msladylotus13
Thank YOU
Apr 21, 2009
Good Evening Friends..I Just wanted to write and say Thank you to all of you have answered my emails and any questions.
I Had My pre-Op Class on the 16th. I Learned alot.I also realized This Is the next step before surgery ,except for my labs On may 4th. While In class a few realizations came to me. Like Food....When you look at the small amount You will be eating after surgery and the amount now,and certain foods I Love...I will miss some comfort foods..Like My spagetti..my chili..its not too much about what i ate as my portion size..and a few homemade buckeyes candy for christmas...But I want to do this so ....I can handle those realizations...I am Just Nervous,scared and excited rolled all into one.
Ive Been going to support groups In Elwood Indiana and I Just Love them.The Lady There" GAIL" Is A wonderful Person..and runs a great support group..I told her at the last meeting..Ive been craving this class Like a person hooked on drugs craves his drug. Part Of this being..I have NO support outside of the group except one friend i can call and talk to..My other friends are all smokers or married to one and I cant visit or go do regular things ..like scrabble or whatever we cared to do..because they smoke..alot and I will NOT risk my surgery being cancelled or changed due to nicotine,especially when Im a non smoker. So i have been kinda isolated..and as far as them coming here,,well it never happens..so I have felt kinda alone and had to adjust my attitude a little concerning friends. They all have Known I am going through this ..and now when it gets closer..I can but help feel alone a little.If It wasnt for you who have emailed or my phone friend and Elwood support group..I think I could almost get depressed. But I Refuse to let it win..I dont want to be depressed. I want to embrace this and begin my new life..
I Am being positve...Like someone told me god said if you have the faith of a musturd seed you can move mountains.So I decided my mountain was/is surgery and the healing time afterwards....So I have chosen to have the faith Of Atleast 13 Musturd seeds and know I will come out fine from surgery and walk and recover and heal well. I am going to put the faith in My doctor also..I just need not worry,and thats a little tough for me as I have always been a bit of a worrier.
I Hope each of you who have had the surgery,especially recently are doing great..and have made it through the first month or two..smoothly,as they say those are hardest.
I will keep You updated and Once again thank you for listening and helping me out..It means alot to me.
Have A Great Week..and Feel free to write anytime.
LIZ
