Almost 3 weeks since surgery

Mar 29, 2009

Tomorrow will be 3 weeks since surgery day.  I've lost a total of 24 lbs.  I am drinking about 3 protein shakes a day (made with skim milk) containing about 30 grams protein, 9 carbs each.  Also I have either SF FF yogurt or pudding once a day, and a couple SF FF popsicles too.  No problems getting in all my protein and water.

I can easily walk for 30 minutes, almost 1.5 miles.  But sometimes when I get home from work I am just too tired to walk.  On the weekends, I have plenty of energy, I walk and I work in the garden and clean house.  I am not hampered by joint pains, so I can work longer than I used to be able to around the house.  I sleep more too - I am often asleep by 9:00, and don't wake up til 6:00.  Have recently started taking daily B-complex vitamins to see if my energy level goes up.  Previously these were in my weekly B-12, but I'm supposed to get some daily.  Also I wonder if I need some healthy fats, but don't know how to add them at this point.  I'm getting 80-90 grams of protein and 600 calories a day.  Still doing Isopure powder but now with skim milk.  It's kind of frustrating only losing 2 lbs a week on that little amount of food, but I must be patient.

Oh, I have lost 3 inches from my waist, 2 from hips, 2 from bust and several more from other spots!!  Dropped size from 22 bottom/20 top to 20 bottom/18 top.

First couple of weeks it was Liquid in Liquid out.  Four days ago I took Immodium and haven't moved since then.  Tonight I will try taking something to help get things moving.

Hunger:  I feel a little something in my tummy at the times I usually drink my shakes, around 7:00, around 11:30 and 6:00.  I could easily ignore it, it's barely noticeable, but I eat (drink my shake) because I think my body needs nourishment.  I eat a yogurt in the afternoon and popsicles at night, in addition to my water, crystal light, etc.

Cravings:  I haven't had many, even when I'm cooking for my husband.  However, the other night he was eating a crispy pepperoni pizza - it smelled so good, I really wanted some.  I remembered how good it tastes.  But of course I didn't, and the craving went away.

BIG CHANGE:  I feel like I have a huge burden removed from myself.  The "monkey" was my obsession with food - the constant dilemma.  (What is there to eat?  Goodies in the break room?  Ice cream in the freezer?  Should I eat it?  No, I shouldn't.  Maybe just a little taste.  It won't hurt if I eat one cookie.  Yes it will, every calorie counts!  But I'll do extra exercise, later.  I deserve a treat!  I don't care if I'm fat, I want cookies (pizza, ice cream, cereal, chocolate, cheez-its, etc) and I'm going to enjoy it.  Life is short, and I feel so good when I eat.)

This monkey on my back interfered with every part of my life; at work it stopped me from diving into and completing a task.  At home it kept me on the couch, internally debating what/when I would give in and eat.  At social events, food was the ultimate goal, the more the better, especially if it was no cost to me.

I thought this would happen, but I was worried what I would do to soothe myself, instead of eating, since I literally can't eat at this point.  I thought I would be anxious, climbing the walls, looking for comfort.  It's not like that at all.  I'm just .... OK, I'm content, I'm satisfied, it's hard to explain.  I do get bored more.  But I also do more active things, like just straightening up the house, gardening, when I used to just lay on the couch and watch TV.  And the weekends are very active.  I don't shop, because I have enough smaller clothes to wear for now, and don't want to buy something I only wear for a couple months.  Have to save for that plastic surgery, lol.  maybe....   I can't go to a lot of the festivals yet, can't eat normally yet, and don't like to be too far away from a bathroom, just in case.  But I will be ready to try it in 2 weeks, when my friend comes to visit for French Quarter Festival.  I will just bring my trusty pre-made protein shakes and drink water.  I will be looking good and feeling great, I hope I can do a few turns on the dance floor!  And then comes Jazz Fest....

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