Pre-Admissions Testing

Jan 13, 2015

So, tomorrow I have my appointment with the surgeon in the morning and then I'm off for pre-admission testing at the hospital. I am so nervous...My surgery is in less than two weeks, and while I am doing my best to prepare, I almost feel like it's not going to happen. I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, for someone to tell me no. I think it feels so difficult because I'm doing this by myself. I've only told my dad and he is not very supportive.  I'm supposed to stay with him after the surgery and he made a comment that if I'm going to crabby I should just go home to my apartment. I live alone. I'm sad that he would make such a flippant remark especially since when he is admitted to the hospital for any reason I never leave his side. I suppose he's not the best caretaker, nor does he want me to do this. He questioned me again and again about me wanting this. I don't just want this, I need this. I'm five feet tall and super obese. How long can my body handle all this wait before it begins to break down and I start suffering from obesity related diseases? I have tried everything else with minimal success. I need to do this for me and for the future that I want to have. Tomorrow isn't promised but I'm going to plan for it anyway.

If I have to find someone else to be there with me, I will. I can't let anyone's negativity influence me during a time where i need to focus on changing my lifestyle and my health for the better. I love my dad, but I won't be put down by anybody, even him. 

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