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Just wanted to throw a post up real quick, I made it thru!!!!! I just got home today tho, during and after surgery my blood pressure went nutz, so I had to stay an extra day until they got my meds tweeked. I am sooo sore and it isn't very comfy to sit here typin yet, so I'll post more in a few days I promise. I get the staples and drain out Friday morning so hopefully I will be a LOT more comfortable after then. Thanks again sooooooo much for the support comments and emails, it means a lot!! and... 8 lbs down since Friday morning woohooooooo =) I'll be in touch soon! *hugs*

Well, I will be leaving for the hospital in about 7 hours. I have been so out of it today, all lost in space. I'm not really scared, not really nervous, not really anything I don't think... I went shopping to pick up some stuff this morning and drive right by my street about 2 miles before I even realized and thought "where the hell am i going???" lol I went on the clear liquid diet starting this morning, which isn't so bad, I've had some broth for lunch and dinner and some sugar free jello too. I had to do the Fleet liquid (laxative stuff) at noon and yea uh it's been working ever since! That's not so fun lol I'm really kinda dissapointed my mom won't take some time off of work to be there with me in the morning, but whatever. I'll have Tom (fiancee') and Jenn (sister) and my aunt Lisa. I guess some things you just want your mommy there, but we have a very strained relationship and she has issues with jealousy and envy and stuff which i've come to terms with in a way and I guess I can forget it, she's always gonna be my mom, good and bad. I have never been in the hospital for anything but having my 2 kids, and I had them naturally (with as much pain killers as they would give me of course!!!) so i'm a lil nervous about being put to sleep and getting cut open and how much pain i'm gonna be in when I wake up. I'm trying to not think about it much, just keep thinkin it's gonna be fine, they do this everyday. No pain no gain!! Well I'm going to quit rambling for now, wish me luck!!! I'll take any silent prayers and/or well wishes anyone wants to say for me!! I'll post something next week when I pop on here as soon as I feel up to it! Thanks to all the msgs I've recieved up to this point also, it means a lot more then you know!! ~Caroline

6 more days till I go in. The past week I have been really nervous and scared and stuff, but at this point im just anxious, I just want it over and done and get back to normal, well my normal lol. I'm only really nervous about the pain after, they better send me home with some kickin drugs! lol I'm really a big baby when it comes to pain and I whine... a lot. =D yep my b/f thinks he's got this all under control bwahahahaa I gurantee he's callin my sister by the third day home to deal with me. nah for real, i'm really nervous about it, but i'm so over it, I want it DONE and over, get back to normalcy here. I've been spring cleaning like a mad woman the last 2 weeks cuz I know it's gonna be a few weeks before I can do much. I just feel like theres a million things to be done and not enough time in the day to do it all. I barely sit down, I'm always cleaning or re-arranging or on the go since the weather finally turned nice. My friends all think that I think i'm gonna die under the knife or somthing cuz i've been spending a lot of time with them lol. They arent used to it, it's been years since I just popped in to hang out anywhere. Anywayz, time to quit rambling. I have pre-op testing stuffs on Turesday and the big day is Friday so I prolly won't post again till after surgery. I know it helped me to just cruise thru this site and read peoples' step by step after surgery blog entries, so I wanna keep like a lil blog going about after. It helps us that are new here and to this to read how everything went. till then..~~~

wow it's been a lil bit since I could even take 5 mins to sit down and write here. well, I went thru the group intake, the dietician, the case worker and the psychologist, and instead of throwing me in the looney bin, they decided to schedule me for surgery lol. the process went quick because I didn't need any other pre-op testing, just blood work, cuz im 'healthy'. I'm really scared and nervous and excited and happy all at once. I just wish I could fast-forward to about a month after when i'm all healed up lol. The only thing that really makes me nervous about the surgery is pain after and healing, but i'm sure everyone goes thru that. well thats all for now. =)

I met with Dr. Cole again on the 13th. I am very comfortable with him, he is very upfront and to the point while being caring and compassionate. So i'm told i'm not the 'typical' for this surgery, big suprise, nothing about me is typical. lol I'm emotionally drained, one minute im convinced i'm gonna do this, the next i'm thinking oh my god there's no way i can do this. My biggest thing is the whole pain fear. I've always been scared of any kind of surgery or being cut open for any reason, it's not natural to me. Dr. Cole explained the whole surgery and made cool pictures to explain everything. Seems so simple on paper lol. On the 14th I had the group intake where they explain some more things about the whole process. I go on the 20th for my meeting with the Case worker, Dietician, and another girl, I can't remember who or what she is, I almost fainted when Colleen said you leave the hospital with this tube comming out of ya. That was an I can't do this moment lol My sister is awesome, she's been with me every step. First when I told her my PC Dr. mentioned the surgery she freaked, then she learned more about it and now she's all for it. I love her lots. Well that's all for now, it's nice getting this stuff out even if i'm the only one who reads it.