83 lbs. lost

Dec 23, 2008

Hello All:

As you can tell by my title, I have indeed lost 83 lbs as of today's date.  It's hard to believe my surgery was just in September.  But hey, I'm not complaining.  I still have about 62 more pounds to go before I reach my goal weight of 165lbs.  Right now I'm 227.  People tell me that I've lost weight.  But when I look in the mirror, I still see the same old 310 pound me.  I guess I'm just harder on myself more than anyone else could be hard on me.  Although some things I can't help but recognize.  Like the fact that my wedding rings have fallen off my finger because they no longer fit.  And neither do any of my old clothes.  I've gone from a size 28/30 to a 18/20 in these 3 months since my surgery.  I also notice I have a lot more energy and I don't breathe as hard when I climb the stairs in my house.  I no longer have sleep apnea and I've tossed that darn cpap machine to the wind!! Hoo-ray and thank God for that.  So, I guess I do notice a lot of positive things.  But it's all happening so quickly that I guess it hasn't caught up to my brain to let me see my weight-loss in the mirror.  Because honestly--I don't see it!!  Am I weird or what?  Anywho, hopefully this summer I can walk the entire zoo with my children and my husband. Last summer I couldn't because I became so tired after a few minutes, I had to let my husband take the kids to walk, while I sat on a bench--breathing as hard as a race-horse!  Seeing the sadness in my kids eyes when I couldn't walk with them broke my heart. And it was a turning point in my life.  I promised myself I would never put them through that again.  And that their mama will be able to play, walk and even run with them while they were still young enough to enjoy it.  I am keeping that promise.  If for no one else, for them. ~~Will post again soon.  Hope you like the new pics. I've been promising for a while, I know. 

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