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Well guys I hate to admit it, but i am struggling.  I have gained two pounds back and am quite depressed about this.  I am hoping to get back on track and get my motivation back.  I find myself grazying while at work and it isn't for the good.  If anyone has any suggestions I am hoping someone will contact me.  Thanks for everyone's support.

Pictures, Pictures and more Pictures!
These girls never get tired of taking pictures of me.  This journey has changed my life in so many ways I can't even explain.  I love to go places now and just do anything that i want to do.  I do still find myself going to the plus size clothes in the store and sometimes sitting in a corner at a bar.  My mind still hasn't caught up with my body. It is all so unbelievable.  I want to start exercising more to tighten up.  It is really hard to find time to do so since i have the two boys, BUT last night i was thinking.  I can take them with me.  Run or walk around my yard.  Our yard is huge and a great big square.  That way they can be with me to and they aren't holding me back as they can play.  There are so many things i can do now that i couldn't do before as I was so out of breath.  I have found that i am tired a lot more lately, but  I am sure i will come out of that.  Everyone take care.  I can't wait to go shopping when i save some money up.  I go through clothes so fast.

I have updated another picture on here.  Hard to believe it is me, but it is.  I am almost 6 months out, so i am really tryin to kick it in the butt to get more off.  I have lost 110 lbs. so far from day in the hospital.  I want to lose 40 more lbs.  I am exericsing and eating healthier and picking my water up.  It is not easy that is for sure, but i have a WAIST, I have a WAIST.  Can't believe i have one to tell you the truth.  I am in a size 16 currently, but would like to get to a 12.  That will be the all time bomb if that happens.  WEll if you are struggling, hang in there.  YOu willl make it.  I never thought i would be in a 16.  I cam from a 28 pant size.  So it can happen, i am living proof.  Take care all and keep in touch.  To my good friend Debbie, i couldn't of done this without you.  YOU ARE THE BOMB!!

Well I have updated photos on here and I hope everyone enjoys.  I am still having a hard time seeing myself as a different person even though I am 100 lbs. down.  It is difficult to realize that and i am not sure if i ever will.  
Everything else has been going well.  I am going out with friends to celebrate my 100lb loss forever.  I never want to be that heavy again.  I am still setting my goal to reach 150lbs. and i hope with my determination i will get there.  Everyone take care!

Well here we are in July already.  Boy does time ever fly.  It has been pretty good, some ups and downs but here i am still moving along.  Last night i walked 3 miles after work.  i was beginning to wonder if i was going to make it home, i was exhausted.  i had my good shoes on and i still have a huge blister on my right food.  Although that will not stop me tonight from walking.
We had a pretty good weekend, went out friday and saturday with friends had a blast.  Sunday, we went on the the lake in the boat.  Had a good time, except for one smart asses comment that hurt me pretty bad regarding my weight.  i just turned around and said "You would think after losing almost 100lbs. that you would have no comments but good about me, but nope still you are an ass.  That was all i had to say he got the point, but i was truly hurting inside bad.  I guess everyone can't be perfect.  Anyway, i hope everyone is doing well and i will update again soon.  i have a  picture to update, but am having trouble getting it uploaded.

I just had to tell everyone something real quick.  This is great, I am wearing a non-fat size.  HOLY CRAP!!  I can't believe it.  I guess i can now get rid of my fat clothes.  I have also given all of my pants that have elastic away.  I decided i will never go back to those so now all i own is pants that have a button and zipper.  Goodbye to fat girl clothes!  Yeah, to the new me.  I am going to pick up my walking nightly like I did in the beginning.  Went out last night, had a pretty good time. I even behaved,   I always do.  I actually have a little bit of curves going on now.  Didn't know I even had them, holy crap this is really happening.  I can't believe it.

Hey, I am still doing ok.  Puking at least 3 times a week or so.  Give or take a few, i quit counting.   Oh well it should get better i would think.  I took a challenge at work this week.  It is called the 10,000 step challenge.  The goal is by the end of the 8 week challenge is to walk 10k steps a day.  I am over that now so that is good.  My new goal is 14k steps a day.  Hopefully get there soon.  I seem to be stuck at my weight currently but hopefully it will pick back up.  Talk to you all sooN!

Hello to everyone, I am still breathing and moving.  YEAH!  Last week i broke a blood vessel puking in my eye.  it made the white of my eye red and I mean red red.  It is still red today, but healing as some places are turning yellow.  I weighed today.  I now weigh 223.  Hard to believe coming from 306 to begin with in the hospital. Yesterday i went in the boat and actually tubed.  Never done that before.  I still felt like the fat girl of the bunch and kind of made me depressed on the ride home, but hey we can't all look exactly right.  Right now that seems to be the biggest thing that i am fighting.  I thought after all my hard work and losing 80 plus pounds would make me look different at myself, but it doesn't.  That kind of worries me.  I know i have to deal with it and keep pushing it.  It won't be much longer and i will hit 100lbs.  can you believe it, where did hte time go.  I have a very good friend named Debbie online that has helped me in so many ways that i can't even express.  She is everything to me.  I want to thank her for my journey with her.  She has been great.  I truly don't know what i would of done without her and i am not very far out.  I have another friend that is having surgery July 17th i believe.  I am trying to pass on to him what Debbie has taught me so i can give him some advice as well and if i don't know i can always ask her.  Hang in there for anyone that is struggling.  I am still puking, but i atleast know why and when it is going to happen.  Mostly my mistakes.  After awhile you get use to puking.  I haven't lost any hair yet, thank goodness, but i am sure my time will come.  Keep in touch everyone!

Hello again, I am not having a good weekend at all.  Very sick and week.  I am not sure what the problem is, i can't hold anything down, I am vomiting a lot of flem up.   I have no energy.  The last two days have been rough i will have to admit that.  My tummy is sore to the touch as well.  Hopefully it will go away soon.  I am exhausted and i didn't do anything different.  Maybe just a bad two days, surely third day will be the charm.

Hello,
Well I went to the doctor yesterday, down 74 lbs.  started at 306.  Tomorrow will be my 3 month anniversary.  Not bad huh.  It hasn't been easy that is for sure.  I am trying to upload my most recent picture but am having trouble doing so, but i sure would like to share.  I am still having trouble noticing the weight off when looking in the mirror or dressing.  That is the worse for me, i am very negative.  Well i will talk again soon.