mydragonmoon
New Beginings
Feb 21, 2013
Wow.. So It's done. Or rather it's started. I had my robotic gastric bypass surgery on Feb 14,2013. I doubt that I will every forget. What a crazy thing to do on Valentine's day! But, it's done. The fear I felt about the surgery is gone. I walked into the OR that Thursday morning with very little doubt in my mind that this was the right thing to do. I was afraid. I won't lie. Surgery is a scary thing.
The pain was minimal. Though I think I was pretty out of it for the first 2 days. Morphine can make you loopy and itchy!
So now my journey really begins. I've lost 23lbs since March of 2012. Let's see what happens next!
Baby Steps
Aug 07, 2012
Baby steps, this is what I am taking. It seems that fear and doubt are around every corner. Will I die? Will I pass the psych evaluation? Will the nutritionist say that my eating habits are just too awful to let me go though with this? Will I have it done and gain all the weight back?
But still, I move slowly toward what people are telling me will be the best change in my life. I will live longer. I will be happier. I will wear smaller clothing and gain self esteem! Will I though? I am rallying the troops to support me. Begging my fiance to be on board with this, though he has weight demons of his own.
Right now I am 275 lbs and have a bunch of health issues. Diabetes that is SO awful that I just don't know what to do with myself. insulin shots 5 times a day or more in doses that would knock someone else the same weight as me down for the count. I have severe insulin resistance... Also, Lymph-edema, mild sleep apnea, chronic back, neck and leg pain as well as acne that has stripped away most of the tiny amount of self esteem I did have. I'm tired all of the time and in pain for at least 75% of it if not more. All of the Dr.s tell me this is the time! I'm young, I'll heal well!
I am scared. Scared to have the surgery and scared not too. This begins my long journey.
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But still, I move slowly toward what people are telling me will be the best change in my life. I will live longer. I will be happier. I will wear smaller clothing and gain self esteem! Will I though? I am rallying the troops to support me. Begging my fiance to be on board with this, though he has weight demons of his own.
Right now I am 275 lbs and have a bunch of health issues. Diabetes that is SO awful that I just don't know what to do with myself. insulin shots 5 times a day or more in doses that would knock someone else the same weight as me down for the count. I have severe insulin resistance... Also, Lymph-edema, mild sleep apnea, chronic back, neck and leg pain as well as acne that has stripped away most of the tiny amount of self esteem I did have. I'm tired all of the time and in pain for at least 75% of it if not more. All of the Dr.s tell me this is the time! I'm young, I'll heal well!
I am scared. Scared to have the surgery and scared not too. This begins my long journey.
