mtnmusic4
Ok, so I have struggled with weight all my life, but I never realized how not fat I was until I look back at old photos now. I have been over 200 for 10 years now when I had my first child. Three more kids later and I am adding about 10 to 15 pounds a year. I always imagined myself the way I used to be. I didn't realize how big I was. I didn't feel any bigger. Somehow I was always able to dismiss it. After crying hysterically in my doctor's office a year an a half ago about my weight, I tried three more times throughout the year to really lose. Apparently it didn't work. That is when I seriously started looking into WLS. I had looked into it before, but my doctor said it wasn't right for me at the time. About 4 months ago, I decided I was done dieting, as it was a constant in my life since I hit puberty. My plan was to just learn to love myself. When I gained 5 pounds in about a week, I decided that wasn't going to work either. I hit about 245 and started to feel my health deteriorate. So a year and a half after that DR. visit and an extra 15 pounds later, he said it would be a good option for me. Hooray! I have back up! So now, I am making the plans, chosen a doctor, checked out insurance and told my family. Sometimes it seems like a selfish thing to do. But I know in the long run, my family will benefit from it as well. My journey has officially started!
