Another Long Night

Jan 07, 2010

Today was extremely snowy out. School was cancelled due to the weather, and I was extatic. I slept for most of the day then I made an attempt to go to the health club, but never actually made it there. I have really got to get it together for making it to the gym. If I start making excuses this early on then I know what the rest of my year is in store for.

One of this years goal for me was to make more ME TIME. That just does not seem to happen no matter what it is I do. I have to work, I have school full time and I am the designated driver(taxicab) in my household. No one has a drivers licence in my home but me and only one person in my home is not old enough to drive. Everyone else does not have a licence only one has a permit, and the others need one desperately. When I get out of school, on most evenings I have to pick up everyone from one place or the other, as the buses stop running around here by 6 pm. There really is no other way for them to get home other than a ride. We have a second car but no one takes the initiative to get comfortable driving so they can't get a licence and that leaves me as the taxicab for the family.

Tomorrow I have to work at the salon, and due to the weather I am afraid that I won't have many clients at all. My income right now is abismal, and if I can't get more people coming in soon, I am going to have to find another job on top of keeping this one, just to make ends meet. My boyfriend does not make very much money and truthfully right now the little bit he is making is just keeping up barely afloat.  As I am the only one who handles the money here it is always me trying to figure out what now. This always leads me into emotional eating. I find myself getting the muchies for sweets or just sitting around getting lazy and unmotivated to do anything about this weight.....

I really know that I can do better than this and this blog is what is helping me to keep my sanity so far this year from all the stress that I am under to make everything and everyone work smoothly as possible.

I have been trying my best to keep to eating healthier and smaller portions which is great, but with my budget so strained now I am having a really hard time finding enough money to buy me healthier foods and snacks that can be just for me. If it is in my house the kids will eat it all up and if I don't budget some things that are just for me then I either don't eat of eat a bunch of junk foods instead.
Pray for me.

Tomorrow morning I am going to get up and take my but to the health club in the early morning before going to the salon. I pray I can stay motivated to get the time in and really find that ME time that I so desperately need.

Nycky

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