Where to begin...

Oct 10, 2009

My name is Deborah and I am 51 years old.  I'm married to a saint--he is the calm to my storm.  I have always "thought" I had a weight problem, although looking back on my pictures from high school I was in great shape.  I'm in a program at Kaiser and on schedule to graduate from the required class next month.  In our last class our instructor discussed "Body Image"  I couldn't believe it when I took the test and scored very high (this is not good) in having a bad body image. 

After the test I thought, "Well, yeah.  Of course I have a bad body image...I'm 5'9" and 290 lbs!!  That's not a pretty picture!  Then I began to think back over my life and I realized that from my earliest memory I have always thought I was fat.  Even when I wasn't.  It seemed I was always either being compared or comparing myself to my older sister who was and still is "perfect"  (No, really.  People say that about her!)

So, I guess this is probably why they have these classes.  I'm learning a lot.  My weight loss has to start in my head if it is going to a lasting change. 

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