Penny Lane
Gee, what does a person say here ??? 
I feel like I am trying to make a infomercial LOL 
I have struggled with weight issues pretty much all my life. My highest was 309#. I lost alot of that after a messy divorce . I had my lap band surgery Dec 7, 2010. The DOS I was 239. I have had 2 fills thus far ( 7cc ) and I am feeling like a failure 
@ my last appt they said I was doing ok..... but I got on my scales this am and bawled my eyes out ... I had gained some I have lost. I am NOW @ 228. I am a 46 yo in my secnd marriage. I have 3 biological children and 4 step children.... the 2 older step kids has blessed me with 6 wonderful grandbabies. 
I, as , alot of us here have used food for "emotional healing" ..... due to uncontrolled seizures I had to go on disablity back in 2007. HATE IT !!!!!!!!!!!! 
I am always the 1 who takes care of everyone else.... my mom has alzheimers, plus many other personal issues. Between my moms health problems.. both of my parents plus my youngest daughter are stroke SURVIVORS . My husband just back in Aug had to undergo a emergency triple by pass surgery plus, the son I love more than anything left to join the navy ..... so I ate and ate and ate ..... Lord, I feel like a eeyore ...... 
lol I AM USUALLY a very upbeat weird sence of humor kinda person lol.... really I am 
3-03-2011
A new start again 
after my last drs appt and yet another fill , 03-01-11 I HAVE FINALLY reached the point to where I am getting full and not being hungry all day long ..... I have waited and waited and Praise the Lord I now have reassurance that I WILL SUCCEED !!!! I am FINALLY starting to be proud of something that I am doing. Ordered my wii Zumba game today and we will see if I survive that LOL 
