Ms_DeB
I'm not going to go into how I got to where I am today :) But I will say I've always been this way. From time to time over the years I've yo-yo'd ALOT. Been on diets (gained weight), took pills (not strong enough), or should I say my will power wasn't strong enough. Everyone has always told me I carry my weight well, that I don't look to be 360#, that I don't move like I'm at the weight I am, etc. I think I got me some sweet friends, even if they do lie! LOL But I turned 40 last September and I've been feeling it every since. I tell them that before my birthday I was at least a half way healthy LARGE (lol) woman. And then they had to go and tell me that at the ripe old age of 40 a woman falls apart...I did...I started having palpitations, heart rate of 148, blood pressure threw the roof, then the bomb shell, CHF. They haven't said whether or not I have Diabetes yet. My feet swell so big that my toes hardly touch the ground sometimes. Doc put me on some pills that worked for like the first 2-3 weeks then back came my feet. She says it's a sign of CHF, I see it as a sign to be very scared of what's to come. I don't want to be like this, I have a boy serving our Armed Forces in Iraq, got'a daughter that's graduating on the 16th of May, got alot of stuff left to do. But what do I do? I've tryed everything, starvation is the only thing that ever worked for me. Then a year or 2 later here it comes all back and then some. I'm worried, confused...lost...and unhealthy.
