my6kidzkids
My Story....well, it's probably pretty run of the mill. I was never little, I was always the tallest girl in my class, I remember one boy being taller than me...and that was it! I also remember weighing 98#!! Not bad for a 5'1" grade schooler who was very active! Then I got to Jr High and I remember all the sudden I was 135# and then 155#...I was the same size as my brother who was nearly 5yrs older than me! I was 12...and that is my first diet that I can remember (starvation style!)....I lost down to 129# and was wearing Jr Size 8/10...I was 5'4", still a little chubby I guess...but certainly better than I am now! it didn't last long, despite being on the basketball team in Jr High, and still very active! By the time I was 15 i remember standing on the scale in the doctors office and weighing 166# and thinking I was as big as a house! Disgust set in, more diets....my first round with Weight Watchers! I lost weight and i was starving! didn't last long, pretty soon I was 200#!! I started nursing school the year after i graduated high school and I weighed in at 225#. Its just been constant upwards motion since then! I got married the next year and every year I gained more and more! I found out I was infertile, and more depression set in....the monthly struggle to conceive, the hundreds of doc appts, blood tests, Ultrasounds, surgery for my PCOS....9yrs passed and I still am childless and now hopeless as well. I quit all treatment and found myself pregnant very soon after :) I am now the mother of 6 children, 4 that I have given birth too....and 2 that have been adopted....I am incredibly blessed! I grew up in a family of 6 children, 3 boys 3 girls and now find myself mothering the exact same group as my mother did :) I just had my 40th birthday....I have been on every diet invented, Nutri System, Jenny Craig, Phen Fen, Weight Watchers, Slim Fast, MediFast, Atkins, starving...etc etc! I have not been diagnosed with any serious medical problems yet, but I feel like my luck in that area will run out soon. I know I have hyperinsulinemia, am insulin resistant...have PCOS, have had high blood pressure with pregnancy, I can't keep up with my kids the way I need to be able to and I am tired of watching from the side lines. I am a nurse and weight loss surgery has always scared me, because it seemed so drastic and who wants to volunteer to go under the knife?? I have just recently come to the realization that I need something drastic or I am going to die fat and unhealthy without having lived my life to the fullest! So, my search has begun or I guess I should say my journey :)
I have a physical scheduled for June 4th and a WLS seminar on June 7th!
