trials of a food junkie

Apr 07, 2012

According to the surgeon's stipulations, I'm trying to give up nicotine once and for all. I was using electronic cigarettes, but I haven't even had any of those for 6 days. Boy, it's hard. I've been feeling a worsening of my depression, and problems doing anything other than sleeping most of the day.

As to my upcoming appointments at Miami Valley Hospital, I have an appointment for an EGD next Thursday. Apparently I'm supposed to stop eating after breakfast on Wednesday. Then after that I can have jello, popsicles, broth and other liquids until midnight. I hate fasting; I always feel sick if I don't eat regularly. Tuesday is my pre-op testing, which I go in at 6:30 AM for and should last all day. On that day I also meet with the nutrionist. I can't eat after 12 AM Tuesday and I can't take my meds that day until sometime after my testing is done. Monday I meet with the surgeon to discuss my pre-op diet. I guess that means no more pizza.

I've been eating fatty food like someone who's never gonna see it again. Tonight we had Papa John's pizza, which was 50% off, so good price, but a heavy price for my body. I did find a replacement (ie healthy) recipe for pizza post-surgery, so that consoles me a bit. Still, there is seemingly no replacement for Chinese food... one of my favorite foods being Wor Shu Gai, which I've also found as Hong Kong Chicken, or simply Peanut butter chicken. If I could find a way to make that in a healthy way I'd be a happy camper. My last supper to say goodbye to my old way of living will be Monday, post appointment. My brother and mom and I are going to go to Red Lobster... I love crab legs. Food has been my best friend for so long that it's hard for me to imagine not having it as an outlet anymore. Who's there for me at 2:00 in the morning when I'm feeling lonely? Hamburgers and shakes, that's who! Which just goes to show how I need to get better at this life thing and find a therapist to help me deal with my emotional eating.

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