nikimarie21
3/14&&3/15
Mar 15, 2009
hey!yesterday was a pretty ehhh kinda day. i tried to go shopping...thought it would kinda make my day since i love to shop and well it didnt. i felt like everything i looked at was made for an old lady! i mean im used to that, but my attitude has been sooo different lately it kinda made me sad to go back to that mindset. so anyway, i drove like an hour away so i was pretty tired when i got home. i ate a snack and started to feel really sick! i had a really bad headache and felt like i was going to throw up. didnt help that my step-dad wouldnt stop pounding on the damn door trying to fix it and my grandma was smoking in the house when i ASKED them not to! it makes me even more sick now than it did before surgery. sometimes i feel like my surgery was a joke to some people...like they dont care if i feel sick. [the best is when im hungry and someone points out ''normal'' food to me...that one made me cry a few times!] well anyway, i laid down for a bit and my mom woke me up asking if i wanted to take a walk..its gorgeous here finally so i said yeah and we walked down my block to the park walked the entire path and back home. i actually kept up with her! towards the end i had a little bit of a pain but once we slowed down it went away and i began to walk faster...thats something VERY new! so we're going for a walk again today. when i got home my stomach was all weird feeling again and my head started to pound...maybe cause i hadnt eaten..stupid me!! so my mom made me some fish with pepper and garlic powder. 1 white potato with a little salt and parsley and then i dipped the fish in salsa and had a little lemon it was actually really good! after i ate my best friend called and asked if i wanted to go cosmic bowling...i was a little nervous since im still on restrictions but i ended up going and it was sooooo much fun! everyone told me how much happier i am and i can truly see it. there were 4 of us there and one of my friends made sure the ball i used was under 10 pounds, and everyone kept making sure it was ok..it was so sweet! i saw someone who i havent seen in awhile and used to have a big thing for and he wished me luck and said he was happy that everything is working out for me blah blah blah...now i dont even know why i ever had a thing for him!! losing just the littlest amount of weight opens your eyes..trust me! well anyway, i got a call from ''nameless'' and we had been talking for awhile, never in a relationship but just talking. he tells me that hes talking to another girl and pretty much throws me the peace sign and thats that. i went nuts! he kept telling me to watch my ----ing mouth and that made it worse..no one could believe i went off like that since i normally dont. but i really have gained a little confidence and everything just came out! it felt so good to not keep anything inside! :) so thats yesterday!!!! today ive been printing stuff out for a paper and listening to music, im going to take a walk again since its gorgeous again and im really excited to take a walk! its no longer a chore..its helping me get to where i want to be!
have a great day!!!!
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23.4
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Surgery
03/03/2009
Surgery Date
Surgeon
Mar 08, 2009
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