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OMG OMG OMG my big day is finally coming! I am so excited for tomorrow. I probably won't get much sleep tonight but yet i haven't gotten much sleep all week. Hopefully doing before pictures tonight, or tomorrow morning, I am confining myself to my own little room until tomorrow so that nothing bad can happen lol somewhat nervous you could say. I have been waiting for so long for this day to arrive! It was like everytime I got close somethin got in my way and I am DETERMINED to make it happen this time around. 

Ahhhh 2 days away! I just wanna sleep them away so it can go faster, check in at 5:30a.m, surgery at 7:30a.m , on to a thinner me! I am hoping to lose 260# or more.. I am seriously stuck in a fat girls body and I hate it! my fiance says he loves my body the way it is but he wants me to be happy about my body and thats what I intend to do is be happy! So much from my past has caused pain and they way I cover up the pain is through food. NO MORE! I am ready!! 

 I FINALLY got some photos uploaded thanks to my wonderful love! I was so frustrated that it was not taking the photes but I figured it out. Getting more nervous as the day comes closer, its like it is not real. I justr hope the days go fast! I haven't been sleeping the best lately, just too anxious to..

 My surgery is in 5 days and I have a little bit of a cold. No fever thank god! I am nervous and trying to shake this cold. My liquid diet starts today, I don't have to but I want to. I am not looking forward to the night before when I have to down that whole bottle of magnesium citrate, yuck!  But in the end all this hard work will be worth it... i hope. I just worry about not making it through. 

 I am nervous about having my surgery but I know it is whats best! I am pretty sure I can follow the diet and stay on track but my main concern is making it through the surgery