Bad News Bears

Apr 09, 2010

I talked to our HR department and got some disheartening news.... because our health plan was aquired out of state, it does not have to follow state laws.  SO, we are back to square one.... I have to get new health insurance. I have been researching everything I can find about RNY... truthfully it's scaring me a little. It seems like it's so drastic. I know it's what  I need to do, but the thought of getting cut open scares me a little. I'm going to another seminar next wednesday, and it's with the doctor that did Jenn's RNY so she is going to go with me for moral support. I also have an appt with my neurologist earlier on Weds and i'm going to talk with her about the idea. I know my pseudotumor is progressively getting worse because I can see my vision declining. I'm also starting to see dark spots every now and then and that scares the hell outta me. She is going to get on my case about gaining the weight back (plus more). I also need to figure out how in the heck i'm going to tell my mom about me thinking about getting this done. My mom hasn't really ever struggled with weight like I have, she's been a size 8 for a long time. And I know she loves me the way I am and doesn't want to see me go into surgery to try to fix my weight problems. BUT I also know she's scared of me possibly becoming diabetic like my grandfather was. So... it will be scary but we will see how it goes. One day soon i'll hopefully be brave enough to tell her. I also pray that she will be ok with it and God will give me the right words to say...

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