1 Year After Surgery

Feb 07, 2011

  Tomorrow is my appointment with the Doctor after 1 year since surgery.  WOW !  Time has flown.  I am 165.5 lbs down and still have 28.5 to go.  So close but yet still have a hump to go.  On the positive side ... and what a positive side it is...WOW...did I ever think this would be possible?  I honestly don't know.  I had always hoped, that maybe someday I could loose weight and feel great and well...I do.  It is sooo awsome to be able to wear normal cloths and get compliments.  I have to admit it is a bit awkward when I see people and they don't recognize me at first.  I don't always know what to say.  I kind of let them figure it out and when they say "is that really you?" or "Have you lost weight?"  I just say "yea a little bit".  It has been amazing to be able to even excersise the way I want to and can.  I actually ran (not walked) on a tread mill the other day for awhile and couldn't believe first that I could do it and then second that my feet and legs weren't hurting like crazy afterwards.  This is amazing!  I do have to admit all is not perfect.  There are still a few issues.  For one I still do not have a regular BM schedule and every time I do have one it is painful.  I still need to schedule an appointment to get that looked into more.  I think excersising might be helping that issue though I hope.  My hair has still not fully come back the way I have hoped yet.  Still hoping it does come back stronger.   Another issue is I still have the bing eating habbits.  Which means I will always have to be supper super careful.  They did tell us however that this was just a tool...not a total solution.  WHen I get nervous I tend to still search for food.  I guess the best I can hope for is to keep foods around me that are approx 0 calories, no sugar etc.. 
    I can see this will always be a struggle and that I am going to always have to be aware.  I will probably always have the fear of gaining it back.  So I will have to stay aware of what I am doing the best I can.  Well, I gues I shall see what the Doctor says tomorrow.  He may be disappointed since I have not reached my goal yet...but we shall see.  Thank you EVERYONE who has given me support and helped with all of this.

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