Ive been very frustrated lately...

Dec 16, 2008

My personaly goal since surgery has been roughly 20 lbs a month.  Ive been able to hit that until about Nov.  I had my last official weigh in on Oct 23rd and I weighed in at 280 (which was 20 lbs exactly from my month before).  So I hit my goal then.  Well today is Dec. 16 (a little less than 2 months later) and Im barely able to stay under 260 lbs.  Im VERY frustrated that I keep swaying between 5-6 lbs.  On My Birthday Dec 12 I weighed in at 255.

A lot of people say that I am not eating enough and thats why I am not losing weight.
I might agree.  Ive been really not eating or drinking anything at all lately.  im weak and tired all the time.  The only think I really live off is coffee- just to have enough energy to get thru the day.

I see the Dr in two days.  we have a lot to talk about.

I need to pull myself out of this cycle.
Not eating.. no vits.. no water and I weigh myself 2-3 times a day.
Maybe I need therapy?

*sigh*

The struggle never ends.

But I am down from 391 to 259 ish.. I gotta remind myself that is a huge complishment.

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