Wahooooo!!! Last time I went to one of these was in July 2004 and I wrote about it above here. I remeber going in 2003 obese and just about passing out. I was so hot and fat and just so miserable!
May 24, 2006
What a wonderful day. I drove up to Ohio to the Lloyd Middleton doll factory and meet up with a wonderful friend Bon and her husband. They were wonderful I am so glad I got to finally meet them. I also got to meet Janice Middleton that was great. I had never meet her. I meet Lloyd back in 2002 right after Randall had his accident. He was one special man. A few years ago they had a convention at the LLoyd middleton factory. I was Very obese and to ashamed to go. I wanted to go so bad. A few years ago I would never have went to meet Bon because of my weight.
May 29, 2006
I was having a wonderful weekend until this morning. I have been so upset and hurt. I still haven't figured it all out and probally never will. Another forum I go to we have a problem and I am getting blamed. I was screwed big time. I can't prove it. It is just my word agaisnt theres but you know in the end a fraud is always seen for their true colors. I loved this forum and have had many friends there and now for them to have doubt about me breaks my heart. The worst part is to think they may not want me anymore is a nightmare.
Saturday I took the girls swimsuit shopping. I loved trying everything one.
On Sunday my husband took me to 4wheeler riding. It was so much fun! We sat and watch people climb the stairsteps. Those people are crazy. haha
Then Monday we went to the park and let the kids fish. We grilled some steaks and had a great time.
The tip for today.. Stay away from Archway SF cookies. I made the kids some brownines instead of eating a bite I ate a SF cookie. Oh gosh I was sick as a dog. I don't want anymore cookies or the brownines.. yuck yuck yuck! Something I think I would be better off eating a bite of the regular stuff and stay away from SF. It makes me sick everytime!
The vet opened another infection pocket up on Jinny and put a drain in. They put her on a new antibiotic. Lets hope this one works and another pocket don't pop up. I have to take her back next week and they will take the first set of stiches and the drain ourt..
I have been a little upset this week and have ate wrong. No protein and just mostly grazing. I am down a few pounds this morning. At first I was all excited but the more I think about it I need to get back on track so I can maintain and be healthy. I am sure those few pounds will be back.. I bounce up and down about 8 pounds but this is the lowest I have seen. I can't say I feel real good either. I really need to get back up to around 150 that is the best I felt.
June 8, 2006
I am so mad right now. I just called to confirm my husband appointment in Charleston tomorrow... I have learned the hard way to call the day before and make sure he still has one. They ran us all the way to Morgantown onetime only to get up there and find out his appointment was cancelled! Well it has been cancelled AGAIN!!! This is the 3rd time in 2 months. This time they didn't even bother telling me! We have been going through this for 3 years with Comp. I don;t kow if it is comp. or the Dr. that is cancelling. I was really looking forward to going to Charleston and shopping while he was at the doctors appointment. Then we was planning to go to Red Lobster for dinner. I had a babysitter lined up and everything was ready. Just wait until DH comes home and finds out he got someone to work for him and everything to find out he don't have appointment anymore. Just needed a vent....
It has been almost 2 years since my surgery. I still can't believe how well it worked. I thought last year that I would stop losing and I would stay about 160. Now I am down to 145 and doing great. My body has changed alot from last year too. The weight I have has shifted around. I still would like to add some more muscle to my legs. They are to small. I think they need to be more muscular.
June 11, 2006
Where has the time gone. It is the middle of June and I am freezing to death. I sure wish it would warm up and stay that way. I really would love 90's from here on out. We are thinking about taking the car instead of the SUV to the beach and it don't have air so I might not think that then.. ha ha To take my SUV is going to cost us around $300 in gas to take the car would only cost around $70.. that is money I could just shopping. Not sure if it is worth having the 3 kids sitting beside each other and complaining that somebody touched them.. ha ha
Well it is almost my 2 year anniversary so I decided to treat myself. Not only am I going to the beach for a week I order a new doll. Her name is Lisa Marie and she is 36" tall. I can't wait to get her. I think she will look great beside my fireplace. Here she is..
June 15 2006
Ok here is the deal. I gave up my power crunch bars because I was nibbling on them all day and some days I would eat as many as 2 of them. No I wasn't going over my calories or gaining weight but I felt a little obessed with them and just stopped buying them. Now since I don't have them I find myself wanting to try that cookie or candy. It might be just a bite but I think a bite will end up being the whole thing in months to come. I don't want to test the grounds with sugar. If I eat a little here and a little there I think I will get used to it and maybe it won't make me dump one day. So what this comes down to is I ordered 2 boxes of Power crunch bars and wish now I would have ordered more. I can accept the fact I might have a little to much of that but I refuse to start eating real sugar.
June 18, 2006
I am so lucky to have 2 great fathers in my life. My Dad which is the best. He is so loving and caring. He has always made sure I had what I needed and even sometimes what I wanted. I couldn't ask for a better Dad. He is the BEST!! The other is my husband. He is a wonderful Dad to my kids. Again he makes sure they have what the need and alot of what they want. He works hard so I can stay home with the kids. He is the best husband and father a women could ask for. I am so lucky to have 2 great men in my life!
I have a week until we leave for the beach. I am so happy I love the beach. It is so peaceful and relaxing! This Saturday I am going to go see Hank Williams jr. and Bo Bice. Well I think... It is in Logan and I am not sure I want to make that drive the day before we go to the beach.
I got my Power crunch bars and I was surprised they are not as good as I remember. I still have to break them into 4 pieces or they will make me dump bad.
I forgot to add.. only 4 more days until my 2 year anniversary. I really proud of myself. The things I thought that would be hard to give up like soda has been a breeze. Now smoking on the other hand has been so hard for me. It has been a little over 2 years now and I still want one so bad. Not all the time just when I gets stressed. Somedays I try to convience myself that I can just smoke one and it will be ok.. I am glad the sane part of me takes over because I can't do that. That is how I started back after my son was born. I have been quit that time for over 5 years and it only took one and I was back. I got stressed and thought I could have just one and it didn't work. I sure don't want to have to quit again but somedays I feel like I won't make it.
June 23, 2006
Wow yesterday was my 2 year anniversary and I missed it... ha ha I have been so busy. I went yesterday and had my hair down and took Kristen to buy a new bellybutton ring for the beach to match her swimsuit. Then I came home and cleaned out my suv to get ready for the beach. Tomorrow we got see Bo Bice and Hank Williams Jr. at he company picnic.
July 5, 2006
What a great couple weeks I have had. Last week we went to the beach for a week. The room was spectular! We had a 3 bedroom that had a view from every room. I had a wonderful time. Only thing I didn't buy a new swimsuit and will by next summer. A wave hit me knocked me down and I just about lost my suit.. ha ha ha I wasn't the only one.. the way were so rough that day Miranda and Kristen was fighting to keep theirs on too. I never knew how much difference 15 pounds could make in a swimsuit. Dh and I went out to dinner one night alone.. that was nice. We went to Thorney's. Dh bought me a Tshirt that says" do i make you thorney" ha ha ha He thought it was hot. I doubt I ever wear it unless I wear it to the beach next year. I don't think anyone would get it around here.. ha ha We also went and ate Lobster one night. It was so yummy! I love lobster.
Now about the concert. Hank really put on a great show! I loved it! Bo Bice on the other hand looked like a bad foreign film.. his mouth never matched the words...hummmmm...
July 7, 2006
I was just looking at my profile and decided that picture above makes me look 20 pounds heavier.. I don't think I like that one anymore.. ha ha
July 13, 2006
Funniest thing happen. I went and ordered 4 boxes of power crunch bars becuase The Vitamin Shoppe had them for $13.44 a box and free shipping. I was thrilled. I posted it on the main board and nobody else was getting that they were getting regular price and free shipping with $99. So I go back and end up ordering 4 more boxes just to see if I could.. ha ha I could! it gave me the same price and free shipping. So I have 8 boxes coming.. hahaha At that price why not. The next morning I got up and checked the sight and I too was getting $16.50 a box and free shipping on orders of $99.00. I guess I just lucked out. I usally order 4 boxes at a time. On 4 boxes I saved around $20.00 counting shipping and all. I always knew I was special!! ROFL!! They had a sale just for me!! ha ha ha Now to keep DH and the kids out of them so I can keep them longer than a month.**mad face**
july 14, 2006
Went to Blueberry Hill last night. The kids love picking berries. I think I will go back every week until the end of the season. We picked about 2 gallon.
I think I am the luckiest girl alive! My wonderful husband took me to dinner this evening. I had 2 lobster tails that were so yummy I couldn't stand it. I love lobster and could eat it all the time. Then we went shopping around. I got a pair of black dress pants that price was $70.00 I only paid 6 bucks for them. The best thing they are a size 6. I got home and tried them on and they are perfect!!
Wow.. what a week. I have spent the last 3 days at the hospital. Good thing everything turned out to be ok.
Today is the 22nd of the month again. It has been 2 years one month since my RNY. I still have issues with food and really I hope I always do. Not sure if I didn't if old habits wouldn't come back. I am so thankful for surgery!
August 2, 2006
Wow it is hot today. I am trying to get my yard and my grandmothers ready for the family reunion. My DH usually helps me alot but he is working long hours right now. I really miss him. Our anniversary is coming up I hope we get to do something special. He has an appointment that day so he has taken that day off. I just hope they don't cancel it.
I have been trying to jog 4 times a week. Well I feel like an elephant and I would say I look like one too! I am going to keep going I will get it sooner or later! I did laps in the pool last night and wow what a workout. I forgot how good swimming is. My shoulders are sore today. This was the first time it has been warm enough to swim. I like my water around 90! haha
My son is so sweet. Last night I was in a hurry trying to get everyone in bed. Well I went into my room and shut the door. In about a minute I knew I forgot to tuck Randy in and give him a kiss. Off I go back to his room. He was laying in the bed with tears streaming down his face. He said Mommy I thought you forgot to give me my kiss. I gave him a big hug and kiss and crawled in bed with him and we talked for a few minutes. I think this might be the sweetest child. I better enjoy it he will turn 7 on the 13th of this month. I would love to go back when he was first born and the girls were 3 and 4. That was such a great time. I loved having them little.
August 8 2006
My day started out so wonderful today. First I took my son to his eye appointment because my husband and I thought he was getting a lazy eye. Well it is not a lazy eye which is good. All is muscles look wonderful. She keep checking and he does have a week left eye and he strains it makes him cross that eye to try to see. They siad he need to wear a weak eye glasses for a year and they thoguht it would strengthen up. He was excited. ha ha ha We went and pick out the cutest pair of glasses. They should be in next week. He looks so cute I cried and cried!
After that is when my day went wrong. I haven't ate anything out of the usually but I was bent double in pain of hours. Not sure if I am getting an ulcer or if it is gas pains because I can't burp. This is about the 3rd time it has happend since surgery. It is not somthing stuck pain and it is not I am sick dumping pain. This is different. Just plain knife cutting pain in my pouch and under my rib area.
August 11, 2006
Today is my Anniversary. I have been married 16 wonderful years. I very blessed to have a man that I love so much and loves me. We spend a wonderful day together. Had lunch at the Olive Garden then off to the mall for shopping. He bought me a beautiful charm bracelet and a anklet. I have wanted a charm bracelet for the longest time. Now when my DH goes shopping for me he can always just pick up a charm to go onto my bracelet. Most places that sell 14k gold will have them from the mall to walmart. I have to be patient I want to run out and buy a bunch of charms but I really want the bracelet to have meaning so I will wait.
I want to show you my handsome son. He got his first pair of glasses and I think he looks so good in them. It has been a couple days and he has really been wearing them. I am so proud!
September 5, 2006
Nothing to report on the weight loss side of me. I am still maintaing. I stay around 145.
My husband went to the heart dr. yesterday. His Triglycerides when he was in the hospital was around 600. Today they were down to 160. He has lost 20 pounds. He never took the medication they gave him this month. Even though his numbers are coming down the dr. still wants him to take meds. for it. He agreed and I got them filled.
After the dr. and we took Randy to the dentist. We went and bought a new F-250 truck. I wasn't happy about it at first but I guess it will be ok. I got to go to the mall and get 3 charms for my bracelet after that so I was happy then. ha ha
Today I am 23 months post op Lap RNY. I can't believe how so much has changed. I can't believe I have lost all my weight and then some. I am really happy with my body, life and family. I am looking forward to the beach this year. I can't wait to take the kids to the park, swim in our pool with them and we might play some basketball. I am working on getting my Yorkie(Jinny) to walk on a leash. She thinks she is the queen and has to be carried. She would have so much more fun if she would relax and walk on our trips.
Something funny happend yesterday and it got me thinking..WOW. My 6 yr. old son came running through the house and told me Mommy I now weigh 71. He was so excited and said what do you weigh? I told him I weighed 71 X's 2. So he got a piece of paper and figured it out. He would giggle and giggle. I thought is was funny that I only weigh twice as much as my 6 year old. Kaylee then said Mommy you only weigh 30 more pounds than me. They were getting a kick out of that but it was thrilling me! I never in my wildest dreams thought I would be at the weight I am now. Thank God for WLS!!!
Almost forgot I am going to get to see Bo Bice and Hank Williams Jr. at the summer picnic this year!!! Wahooooo!!! Last time I went to one of these was in July 2004 and I wrote about it above here. I remeber going in 2003 obese and just about passing out. I was so hot and fat and just so miserable!
May 24, 2006
What a wonderful day. I drove up to Ohio to the Lloyd Middleton doll factory and meet up with a wonderful friend Bon and her husband. They were wonderful I am so glad I got to finally meet them. I also got to meet Janice Middleton that was great. I had never meet her. I meet Lloyd back in 2002 right after Randall had his accident. He was one special man. A few years ago they had a convention at the LLoyd middleton factory. I was Very obese and to ashamed to go. I wanted to go so bad. A few years ago I would never have went to meet Bon because of my weight.
I was having a wonderful weekend until this morning. I have been so upset and hurt. I still haven't figured it all out and probally never will. Another forum I go to we have a problem and I am getting blamed. I was screwed big time. I can't prove it. It is just my word agaisnt theres but you know in the end a fraud is always seen for their true colors. I loved this forum and have had many friends there and now for them to have doubt about me breaks my heart. The worst part is to think they may not want me anymore is a nightmare.
Saturday I took the girls swimsuit shopping. I loved trying everything one.
On Sunday my husband took me to 4wheeler riding. It was so much fun! We sat and watch people climb the stairsteps. Those people are crazy. haha
Then Monday we went to the park and let the kids fish. We grilled some steaks and had a great time.
The tip for today.. Stay away from Archway SF cookies. I made the kids some brownines instead of eating a bite I ate a SF cookie. Oh gosh I was sick as a dog. I don't want anymore cookies or the brownines.. yuck yuck yuck! Something I think I would be better off eating a bite of the regular stuff and stay away from SF. It makes me sick everytime!
The vet opened another infection pocket up on Jinny and put a drain in. They put her on a new antibiotic. Lets hope this one works and another pocket don't pop up. I have to take her back next week and they will take the first set of stiches and the drain ourt..
I have been a little upset this week and have ate wrong. No protein and just mostly grazing. I am down a few pounds this morning. At first I was all excited but the more I think about it I need to get back on track so I can maintain and be healthy. I am sure those few pounds will be back.. I bounce up and down about 8 pounds but this is the lowest I have seen. I can't say I feel real good either. I really need to get back up to around 150 that is the best I felt.
June 8, 2006
I am so mad right now. I just called to confirm my husband appointment in Charleston tomorrow... I have learned the hard way to call the day before and make sure he still has one. They ran us all the way to Morgantown onetime only to get up there and find out his appointment was cancelled! Well it has been cancelled AGAIN!!! This is the 3rd time in 2 months. This time they didn't even bother telling me! We have been going through this for 3 years with Comp. I don;t kow if it is comp. or the Dr. that is cancelling. I was really looking forward to going to Charleston and shopping while he was at the doctors appointment. Then we was planning to go to Red Lobster for dinner. I had a babysitter lined up and everything was ready. Just wait until DH comes home and finds out he got someone to work for him and everything to find out he don't have appointment anymore. Just needed a vent....
It has been almost 2 years since my surgery. I still can't believe how well it worked. I thought last year that I would stop losing and I would stay about 160. Now I am down to 145 and doing great. My body has changed alot from last year too. The weight I have has shifted around. I still would like to add some more muscle to my legs. They are to small. I think they need to be more muscular.
Where has the time gone. It is the middle of June and I am freezing to death. I sure wish it would warm up and stay that way. I really would love 90's from here on out. We are thinking about taking the car instead of the SUV to the beach and it don't have air so I might not think that then.. ha ha To take my SUV is going to cost us around $300 in gas to take the car would only cost around $70.. that is money I could just shopping. Not sure if it is worth having the 3 kids sitting beside each other and complaining that somebody touched them.. ha ha
Well it is almost my 2 year anniversary so I decided to treat myself. Not only am I going to the beach for a week I order a new doll. Her name is Lisa Marie and she is 36" tall. I can't wait to get her. I think she will look great beside my fireplace. Here she is..
June 15 2006
Ok here is the deal. I gave up my power crunch bars because I was nibbling on them all day and some days I would eat as many as 2 of them. No I wasn't going over my calories or gaining weight but I felt a little obessed with them and just stopped buying them. Now since I don't have them I find myself wanting to try that cookie or candy. It might be just a bite but I think a bite will end up being the whole thing in months to come. I don't want to test the grounds with sugar. If I eat a little here and a little there I think I will get used to it and maybe it won't make me dump one day. So what this comes down to is I ordered 2 boxes of Power crunch bars and wish now I would have ordered more. I can accept the fact I might have a little to much of that but I refuse to start eating real sugar.
I am so lucky to have 2 great fathers in my life. My Dad which is the best. He is so loving and caring. He has always made sure I had what I needed and even sometimes what I wanted. I couldn't ask for a better Dad. He is the BEST!! The other is my husband. He is a wonderful Dad to my kids. Again he makes sure they have what the need and alot of what they want. He works hard so I can stay home with the kids. He is the best husband and father a women could ask for. I am so lucky to have 2 great men in my life!
I have a week until we leave for the beach. I am so happy I love the beach. It is so peaceful and relaxing! This Saturday I am going to go see Hank Williams jr. and Bo Bice. Well I think... It is in Logan and I am not sure I want to make that drive the day before we go to the beach.
I got my Power crunch bars and I was surprised they are not as good as I remember. I still have to break them into 4 pieces or they will make me dump bad.
I forgot to add.. only 4 more days until my 2 year anniversary. I really proud of myself. The things I thought that would be hard to give up like soda has been a breeze. Now smoking on the other hand has been so hard for me. It has been a little over 2 years now and I still want one so bad. Not all the time just when I gets stressed. Somedays I try to convience myself that I can just smoke one and it will be ok.. I am glad the sane part of me takes over because I can't do that. That is how I started back after my son was born. I have been quit that time for over 5 years and it only took one and I was back. I got stressed and thought I could have just one and it didn't work. I sure don't want to have to quit again but somedays I feel like I won't make it.
Wow yesterday was my 2 year anniversary and I missed it... ha ha I have been so busy. I went yesterday and had my hair down and took Kristen to buy a new bellybutton ring for the beach to match her swimsuit. Then I came home and cleaned out my suv to get ready for the beach. Tomorrow we got see Bo Bice and Hank Williams Jr. at he company picnic.
What a great couple weeks I have had. Last week we went to the beach for a week. The room was spectular! We had a 3 bedroom that had a view from every room. I had a wonderful time. Only thing I didn't buy a new swimsuit and will by next summer. A wave hit me knocked me down and I just about lost my suit.. ha ha ha I wasn't the only one.. the way were so rough that day Miranda and Kristen was fighting to keep theirs on too. I never knew how much difference 15 pounds could make in a swimsuit. Dh and I went out to dinner one night alone.. that was nice. We went to Thorney's. Dh bought me a Tshirt that says" do i make you thorney" ha ha ha He thought it was hot. I doubt I ever wear it unless I wear it to the beach next year. I don't think anyone would get it around here.. ha ha We also went and ate Lobster one night. It was so yummy! I love lobster.
Now about the concert. Hank really put on a great show! I loved it! Bo Bice on the other hand looked like a bad foreign film.. his mouth never matched the words...hummmmm...
July 7, 2006
I was just looking at my profile and decided that picture above makes me look 20 pounds heavier.. I don't think I like that one anymore.. ha ha
July 13, 2006
Funniest thing happen. I went and ordered 4 boxes of power crunch bars becuase The Vitamin Shoppe had them for $13.44 a box and free shipping. I was thrilled. I posted it on the main board and nobody else was getting that they were getting regular price and free shipping with $99. So I go back and end up ordering 4 more boxes just to see if I could.. ha ha I could! it gave me the same price and free shipping. So I have 8 boxes coming.. hahaha At that price why not. The next morning I got up and checked the sight and I too was getting $16.50 a box and free shipping on orders of $99.00. I guess I just lucked out. I usally order 4 boxes at a time. On 4 boxes I saved around $20.00 counting shipping and all. I always knew I was special!! ROFL!! They had a sale just for me!! ha ha ha Now to keep DH and the kids out of them so I can keep them longer than a month.**mad face**
Went to Blueberry Hill last night. The kids love picking berries. I think I will go back every week until the end of the season. We picked about 2 gallon.
I think I am the luckiest girl alive! My wonderful husband took me to dinner this evening. I had 2 lobster tails that were so yummy I couldn't stand it. I love lobster and could eat it all the time. Then we went shopping around. I got a pair of black dress pants that price was $70.00 I only paid 6 bucks for them. The best thing they are a size 6. I got home and tried them on and they are perfect!!
Wow.. what a week. I have spent the last 3 days at the hospital. Good thing everything turned out to be ok.
Today is the 22nd of the month again. It has been 2 years one month since my RNY. I still have issues with food and really I hope I always do. Not sure if I didn't if old habits wouldn't come back. I am so thankful for surgery!
Wow it is hot today. I am trying to get my yard and my grandmothers ready for the family reunion. My DH usually helps me alot but he is working long hours right now. I really miss him. Our anniversary is coming up I hope we get to do something special. He has an appointment that day so he has taken that day off. I just hope they don't cancel it.
I have been trying to jog 4 times a week. Well I feel like an elephant and I would say I look like one too! I am going to keep going I will get it sooner or later! I did laps in the pool last night and wow what a workout. I forgot how good swimming is. My shoulders are sore today. This was the first time it has been warm enough to swim. I like my water around 90! haha
My son is so sweet. Last night I was in a hurry trying to get everyone in bed. Well I went into my room and shut the door. In about a minute I knew I forgot to tuck Randy in and give him a kiss. Off I go back to his room. He was laying in the bed with tears streaming down his face. He said Mommy I thought you forgot to give me my kiss. I gave him a big hug and kiss and crawled in bed with him and we talked for a few minutes. I think this might be the sweetest child. I better enjoy it he will turn 7 on the 13th of this month. I would love to go back when he was first born and the girls were 3 and 4. That was such a great time. I loved having them little.
My day started out so wonderful today. First I took my son to his eye appointment because my husband and I thought he was getting a lazy eye. Well it is not a lazy eye which is good. All is muscles look wonderful. She keep checking and he does have a week left eye and he strains it makes him cross that eye to try to see. They siad he need to wear a weak eye glasses for a year and they thoguht it would strengthen up. He was excited. ha ha ha We went and pick out the cutest pair of glasses. They should be in next week. He looks so cute I cried and cried!
After that is when my day went wrong. I haven't ate anything out of the usually but I was bent double in pain of hours. Not sure if I am getting an ulcer or if it is gas pains because I can't burp. This is about the 3rd time it has happend since surgery. It is not somthing stuck pain and it is not I am sick dumping pain. This is different. Just plain knife cutting pain in my pouch and under my rib area.
August 11, 2006
Today is my Anniversary. I have been married 16 wonderful years. I very blessed to have a man that I love so much and loves me. We spend a wonderful day together. Had lunch at the Olive Garden then off to the mall for shopping. He bought me a beautiful charm bracelet and a anklet. I have wanted a charm bracelet for the longest time. Now when my DH goes shopping for me he can always just pick up a charm to go onto my bracelet. Most places that sell 14k gold will have them from the mall to walmart. I have to be patient I want to run out and buy a bunch of charms but I really want the bracelet to have meaning so I will wait.
I want to show you my handsome son. He got his first pair of glasses and I think he looks so good in them. It has been a couple days and he has really been wearing them. I am so proud!
September 5, 2006
Nothing to report on the weight loss side of me. I am still maintaing. I stay around 145.
My husband went to the heart dr. yesterday. His Triglycerides when he was in the hospital was around 600. Today they were down to 160. He has lost 20 pounds. He never took the medication they gave him this month. Even though his numbers are coming down the dr. still wants him to take meds. for it. He agreed and I got them filled.
After the dr. and we took Randy to the dentist. We went and bought a new F-250 truck. I wasn't happy about it at first but I guess it will be ok. I got to go to the mall and get 3 charms for my bracelet after that so I was happy then. ha ha
Febuary 20066- May 2006
Feb 21, 2006
Febuary 2, 2006
Happy groundhog day!! Looks like 6 more weeks of winter. Thats okay we haven't had any yet. ha ha I had a horrible day yesterday. I had a flat tire then a dead battery. I went and tried to use my new Flex spending account card on Kristens glasses and contacst and it needs a PIN number. They didn't give me one. This is the first year I signed up for this and so far I keep seeing money go out of the paycheck and not being able to use any of it. I am going to have DH call after his nap.
This is me...well a long time ago. I am with my grandpa and grandma. I adored my grandpa. He was the best. He told everyone I was his favorite. ha ha
March 4, 2006
Hey everyone!! Thought I would update. Everything is going well. I feel better than I have in a long time. I had a wow moment yesterday. I was going through some clothes and ran across my size 6 Levi shorts I bought last summer and they were a little tight. I put them on and they are a little big now! WAHOOO!!!
April 1 2006
Happy Aprils fools day!!
My wieght is still steady right now. I am loving everything I am able to do now like walk, bike and just play and be silly.
I went to bed last night and I had a beautiful card and a single peach rose laying on my pillow. That was the flower used in our wedding. My hubby is so sweet. He brings me roses alot but not cards. He wrote a special message inside that brought me to tears.
Heer I am today April 1st.. it is a little dark but my kids are taking it..
April 3, 2006
We took the kids fishing this evening. Things got mixed up and my youngest daughter got lost from me. I thought she was with her Dad and her Dad thought she was with me. Anyway after running 1 1/2 miles around the lake I found her crying beside the lake. I was so scared and so was she. I tell you she won't get out of my site again for a long time. Thank God everything turned out alright. I still feel like I can't breathe!
Well I walked 2 miles today and then ran another 1.5 miles this evening.
I can't believe it I fit into an Areopostal shirt! YAY!! I never thought I could shop in the stores in the mall again. Everything is tiny. My daughter is 10 and can wear a L out of those stores... here I am!
May 9, 2006
I was watching Hsn and they were selling a WW scale. I thought how small the model was. turned out she was the same height and weight I am. It is still had to believe that I am as small as other people. I don't see a fat girl anymore but I sure don't see a small girl either.
The kids didn't have school today so I took my oldest daughter to get her bellybutton pireced. It looks really cool. She is fighting bad body image and I want her to know she is special just the way she is. My granmother told her the other day she looked terrible because she dyed her hair back to the orginal color. If she likes it that is all that matter and people should think before they say something like that to a child. I am still mad over it!
Here she is... isn't she beautiful?!
Happy groundhog day!! Looks like 6 more weeks of winter. Thats okay we haven't had any yet. ha ha I had a horrible day yesterday. I had a flat tire then a dead battery. I went and tried to use my new Flex spending account card on Kristens glasses and contacst and it needs a PIN number. They didn't give me one. This is the first year I signed up for this and so far I keep seeing money go out of the paycheck and not being able to use any of it. I am going to have DH call after his nap.
This is me...well a long time ago. I am with my grandpa and grandma. I adored my grandpa. He was the best. He told everyone I was his favorite. ha ha
Hey everyone!! Thought I would update. Everything is going well. I feel better than I have in a long time. I had a wow moment yesterday. I was going through some clothes and ran across my size 6 Levi shorts I bought last summer and they were a little tight. I put them on and they are a little big now! WAHOOO!!!
Happy Aprils fools day!!
My wieght is still steady right now. I am loving everything I am able to do now like walk, bike and just play and be silly.
I went to bed last night and I had a beautiful card and a single peach rose laying on my pillow. That was the flower used in our wedding. My hubby is so sweet. He brings me roses alot but not cards. He wrote a special message inside that brought me to tears.
Heer I am today April 1st.. it is a little dark but my kids are taking it..
April 3, 2006
We took the kids fishing this evening. Things got mixed up and my youngest daughter got lost from me. I thought she was with her Dad and her Dad thought she was with me. Anyway after running 1 1/2 miles around the lake I found her crying beside the lake. I was so scared and so was she. I tell you she won't get out of my site again for a long time. Thank God everything turned out alright. I still feel like I can't breathe!
Well I walked 2 miles today and then ran another 1.5 miles this evening.
I was watching Hsn and they were selling a WW scale. I thought how small the model was. turned out she was the same height and weight I am. It is still had to believe that I am as small as other people. I don't see a fat girl anymore but I sure don't see a small girl either.
The kids didn't have school today so I took my oldest daughter to get her bellybutton pireced. It looks really cool. She is fighting bad body image and I want her to know she is special just the way she is. My granmother told her the other day she looked terrible because she dyed her hair back to the orginal color. If she likes it that is all that matter and people should think before they say something like that to a child. I am still mad over it!
Here she is... isn't she beautiful?!
January
Jan 01, 2006
January 4 2006
Today is a tragic day. 12 miners were killed at a Sago mine in WV. With my husband being a miner and my father it really hits my heart hard. I can't imagine what these families are going through and hope I never do. A little over 3 years ago I got a call in the middle of the night my husband had been hurt. Ever since I have been a nervous wreck when my husband goes to work. I just recently started feeling comfortable with it and now this tragity happens. I hope God touches these families and helps them through.
Here is our family picture that was taken at the company Christmas party December 3 2005. It was free so I can't complain..ha ha ha My scanner also is not working so again I am trying to take a picture of a picture.
January 7, 2006
I hope you all are having a nice day! I have been freezing to death today. I think drinking over a gallon of ice tea hasn't helped either. I have stayed in the bathroom! ha ha ha I seen a post of the main board of people regretting this surgery. I don't at all. I did at first. It was alot to get adjusted to. Only thing keep me going is that I knew that I was going to be thin and healthy oneday. Then it would be all worth it. These 18 months have passed so fast. I can't believe it. I now feel like going in public and I can be proud of myself. My husband is so thrilled with my success he can't keep his hands off me . ha ha I think it has even brought us closer because he was always a cuddler and I was afraid he would feel my fat if we cuddled. Now I sit on his lap. He picks me up and we cuddle all the time! it is great!
I have been working organizing my pictures so I thought I would share a few more. I have add some to the top of my profile also.
January 9,2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! Ha ha ha Today is my birthday...I love birthdays! I don't think of it as getting older I think I am getting better! It has already been such a great day. My husband took me to lunch at Logan Roadhouse. They just opened and we were on of their first customers. I had steak with mushrooms. It was really good but brought most of it home. That's what I will be having for dinner tonight! DH also got me 2 more Dooney&Bourke purses at work. They can order stuff with their saftey points and he always ends up getting me a purse. Gotta love him!
January 12, 2006
I have danced for the last hour with my kids. It was so fun and we laughed so hard! The just imformed me that " MOM YOU DANCE LIKE IN THE 70's!" What??? How do you dance in 2006...does this change? ha ha ha I guess so. I will need to learn new moves before I take my show on the road..LMAO!
Please take time to laugh, dance and play with your children. It is so worth it!
January 13, 2006
Happy Friday the 13th!
My kids are wanting to take the black kitty to school with them to freak people out. ha ha Friday the 13th has been a lucky day for me. My son was born on Friday 13th in an electrical storm. ha ha If you would have seen me you would have known why that was lucky. I was huge. I couldn't lay down. They told me he was going to be 12 pounds so they induced me 2 weeks early. He was ONLY a little over 9 pounds..ha ha
I finally get to spend the day with my husband! YAY He works a swing shift of one month day and one evening. He has been on evening and with his long drive he don't get home until 3am. The last few mornings he has been going talking to someone about another job. He is thinking about taking it. I am so nervous about him changing. It would be more money and only a 30 minute drive but I am so scared of change. I am not saying anything I am sure he will do the right thing. If not I think he could get another job. He has offers all the time. What sucks is this company would have paid for my Gastric Bypass...to late! ha ha
January 14,2006
Well my husbands doctor made up his mind about the new job. He can't take it. He needs to have gallbladder surgery ASAP. He gallbladder is only functioning at 4%. I thought his gallbaldder was bad but after the first test didn't find stones I sort of thought maybe it was acid reflux making him so sick. He will see a surgeon next week about taking it out. I hope they can do it fast.
I have been really eating good and walking everyday. I am down to 145 now!!! My mom told me to stop losing weight that I look healthy now and she don't want me to look sick. You know I would like for someone to tell me one time in my life hey you need to GAIN some weight. ha ha ha My husband told me to stop 30 pounds ago but I don't want to. Will it ever be enough?? I am afraid to try to stop. What if I gain? After all I have been through and the money I spent how could I live with myself if I would gain a pound. I think I will just stop losing. My body will find a weight it is meant to be at. I don't starve myself by any means but I don't eat like a normal person. I still eat like I am 6 months post op. I eat healthy good food and lots of protein shakes.
January 20, 2006
I am one proud Momma! Randy was picked today for being good out of the whole school and he won a free T-shirt. I am so proud!
Kristen came home crying today. She said she didn't want her Daddy to be a coal miner anymore. We have 2 more miners here trapped in WV. It is the same company my husband works at but not the same mine. I hope and pray they are alright.
January 26, 2006
My DH seen the surgeon today. They feel that his gallbladder needs to come out ASAP. They are doing it in the morning. They are going to try to do it Lap. but they are afraid that it will be to infected and they may have to cut him. I hope his is as easy as mine was.
January 28,2006
Finally back from the hospital. My Dh had gallbladder surgery. He was infected and had to stay a little longer because of it. We are home and he is doing good. Just a little uncomfortable.
Hospital eating was terrible. I think they are trying to kill people with that junk. All they severed was pizza, corndogs, nachos and a bunch of other junk. I finally found a pack of peanut butter crackers and a apple. It hit me at the hospital that I am going to be alright! I don't want that junk and I think I will succeed with my weightloss. I am not saying I will never have junk food but before I would have hit every fast food place 3 and 4 times a day! ha ha Food doesn't control me any longer!
I was reading over the main message board. I can't believe how people change after WLS. They get so self absorbed it is sickening. Then you have some that wants to know when they can eat KFC again. Make me never want to go there. I read some but most of the time I just sit back and shake my head.
Today is a tragic day. 12 miners were killed at a Sago mine in WV. With my husband being a miner and my father it really hits my heart hard. I can't imagine what these families are going through and hope I never do. A little over 3 years ago I got a call in the middle of the night my husband had been hurt. Ever since I have been a nervous wreck when my husband goes to work. I just recently started feeling comfortable with it and now this tragity happens. I hope God touches these families and helps them through.
Here is our family picture that was taken at the company Christmas party December 3 2005. It was free so I can't complain..ha ha ha My scanner also is not working so again I am trying to take a picture of a picture.
I hope you all are having a nice day! I have been freezing to death today. I think drinking over a gallon of ice tea hasn't helped either. I have stayed in the bathroom! ha ha ha I seen a post of the main board of people regretting this surgery. I don't at all. I did at first. It was alot to get adjusted to. Only thing keep me going is that I knew that I was going to be thin and healthy oneday. Then it would be all worth it. These 18 months have passed so fast. I can't believe it. I now feel like going in public and I can be proud of myself. My husband is so thrilled with my success he can't keep his hands off me . ha ha I think it has even brought us closer because he was always a cuddler and I was afraid he would feel my fat if we cuddled. Now I sit on his lap. He picks me up and we cuddle all the time! it is great!
I have been working organizing my pictures so I thought I would share a few more. I have add some to the top of my profile also.
January 9,2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! Ha ha ha Today is my birthday...I love birthdays! I don't think of it as getting older I think I am getting better! It has already been such a great day. My husband took me to lunch at Logan Roadhouse. They just opened and we were on of their first customers. I had steak with mushrooms. It was really good but brought most of it home. That's what I will be having for dinner tonight! DH also got me 2 more Dooney&Bourke purses at work. They can order stuff with their saftey points and he always ends up getting me a purse. Gotta love him!
January 12, 2006
I have danced for the last hour with my kids. It was so fun and we laughed so hard! The just imformed me that " MOM YOU DANCE LIKE IN THE 70's!" What??? How do you dance in 2006...does this change? ha ha ha I guess so. I will need to learn new moves before I take my show on the road..LMAO!
Please take time to laugh, dance and play with your children. It is so worth it!
January 13, 2006
Happy Friday the 13th!
My kids are wanting to take the black kitty to school with them to freak people out. ha ha Friday the 13th has been a lucky day for me. My son was born on Friday 13th in an electrical storm. ha ha If you would have seen me you would have known why that was lucky. I was huge. I couldn't lay down. They told me he was going to be 12 pounds so they induced me 2 weeks early. He was ONLY a little over 9 pounds..ha ha
I finally get to spend the day with my husband! YAY He works a swing shift of one month day and one evening. He has been on evening and with his long drive he don't get home until 3am. The last few mornings he has been going talking to someone about another job. He is thinking about taking it. I am so nervous about him changing. It would be more money and only a 30 minute drive but I am so scared of change. I am not saying anything I am sure he will do the right thing. If not I think he could get another job. He has offers all the time. What sucks is this company would have paid for my Gastric Bypass...to late! ha ha
January 14,2006
Well my husbands doctor made up his mind about the new job. He can't take it. He needs to have gallbladder surgery ASAP. He gallbladder is only functioning at 4%. I thought his gallbaldder was bad but after the first test didn't find stones I sort of thought maybe it was acid reflux making him so sick. He will see a surgeon next week about taking it out. I hope they can do it fast.
I have been really eating good and walking everyday. I am down to 145 now!!! My mom told me to stop losing weight that I look healthy now and she don't want me to look sick. You know I would like for someone to tell me one time in my life hey you need to GAIN some weight. ha ha ha My husband told me to stop 30 pounds ago but I don't want to. Will it ever be enough?? I am afraid to try to stop. What if I gain? After all I have been through and the money I spent how could I live with myself if I would gain a pound. I think I will just stop losing. My body will find a weight it is meant to be at. I don't starve myself by any means but I don't eat like a normal person. I still eat like I am 6 months post op. I eat healthy good food and lots of protein shakes.
January 20, 2006
I am one proud Momma! Randy was picked today for being good out of the whole school and he won a free T-shirt. I am so proud!
Kristen came home crying today. She said she didn't want her Daddy to be a coal miner anymore. We have 2 more miners here trapped in WV. It is the same company my husband works at but not the same mine. I hope and pray they are alright.
January 26, 2006
My DH seen the surgeon today. They feel that his gallbladder needs to come out ASAP. They are doing it in the morning. They are going to try to do it Lap. but they are afraid that it will be to infected and they may have to cut him. I hope his is as easy as mine was.
January 28,2006
Finally back from the hospital. My Dh had gallbladder surgery. He was infected and had to stay a little longer because of it. We are home and he is doing good. Just a little uncomfortable.
Hospital eating was terrible. I think they are trying to kill people with that junk. All they severed was pizza, corndogs, nachos and a bunch of other junk. I finally found a pack of peanut butter crackers and a apple. It hit me at the hospital that I am going to be alright! I don't want that junk and I think I will succeed with my weightloss. I am not saying I will never have junk food but before I would have hit every fast food place 3 and 4 times a day! ha ha Food doesn't control me any longer!
I was reading over the main message board. I can't believe how people change after WLS. They get so self absorbed it is sickening. Then you have some that wants to know when they can eat KFC again. Make me never want to go there. I read some but most of the time I just sit back and shake my head.
1 year baby!!
Jun 22, 2005
June 22, 2005!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~~Today is my 1 year anniversary!!~~
Original Post by Melissa ~ Ann at 5:28 AM PST on 06/22/2005
Beckley, WV - RNY (06/22/2004)
I can't believe it has been a whole year. I have lost a total of 137 pounds and still not sure of my goal. Right now I an just glad I am healthy. I can walk, run and play and like it! I can squat down and raise back up with just the use of my legs. Now that one really stuck in my mind because I would always see people do this and I never could. I love to go shopping and buy clothes before I would always be so upset when I got home because I couldn't believe I let myself get so fat. I don't mind meeting people from my husbands work because I think I look pretty good now before I was afraid he might be embarressed of me.
I do admit the first 3 months I thought what in the hell did I do to myself. I morned food terrible. Today I don't see any food that is worth being fat for.
Now the hard part starts. Keeping on track and using my tool to the best of my ability for the next year to come.
Thank you guys for all the support over the year.
This is me June 22, 2005 1 year post-op
June 22, 2005 My new swimsuit! I love it!
This is me June 2003. This is the only picture I have from all the years at the beach. Hubby took this and I was so mad when I seen it. I now wish I had more pictures.
June 25, 2005
We went camping for a few days. It was a last minute thing. I did pretty good on eating. It was really hard but I managed. Randy loves to fish that is what he wanted to do most of the time.
Here is his first fish
June 26, 2005
I stepped on the scales this morning and haven't lost a pound. I thought maybe with all the hiking I might. This is the first time I haven't weighed every morning. I thought about taking my scales with me when we went camping. I don't know what I will do next week at the beach without them. It will be a whole week with no weighing!
I went to Goody's on Thursday to buy me a pair of Levi Jean shorts. I was looking for a size 8. The only ones they had was a size 6. I was so bummed but Randall convienced me to try them on. I did and they fit! I was so excited I bought 2 pair. I have never wore a 6 maybe when I was in the 4th grade. ha ha I am thinking about taking one pair back. I really don't need to of the same thing. I just got too excited! LOL Clothes has to be running bigger now a days. I still feel so fat.
June 28, 2005
Bad day today. My oldest daughter is driving me nuts. She is always picking on the other 2. She will be 12 in December I keep thinking she will get better. I thought that since she was 5! I am almost in tears because she needs to be taught to be a lady and I can't get through to her. She has the worst manners I have ever seen and the other 2 are not far behind. If I could go one day with out someone bruping, farting or just not saying them words I would be so thrilled! I almost dread going to the beach because the way they act. Anyway...my emotions got the best of me and I ate a hushpuppy and now I am so sick I can't stand it and my pouch aches so bad! I have been drinking trying to wash it away. Not sure if that is right or not. Maybe I am just PMS'ing.... Thats another bad thing. If I don't start my peroid soon I will have it while I am at the beach and Randall is freaking that I will get eat by a shark! OKAY STOP LAUGHING!! At first I just laughed at him but the more I thought about it I got a little worried too!
Okay, I seen this on the main board many times. I am going to give it a try after vacation and see if I can see 159! I am so excited to try!
~~Today is my 1 year anniversary!!~~
Original Post by Melissa ~ Ann at 5:28 AM PST on 06/22/2005
Beckley, WV - RNY (06/22/2004)
I can't believe it has been a whole year. I have lost a total of 137 pounds and still not sure of my goal. Right now I an just glad I am healthy. I can walk, run and play and like it! I can squat down and raise back up with just the use of my legs. Now that one really stuck in my mind because I would always see people do this and I never could. I love to go shopping and buy clothes before I would always be so upset when I got home because I couldn't believe I let myself get so fat. I don't mind meeting people from my husbands work because I think I look pretty good now before I was afraid he might be embarressed of me.
I do admit the first 3 months I thought what in the hell did I do to myself. I morned food terrible. Today I don't see any food that is worth being fat for.
Now the hard part starts. Keeping on track and using my tool to the best of my ability for the next year to come.
Thank you guys for all the support over the year.
This is me June 22, 2005 1 year post-op
June 22, 2005 My new swimsuit! I love it!
This is me June 2003. This is the only picture I have from all the years at the beach. Hubby took this and I was so mad when I seen it. I now wish I had more pictures.
We went camping for a few days. It was a last minute thing. I did pretty good on eating. It was really hard but I managed. Randy loves to fish that is what he wanted to do most of the time.
Here is his first fish
June 26, 2005
I stepped on the scales this morning and haven't lost a pound. I thought maybe with all the hiking I might. This is the first time I haven't weighed every morning. I thought about taking my scales with me when we went camping. I don't know what I will do next week at the beach without them. It will be a whole week with no weighing!
I went to Goody's on Thursday to buy me a pair of Levi Jean shorts. I was looking for a size 8. The only ones they had was a size 6. I was so bummed but Randall convienced me to try them on. I did and they fit! I was so excited I bought 2 pair. I have never wore a 6 maybe when I was in the 4th grade. ha ha I am thinking about taking one pair back. I really don't need to of the same thing. I just got too excited! LOL Clothes has to be running bigger now a days. I still feel so fat.
Bad day today. My oldest daughter is driving me nuts. She is always picking on the other 2. She will be 12 in December I keep thinking she will get better. I thought that since she was 5! I am almost in tears because she needs to be taught to be a lady and I can't get through to her. She has the worst manners I have ever seen and the other 2 are not far behind. If I could go one day with out someone bruping, farting or just not saying them words I would be so thrilled! I almost dread going to the beach because the way they act. Anyway...my emotions got the best of me and I ate a hushpuppy and now I am so sick I can't stand it and my pouch aches so bad! I have been drinking trying to wash it away. Not sure if that is right or not. Maybe I am just PMS'ing.... Thats another bad thing. If I don't start my peroid soon I will have it while I am at the beach and Randall is freaking that I will get eat by a shark! OKAY STOP LAUGHING!! At first I just laughed at him but the more I thought about it I got a little worried too!
Okay, I seen this on the main board many times. I am going to give it a try after vacation and see if I can see 159! I am so excited to try!
July 2005- December 2005
Jun 21, 2005
July 28, 2005
I am so happy today! I belong to a doll forum with a bunch of the best ladies in the world. We did a Christmas in July exchange and my gifts came today. I loved everything down to my SF Jello! I am truely in love with my new handmade bear! I LOVE HIM! He will be treasured always. LOOK! :-)
August 6, 2005
We took the kids to Blueberry Hill yesterday. It was so much fun. We picked about 2 gallon of blueberries. You can eat while you pick so we all had a full belly! ha ha ha
I am getting ready to go to our family reunion. I will let you know how it goes! I have lost another 100 pounds since they seen me last!
Update on the family reunion~ Everyone was amazed how good I looked. One women even agrued with me that I wasn't the same BIG girl that lived nexted door. Ha ha That made me feel good but was a little hurt to. Sometimes I can't believe that I was that big girl. I felt good to be one of the smallest there.
August 7, 2004
I found out 1 thing today. My pouch still can't eat reheated chicken. OMG I thought I would die for an hour. MY pouch is still sore. It is times like this I really need. That way I don't get to comfortable and start thinking I can eat anything I want. Even at almost 14 months post op my pouch is still working.
I made SF blueberry jam today. Wish me luck! I have never canned anything in my life. I leave that to my Mom and Grandmother. I have all these blueberries from the other day when we picked them so I thought what the heck I am a pretty good cook. Now I am just waiting for them to seal. I have heard 3 so far. They look so cute I bought the little jam jars and everything. If this works out I would love to try SF blackberry next year. I think I have waited to late this year to find fresh berrries.
August 9 2005
You will never believe what I did last night?? I RAN for a mile without stopping! YES!!! I couldn't believe it. Last year I could barely walk a quater of a mile without huffing and puffing. It felt so good to RUN!! I did think I was going to die but I did it!! I thought I needed to punch up my workout someway. the 45 minutes to an hour I was just walking wasn't even breaking a sweat! I am going to try to start running everyday with my weight training. I am trying to get an ass you can bounce a quater off of! ha ha ha
August 11, 2005
What a wonderful day. I love my husband more today than I did 15 years ago. He is my best friend and I hope we always like spending time together like we do now. Today is mine and Randall's 15th Anniversary. My husband got down on one knee and gave me a beautiful diamond ring and asked me to marry him again. It was soooooo sweet! We went to see the Dukes of Hazzard. Then we went to the Outback for lobster. Then when we got home we got on the 4wheeler and rode over toward Herndon on the back roads. We didn't get home until midnight. It was so much run the whole day. I have picture of us to share later. Earler that morning before my mom picked up the kids our stray cat had 4 kittens under Kristens bed. They were so excited. All of them are doing really good. They are all pretty ugly but you can't help but love them. I keep saying I want to loose 10 more pounds but if I never do this surgery was so worth it. I feel young and sexy again.
August 13, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RANDY!! My baby is 6 today. boo hoo hoo They grow up too fast!
We took the kids to the fair yesterday. They had such a great time. I got a pass to ride some of the bigger rides with Randy. My pouch hates rides now and I am so bummed! When I was fat I loved to ride but was always afraid I wasn't going to fit. Now I fit my pouch says no way!
August 16, 2005
We went to see ZZ Top last night. We had wonderful seats. Talk about a great concert! It was wonderful. They can still ROCK! I would love to see them again. We seen my husbands sister at the fair. WOW!!! She looks awesome! She had her surgery 9 months ago and she has really kicked butt! I am really happy for her.
I am still holding at 158-160. I want to stay under 160 so bad! I am staying on track and I know it will happen.
August 22, 2005
Today I am 14 months post op. I am so disgusted today. This is the first month with no weightloss. I really don't know how to deal with this. It is hard to explain but I feel like it is over and I am so scared of weight gain. :(
My before Jeans. Well these had got way to tight to wear. They are size 22.
August 26,2005
School started today for my kids. Kristen was so nervous but didn't want me to walk her in. It's Junior high you know. Kaylee and Randy didn't want me to take them. They rode the bus. So here I sit feeling sorry for myself. It is like what the hell do I do now. I just feel a little lonely today.
August 27,2005
I weighed this morning and I am back down to 158. Yay!! I haven't been that low since vacation then I bounced up and down from 160-162. I trying to make myself set a goal weight today. I feel like around and around I go where I stop who knows! I don't know why it is so hard to say I want to be at ____ weight.
I do have a new excersize goal. Since the kids are back in school I am going to start working out like a mad women. Hell I don't have anything else to do so why not!
I started mixing green tea with my decaf ice tea. It is so good! It made my ice tea so much better. It just has such a great flavor. I am wondering if that is why I started losing again.
September 2,
First I want to say My heart is heavy for all the people affected by Katrina. God Bless you all! My SIL is a RN and joined the redcross and shiped out to help this morning. What a wonderful thing to do but it worries me.
I am down to 155 this morning! YAHHHOOOOOO! I can't believe it I thought I would be 160 forever. I have been trying to work some carbs in my diet but it is not working. When I do I about crap myself to death. So maybe I am not meant to eat that stuff. My grandmother sent over a lemon cake, cookies and fudge. Well I broke and ate 2 bites of the cake and dumped like crazy. I think that women is trying to kill me.
September 8, 2005
Nothing new on the weightloss front. Seems like I keep bouncing up and down about 5 pounds. Really pisses me off but I will live with it.
Happy 10th Birthday Kaylee. I took her class cupcakes and the took her to Outback last night for dinner. I can't believe how fast they grow up. Had Harley groomed and he looks terrible. What a ugly dog! I took a cute fluffy dog in and came back to get him and they gave me this thing!
September 22, 2005
Today I am 15 months post op. I think I look great and have done really well. I am pms'ing and I now have periods from HELL. I was talking to DH and he asked what happen my periods never bothered me..no cramps..no bloating... no irriations. Now I have such bad cramps I have to go to bed, I get dizzy, bloat and I am so irritable I feel like choking someone. I just want to take some Tylnol PM and go to bed. My poor husband. I told him today that I was so sorry and I try not to be hateful with him but I get distance and he can't stand that. He thinks I am mad at him or something. I distant myself to keep from doing or saying something that might hurt him. That is the last thing I want to do. So If I could change anything about this surgery it would be that. I really love my life now...sometimes it just seems I was happier before. :( In a couple of days it will all be better! ha ha I know I am rambling so I am going....See ya~
September 24, 2005
I am going roller skating tomorrow!! ha ha ha I will let you know how that turns out. My period stop before it got started this time. Thank goodness I don't feel depressed anymore. We talked about having more kids this morning. I would love to have a brother for Randy but I can't be promised it will be a boy. I really am scared of gaining weight also. My weight problem begain when I started having kids. So I think I am done having children. This really upsets me in a way. We talked about adoption but I hate to say this but I don't know if I could love it like my own. I guess that sounds horrible.
October 1, 2005
Wow it is fall already again. Thank god for WLS. I went rollerskating the other day and it was so much fun before I would have hid in the corner. I had a WOW moment this morning. My husband grabbed me and picked me up. He hasn't done that in 15 years. I was like your going to break your back then I realized I am not that heavy. It was soooooo great! I forgot to add I am down to 150 now. YAHOOOOOOO!!!!
Here I am at the skating rink...
October 17, 2005
I am a little down today. I ran over Kristen favorite kitty the other day and we are both still upset. The poor little thing suffered so. It isn't something I will forget soon. My Mom and Dad both have me worried. Mom's health and Dad's work problems. If that is not enough I feel like I don't know who to trust in this world. I guess I am just down right depressed. I haven't ate much in 2 days. Thank god for Matrix. I have been drinking my protein warm. Thats all I seem to want right now.
My husband told me something last night that made my day. He rides with a guy to work. They take turn driving. Hubby was talking about dieting and excersie. He mentioned that I might want to lose another 5-10 pounds and the guy's reply was "WHAT..she is skinny as a rail now" OMG!!! someone other than family said I was skinny! That right there done it. I think I have made it. I am not only normal I might be skinny! ha ha ha ha
October 23, 2005
Went to the park today and had a great walk. We stopped and got some KFC and I think that stuff is the work of the devil. I wasn't going to eat at all and I ended up eating a spoon of potatos, some coleslaw and a bite of chicken breast and was sick as a dog! I don't know if it was the food or the guilt of trying to eat something I know is not good for me. Well atleast I won't have to eat it again for a LONG LONG time. This was the first time in 16 months I have even been around KFC food. Hubby was really craving it so I said what the hell.
Here are my guys. I just love this picture.
October 24, 2005
LET IT SNOW?? Hell it is only October and my ground is covered! I hope this doesn't mean a bad winter. My road drifts so bad. The kind of drifts you turn your windshield wipers on high bust through and pray for the best! I love to see it snow just not on the roads. I wish we had visted up here a couple of winters before we decided to build this house. I am sure we would have changed our minds. It is beautiful here in the summer but in the winter it is a whole different world from even just 5 miles down the road.
November 1, 2005
I have been doing alot of thinking. I think I am going to go back to college and finish my teaching degree. I am scared out of my mind but now I have no excuse not to. All my kids are in school and I can fit in the chairs! I am really nervous but I have a little time to think before I start.
NOVEMBER 7, 2005
BIG WOW MOMENT TODAY!!! I was cleaning out my closets and ran across my 11th grade prom gown. It is a long black with sequins very form fitting. I put that baby on and zipped it right up. I think I have more room in it than I did in the 11th grade. Everyone tells me I am smaller than I was in high school. I just never believed it. What a great day this has been. I never ever want to be overweight again. It feels so good to be normal!
November 12, 2005
My hubby and I went shopping on Thursday. I can't believe it is not even Thanksgiving and I am almost done Christmas shopping. I always have the holidays blues because I start thinking do I have enough for the kids...will they like it...what if I didn't get the right thing? Now they are getting older they don't change their minds as easy. I try not to go to overboard. I always have 1 big gift from Santa then 2 from us. Anything else I buy will be clothes. I have done this since they were little. I know kids that only count the gifts under the tree and I didn't want mine to do that. I was afraid oneday I couldn't afford to do it. Randy still believes in Santa and he says all he wants is 100 pieces of bubble gum. It is so sweet.
I guess I should talk about my weightloss or lack of. I am still bouncing from 150-155. My body is changing. I am getting much more firmer. Even my breast are looking better. I would really love to see 145 but hell I have done GREAT!! I just still see this fat girl and think I always will.
November 20, 2005
I went yesterday with my sister to pick out her new puppy. Santa is bringing it to her kids for Christmas. It is the cutest white and brown Shih Tzu. When we were there they let in a little female Yorkie. We all fell in love with that dog. My kids didn't even pay attention to the puppies they loved the Yorkie. She was 7 months old and when we were ready to leave the women told me she would sell her to me for $550. I passed it up because of Christmas. When we got home the women had called my sister and told her that she couldn't get me out of her mind and she would let her go for $450. That is atleast 400 dollars cheaper than I have seen but she is 7 months old already. On the other hand she is potty trained. I just don't know what to do. Hubby said go get her and it would be his Christmas present. That is so sweet becuase really he could care less if I got the dog. So I am torn right now and don't know what to do. The friday after Thanksgiving is when Toto broke his back. That is on my mind also.
November 26, 2005
I had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I watched what I ate and didn't get sick. My mom made me a wonderful sugar free pumpkin roll. I only ate a small piece but it was so good. That was sweet of her to think about me.
Wow..I got so busy I missed my 17 month anniversary! Today is the first day in days I have been able to sit down at the computer. This morning on the scales I was 149. Hubby is telling me that I don't need to lose anymore. Everyone tells me I have no butt. That hurts my feeling as much as when somene told me I had a fat ass. I don't see it at all. I want to be thinner. I do take care of myslef. I am not starving. I eat plenty and drink protein shakes. I am healthy than I have ever been.
November 28, 2005
Wow what a morning! Went to take my daughter to the bus stop and one of the kittens were stuck under the hood of my car. It had it’s head through a small hole in the frame next to the fender. The head was on one side the body on the other. I took all 3 kids to school crying telling them not to worry I would get it out. Hubby worked for 2 hours so I called the fire department and they told me to call 911. So we did. They send Animal Control out and took Vaseline and finally pulled it out. She is so exhausted now. I am still afraid she will die.
Had a WOW moment yesterday. My Mom’s neighbor told me that if I lost anymore weight I was going to disappear! Made me feel good. Hubby is also telling me to not lose anymore and start more weight training on my legs. He thinks they are to skinny. I can’t believe someone thinks I am thin! That is just so cool!
December 1, 2005
My mom call me last night and told me that the little Yorkie I fell in love with is coming to live with me today! YAY!! She said it was an early Christmas gift. She went with my sister to pick up her puppy. I wouldn't go becuase I didn't want to see this Yorkie again. My Mom was sitting on the couch and that dog came through the living room and jumped right up in my Mom's lap and started kissing her. My mom was sold! She said it was like it was meant to go home with her! My kids don't know yet. I wanted to surprise them. They will go wild! They loved her so much when they seen her.
I have to go to my annual GYN checkup today. I hate going. I am going to see if he will give me some b-12 shots and see what he thinks about my back. I can't shop or anything without my back killing me. I just don't understand 150 pounds ago my back never hurt. When I seen the doctor he said my height was 5'9" what the heck! Where did my inch go. When I measure myself here I am 5'10"..go figure! So I am changing my stats to 5'9"
This is my Ginny!
December 6, 2005
Hi everyone! I can't believe it is almost 2006!
I made the kids CC cookies last night and thought I would die. Then I got to thinking and came up with a great CC cookie recipe.
1 cup Big train Low carb pancake mix
1/2 cup splenda
1/4 cup brown sugar
1 stick of butter
1 tbls vanilla
1 egg
2 tbls of milk
SF Chocolate chips ( I used Herseys chuncks don't like alot either)
1/2 cup choped pecans( thats all I had..could use anything)
They are so much better if you let them cool too. I loved them.
December 17, 2005
I can't believe one more week until Christmas. It will be over before we know it.
I was so thrilled this week I have been weighing 149 and that was on my period! YAHOO!!! That is usually the highest weight of the month. DH tells me I am getting to thin but I don't think I am. I wear a size 8 jeans and they are a little baggy but 6 is a little to tight. In dress pants I can wear a 6. In sweaters I wear a medium. I just bought a new leather jacket in Large becuase I wanted enough room for thick seaters underneath. I really wish now I would have got a medium but I still love it. I was walking in the mall and DH looked at me and said you don't even look like the same women that you was 2 years ago...I just smiled and smiled! Made me feel so good.
December 22,2005
Wow 18 months already. It doesn't seem real. It has went by so fast. I can remember thinking I would never eat again. Now I can eat almost anything but still eat like I did when I was 6 months post op because that is the way I like to eat. I feel better when I don't eat alot of carbs and junk. I still eat very little and hope I stay this way. I am so scared of gaining that I think about it everyday. I still weigh sometimes twice a day. You know if I would have been this obessed 10 years ago maybe I would have never had a weight problem.
December 26, 2005
I had a wonderful Christmas. I am really blessed to have a great family that is healthy and happy.
Here I am with my new baby Ryan!
I just found out tonight that one of my good friends son died yesterday. I feel so bad for her. She is such a good person and she just lost her mom not to long ago. She has also went through a divorce and battled cancer. I know this one is going to be the hardest of all. I am so sad for her. I feel like doing something but what? She was my homebound teacher in the 11th grade. I looked up to her so much. I was really messed up at the time and she didn't judge me at all. If it wasn't for her I might have never graduated.
December 30, 2005
Today I had a pain that bent me double for 4 hours. I have had this to happen a couple time since surgery. I took DH to the hospital to have a GB ultrasound. I got up this morning and didn't eat or drink anything...stupid. I was at the hospital and it was about 11 when my son started complaining he was hugary so I get him a pack a peanut butter crackers. He eat 3 and I eat 3. When they was doing hubbies exam I got sick as a dog and had to leave the room. I went straight and got me somthing to drink becuase I first thought my pouch was dry. I was hurting bad. On the way home we stopped to get me a propel and I drank all that too. I was about to turn around and go back to the ER but I keep thinking if I could just get home. After a couple Maloxx and several cups of warm tea I feel better but still sore in my stomach area where I imagine my pouch is. Now it is after 7pm and I have only had 3 crackers and I am afraid to eat anything.
All the people that think this is the easy way out just don't understand the hell we go through. Don't get me wrong I would do it again in a heartbeat. I can go anywhere now and feel damn good about myself! It is just not as easy as some may think.
I am so happy today! I belong to a doll forum with a bunch of the best ladies in the world. We did a Christmas in July exchange and my gifts came today. I loved everything down to my SF Jello! I am truely in love with my new handmade bear! I LOVE HIM! He will be treasured always. LOOK! :-)
August 6, 2005
We took the kids to Blueberry Hill yesterday. It was so much fun. We picked about 2 gallon of blueberries. You can eat while you pick so we all had a full belly! ha ha ha
I am getting ready to go to our family reunion. I will let you know how it goes! I have lost another 100 pounds since they seen me last!
Update on the family reunion~ Everyone was amazed how good I looked. One women even agrued with me that I wasn't the same BIG girl that lived nexted door. Ha ha That made me feel good but was a little hurt to. Sometimes I can't believe that I was that big girl. I felt good to be one of the smallest there.
I found out 1 thing today. My pouch still can't eat reheated chicken. OMG I thought I would die for an hour. MY pouch is still sore. It is times like this I really need. That way I don't get to comfortable and start thinking I can eat anything I want. Even at almost 14 months post op my pouch is still working.
I made SF blueberry jam today. Wish me luck! I have never canned anything in my life. I leave that to my Mom and Grandmother. I have all these blueberries from the other day when we picked them so I thought what the heck I am a pretty good cook. Now I am just waiting for them to seal. I have heard 3 so far. They look so cute I bought the little jam jars and everything. If this works out I would love to try SF blackberry next year. I think I have waited to late this year to find fresh berrries.
You will never believe what I did last night?? I RAN for a mile without stopping! YES!!! I couldn't believe it. Last year I could barely walk a quater of a mile without huffing and puffing. It felt so good to RUN!! I did think I was going to die but I did it!! I thought I needed to punch up my workout someway. the 45 minutes to an hour I was just walking wasn't even breaking a sweat! I am going to try to start running everyday with my weight training. I am trying to get an ass you can bounce a quater off of! ha ha ha
What a wonderful day. I love my husband more today than I did 15 years ago. He is my best friend and I hope we always like spending time together like we do now. Today is mine and Randall's 15th Anniversary. My husband got down on one knee and gave me a beautiful diamond ring and asked me to marry him again. It was soooooo sweet! We went to see the Dukes of Hazzard. Then we went to the Outback for lobster. Then when we got home we got on the 4wheeler and rode over toward Herndon on the back roads. We didn't get home until midnight. It was so much run the whole day. I have picture of us to share later. Earler that morning before my mom picked up the kids our stray cat had 4 kittens under Kristens bed. They were so excited. All of them are doing really good. They are all pretty ugly but you can't help but love them. I keep saying I want to loose 10 more pounds but if I never do this surgery was so worth it. I feel young and sexy again.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RANDY!! My baby is 6 today. boo hoo hoo They grow up too fast!
We took the kids to the fair yesterday. They had such a great time. I got a pass to ride some of the bigger rides with Randy. My pouch hates rides now and I am so bummed! When I was fat I loved to ride but was always afraid I wasn't going to fit. Now I fit my pouch says no way!
We went to see ZZ Top last night. We had wonderful seats. Talk about a great concert! It was wonderful. They can still ROCK! I would love to see them again. We seen my husbands sister at the fair. WOW!!! She looks awesome! She had her surgery 9 months ago and she has really kicked butt! I am really happy for her.
I am still holding at 158-160. I want to stay under 160 so bad! I am staying on track and I know it will happen.
August 22, 2005
Today I am 14 months post op. I am so disgusted today. This is the first month with no weightloss. I really don't know how to deal with this. It is hard to explain but I feel like it is over and I am so scared of weight gain. :(
My before Jeans. Well these had got way to tight to wear. They are size 22.
School started today for my kids. Kristen was so nervous but didn't want me to walk her in. It's Junior high you know. Kaylee and Randy didn't want me to take them. They rode the bus. So here I sit feeling sorry for myself. It is like what the hell do I do now. I just feel a little lonely today.
I weighed this morning and I am back down to 158. Yay!! I haven't been that low since vacation then I bounced up and down from 160-162. I trying to make myself set a goal weight today. I feel like around and around I go where I stop who knows! I don't know why it is so hard to say I want to be at ____ weight.
I do have a new excersize goal. Since the kids are back in school I am going to start working out like a mad women. Hell I don't have anything else to do so why not!
I started mixing green tea with my decaf ice tea. It is so good! It made my ice tea so much better. It just has such a great flavor. I am wondering if that is why I started losing again.
September 2,
First I want to say My heart is heavy for all the people affected by Katrina. God Bless you all! My SIL is a RN and joined the redcross and shiped out to help this morning. What a wonderful thing to do but it worries me.
I am down to 155 this morning! YAHHHOOOOOO! I can't believe it I thought I would be 160 forever. I have been trying to work some carbs in my diet but it is not working. When I do I about crap myself to death. So maybe I am not meant to eat that stuff. My grandmother sent over a lemon cake, cookies and fudge. Well I broke and ate 2 bites of the cake and dumped like crazy. I think that women is trying to kill me.
September 8, 2005
Nothing new on the weightloss front. Seems like I keep bouncing up and down about 5 pounds. Really pisses me off but I will live with it.
Happy 10th Birthday Kaylee. I took her class cupcakes and the took her to Outback last night for dinner. I can't believe how fast they grow up. Had Harley groomed and he looks terrible. What a ugly dog! I took a cute fluffy dog in and came back to get him and they gave me this thing!
Today I am 15 months post op. I think I look great and have done really well. I am pms'ing and I now have periods from HELL. I was talking to DH and he asked what happen my periods never bothered me..no cramps..no bloating... no irriations. Now I have such bad cramps I have to go to bed, I get dizzy, bloat and I am so irritable I feel like choking someone. I just want to take some Tylnol PM and go to bed. My poor husband. I told him today that I was so sorry and I try not to be hateful with him but I get distance and he can't stand that. He thinks I am mad at him or something. I distant myself to keep from doing or saying something that might hurt him. That is the last thing I want to do. So If I could change anything about this surgery it would be that. I really love my life now...sometimes it just seems I was happier before. :( In a couple of days it will all be better! ha ha I know I am rambling so I am going....See ya~
I am going roller skating tomorrow!! ha ha ha I will let you know how that turns out. My period stop before it got started this time. Thank goodness I don't feel depressed anymore. We talked about having more kids this morning. I would love to have a brother for Randy but I can't be promised it will be a boy. I really am scared of gaining weight also. My weight problem begain when I started having kids. So I think I am done having children. This really upsets me in a way. We talked about adoption but I hate to say this but I don't know if I could love it like my own. I guess that sounds horrible.
Wow it is fall already again. Thank god for WLS. I went rollerskating the other day and it was so much fun before I would have hid in the corner. I had a WOW moment this morning. My husband grabbed me and picked me up. He hasn't done that in 15 years. I was like your going to break your back then I realized I am not that heavy. It was soooooo great! I forgot to add I am down to 150 now. YAHOOOOOOO!!!!
Here I am at the skating rink...
I am a little down today. I ran over Kristen favorite kitty the other day and we are both still upset. The poor little thing suffered so. It isn't something I will forget soon. My Mom and Dad both have me worried. Mom's health and Dad's work problems. If that is not enough I feel like I don't know who to trust in this world. I guess I am just down right depressed. I haven't ate much in 2 days. Thank god for Matrix. I have been drinking my protein warm. Thats all I seem to want right now.
My husband told me something last night that made my day. He rides with a guy to work. They take turn driving. Hubby was talking about dieting and excersie. He mentioned that I might want to lose another 5-10 pounds and the guy's reply was "WHAT..she is skinny as a rail now" OMG!!! someone other than family said I was skinny! That right there done it. I think I have made it. I am not only normal I might be skinny! ha ha ha ha
Went to the park today and had a great walk. We stopped and got some KFC and I think that stuff is the work of the devil. I wasn't going to eat at all and I ended up eating a spoon of potatos, some coleslaw and a bite of chicken breast and was sick as a dog! I don't know if it was the food or the guilt of trying to eat something I know is not good for me. Well atleast I won't have to eat it again for a LONG LONG time. This was the first time in 16 months I have even been around KFC food. Hubby was really craving it so I said what the hell.
Here are my guys. I just love this picture.
October 24, 2005
LET IT SNOW?? Hell it is only October and my ground is covered! I hope this doesn't mean a bad winter. My road drifts so bad. The kind of drifts you turn your windshield wipers on high bust through and pray for the best! I love to see it snow just not on the roads. I wish we had visted up here a couple of winters before we decided to build this house. I am sure we would have changed our minds. It is beautiful here in the summer but in the winter it is a whole different world from even just 5 miles down the road.
I have been doing alot of thinking. I think I am going to go back to college and finish my teaching degree. I am scared out of my mind but now I have no excuse not to. All my kids are in school and I can fit in the chairs! I am really nervous but I have a little time to think before I start.
BIG WOW MOMENT TODAY!!! I was cleaning out my closets and ran across my 11th grade prom gown. It is a long black with sequins very form fitting. I put that baby on and zipped it right up. I think I have more room in it than I did in the 11th grade. Everyone tells me I am smaller than I was in high school. I just never believed it. What a great day this has been. I never ever want to be overweight again. It feels so good to be normal!
My hubby and I went shopping on Thursday. I can't believe it is not even Thanksgiving and I am almost done Christmas shopping. I always have the holidays blues because I start thinking do I have enough for the kids...will they like it...what if I didn't get the right thing? Now they are getting older they don't change their minds as easy. I try not to go to overboard. I always have 1 big gift from Santa then 2 from us. Anything else I buy will be clothes. I have done this since they were little. I know kids that only count the gifts under the tree and I didn't want mine to do that. I was afraid oneday I couldn't afford to do it. Randy still believes in Santa and he says all he wants is 100 pieces of bubble gum. It is so sweet.
I guess I should talk about my weightloss or lack of. I am still bouncing from 150-155. My body is changing. I am getting much more firmer. Even my breast are looking better. I would really love to see 145 but hell I have done GREAT!! I just still see this fat girl and think I always will.
November 20, 2005
I went yesterday with my sister to pick out her new puppy. Santa is bringing it to her kids for Christmas. It is the cutest white and brown Shih Tzu. When we were there they let in a little female Yorkie. We all fell in love with that dog. My kids didn't even pay attention to the puppies they loved the Yorkie. She was 7 months old and when we were ready to leave the women told me she would sell her to me for $550. I passed it up because of Christmas. When we got home the women had called my sister and told her that she couldn't get me out of her mind and she would let her go for $450. That is atleast 400 dollars cheaper than I have seen but she is 7 months old already. On the other hand she is potty trained. I just don't know what to do. Hubby said go get her and it would be his Christmas present. That is so sweet becuase really he could care less if I got the dog. So I am torn right now and don't know what to do. The friday after Thanksgiving is when Toto broke his back. That is on my mind also.
November 26, 2005
I had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I watched what I ate and didn't get sick. My mom made me a wonderful sugar free pumpkin roll. I only ate a small piece but it was so good. That was sweet of her to think about me.
Wow..I got so busy I missed my 17 month anniversary! Today is the first day in days I have been able to sit down at the computer. This morning on the scales I was 149. Hubby is telling me that I don't need to lose anymore. Everyone tells me I have no butt. That hurts my feeling as much as when somene told me I had a fat ass. I don't see it at all. I want to be thinner. I do take care of myslef. I am not starving. I eat plenty and drink protein shakes. I am healthy than I have ever been.
November 28, 2005
Wow what a morning! Went to take my daughter to the bus stop and one of the kittens were stuck under the hood of my car. It had it’s head through a small hole in the frame next to the fender. The head was on one side the body on the other. I took all 3 kids to school crying telling them not to worry I would get it out. Hubby worked for 2 hours so I called the fire department and they told me to call 911. So we did. They send Animal Control out and took Vaseline and finally pulled it out. She is so exhausted now. I am still afraid she will die.
Had a WOW moment yesterday. My Mom’s neighbor told me that if I lost anymore weight I was going to disappear! Made me feel good. Hubby is also telling me to not lose anymore and start more weight training on my legs. He thinks they are to skinny. I can’t believe someone thinks I am thin! That is just so cool!
My mom call me last night and told me that the little Yorkie I fell in love with is coming to live with me today! YAY!! She said it was an early Christmas gift. She went with my sister to pick up her puppy. I wouldn't go becuase I didn't want to see this Yorkie again. My Mom was sitting on the couch and that dog came through the living room and jumped right up in my Mom's lap and started kissing her. My mom was sold! She said it was like it was meant to go home with her! My kids don't know yet. I wanted to surprise them. They will go wild! They loved her so much when they seen her.
I have to go to my annual GYN checkup today. I hate going. I am going to see if he will give me some b-12 shots and see what he thinks about my back. I can't shop or anything without my back killing me. I just don't understand 150 pounds ago my back never hurt. When I seen the doctor he said my height was 5'9" what the heck! Where did my inch go. When I measure myself here I am 5'10"..go figure! So I am changing my stats to 5'9"
This is my Ginny!
Hi everyone! I can't believe it is almost 2006!
I made the kids CC cookies last night and thought I would die. Then I got to thinking and came up with a great CC cookie recipe.
1 cup Big train Low carb pancake mix
1/2 cup splenda
1/4 cup brown sugar
1 stick of butter
1 tbls vanilla
1 egg
2 tbls of milk
SF Chocolate chips ( I used Herseys chuncks don't like alot either)
1/2 cup choped pecans( thats all I had..could use anything)
They are so much better if you let them cool too. I loved them.
December 17, 2005
I can't believe one more week until Christmas. It will be over before we know it.
I was so thrilled this week I have been weighing 149 and that was on my period! YAHOO!!! That is usually the highest weight of the month. DH tells me I am getting to thin but I don't think I am. I wear a size 8 jeans and they are a little baggy but 6 is a little to tight. In dress pants I can wear a 6. In sweaters I wear a medium. I just bought a new leather jacket in Large becuase I wanted enough room for thick seaters underneath. I really wish now I would have got a medium but I still love it. I was walking in the mall and DH looked at me and said you don't even look like the same women that you was 2 years ago...I just smiled and smiled! Made me feel so good.
December 22,2005
Wow 18 months already. It doesn't seem real. It has went by so fast. I can remember thinking I would never eat again. Now I can eat almost anything but still eat like I did when I was 6 months post op because that is the way I like to eat. I feel better when I don't eat alot of carbs and junk. I still eat very little and hope I stay this way. I am so scared of gaining that I think about it everyday. I still weigh sometimes twice a day. You know if I would have been this obessed 10 years ago maybe I would have never had a weight problem.
I had a wonderful Christmas. I am really blessed to have a great family that is healthy and happy.
Here I am with my new baby Ryan!
I just found out tonight that one of my good friends son died yesterday. I feel so bad for her. She is such a good person and she just lost her mom not to long ago. She has also went through a divorce and battled cancer. I know this one is going to be the hardest of all. I am so sad for her. I feel like doing something but what? She was my homebound teacher in the 11th grade. I looked up to her so much. I was really messed up at the time and she didn't judge me at all. If it wasn't for her I might have never graduated.
Today I had a pain that bent me double for 4 hours. I have had this to happen a couple time since surgery. I took DH to the hospital to have a GB ultrasound. I got up this morning and didn't eat or drink anything...stupid. I was at the hospital and it was about 11 when my son started complaining he was hugary so I get him a pack a peanut butter crackers. He eat 3 and I eat 3. When they was doing hubbies exam I got sick as a dog and had to leave the room. I went straight and got me somthing to drink becuase I first thought my pouch was dry. I was hurting bad. On the way home we stopped to get me a propel and I drank all that too. I was about to turn around and go back to the ER but I keep thinking if I could just get home. After a couple Maloxx and several cups of warm tea I feel better but still sore in my stomach area where I imagine my pouch is. Now it is after 7pm and I have only had 3 crackers and I am afraid to eat anything.
All the people that think this is the easy way out just don't understand the hell we go through. Don't get me wrong I would do it again in a heartbeat. I can go anywhere now and feel damn good about myself! It is just not as easy as some may think.
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Cool Ridge, WV
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Surgery
06/22/2004
Surgery Date
Apr 30, 2004
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