mztay08
thoughts for today
Mar 21, 2010
sometimes i feel lie this is just something that's not gonna happen because i have ppl putting in there unwanted thoughts on how i can just lose the weight with excercise and watching what i eat. well here's a question for you. Don't you think that i've tried that stupid? and yet here you are putting your unwantede thoughts and beliefs on me like i asked you. It's hard enough for me to do on my own without you trying to tell me how i should live my life.
I'm doing this for myself and not for you or your approval. if i wanted your approval don't you think i would have asked you. this is a process in my life that has taken me long enough to come to the point to make the decision on my own and the only thing i ask for is for you to support me and help me with this life altering decision but your to busy worried about how this will change things and i didn't realize before but i do now. so if you don't want to help me that's fine ill do it on my own thx for everything else you've done for me or helped me through but i need you now to if you can't be here now when i need you most that's fine to just let me know instead of beating around the bush about it . yea i know kinda random but i feel like i can express myself here without being judged for some reason.
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I'm doing this for myself and not for you or your approval. if i wanted your approval don't you think i would have asked you. this is a process in my life that has taken me long enough to come to the point to make the decision on my own and the only thing i ask for is for you to support me and help me with this life altering decision but your to busy worried about how this will change things and i didn't realize before but i do now. so if you don't want to help me that's fine ill do it on my own thx for everything else you've done for me or helped me through but i need you now to if you can't be here now when i need you most that's fine to just let me know instead of beating around the bush about it . yea i know kinda random but i feel like i can express myself here without being judged for some reason.
THOUGHTS
Mar 19, 2010
OK SO AT FIRST I WAN'T SO SURE IF I WAS GOING TO DO THE SURGERY UNTILL A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO . I WAS SCARED AND WASN'T READY BUT I THINK NOW I'M FINALLY AT A PLACE IN MY LIFE WERE I'M READY FOR A CHANGE AND THAT CHANGE IS GONNA BRING ON A BETTER ME. I DIDN'T REALIZE THAT I LOST SO MUCH OF ME , BUT TRUTH IS I LOST A BIG PART OF ME. I LOST MY SELF CONFIDENCE AND I LOST MY GOOD HEALTH BUT IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE. I PUT UP WITH CERTAIN STUFF BECAUSE I LOST MY SELF CONFIDENCE BUT IT'S SLOWLY COMING BACK AND I REALIZE IN ORDER TO GO BACK TO THE OLD ME I GOTTA DO SOMETHING AND GOTTA DO SOMETHING SOON. SO I FINALLY DECIDED I'M GOING TO DO THE SURGERY.
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