Miss1978
I'm a 28 year old, married (my high school sweetheart!) mother of two small girls (ages 1 and 4). As a child, I was always on the "chunky" side. I was always taught that I should eat everything on my plate and it's become something that I do to this day, no matter how full I am or how big the plate! In high school, I typically weighed between 190 and 200 pounds. The summer after high school, I went away and worked at an amusement park and I walked so much that I went down to 184! I would have loved to went down more. I only needed to lose another 20 pounds but that didn't happen...I had always felt very self concious about my weight and even at 184, I felt HUGE. I began the process of yo yo dieting. Name the diet, and I tried it! Weight Watchers, Medical Weight Loss, Atkins...I went to my family doctor and started a program with him. I know how to lose weight...I know what are good foods to eat...the problem is, I feel like I have this addiction to food. Since I began the vicious yo yo dieting cycle, I have actually gained over 100 pounds. And I LOVE SWEETS!!! My greatest problem is that I love sweets, pasta and all of the bad carbs!
Three years ago, I seriously contimplated weightloss surgery. I attended a seminar through Beaumont Hospital. The RISKS of the surgery changed my mind and I told myself I could lose the weight on my own. Once again, I tried dieting...I ended up cheating and gaining more weight. Then I got pregnant again with my second child, ballooned up to over 300 pounds while pregnant. After I had my daughter, I ended up going down to 249 with the help of Weight Watchers. But I ended up cheating on the diet and marked myself as a failure...I ended up gaining back 30 pounds.
In November 2006, I made an appointment for the seminar and consultation at the Bariatric Treatment Center (Barix) in Ypsilanti, MI. There, I met with Dr. Kam. After some major research, I decided that I DID want the bariatric surgery. I had planned on scheduling my surgery for April (I was approved!) but my husband talked me out of it. He was afraid that something would happen to me...I joined Weight Watchers again, lost 12 pounds. But guess what? I failed again...and I have gained back almost everything that I had lost. I am tired of going through this vicious cycle of yo yo dieting. Tired of failing. I am very insecure about how I look. I am tired all of the time. I also have an anxiety problem...stomach problems...you name it. I had gestational diabetes with both of my pregnancies...I am most likely doomed to have diabetes. :-(
I have talked to my husband again and have decided to have the surgery with or without his support. He is afraid that something will happen to me if I have this surgery. I am afraid that something will happen to me if I don't.
I HAVE A SURGERY DATE!!!
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