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I am a 37 year old happily married mother of one son.  I can actually remember a time in life that I wasnt overweight.  I remember wearing tube tops (yeah thats aging me...lol) and wearing backless halters etc along with my other average sized friends.  It wasnt until junior high that the weight really began to pile on.  By the time I graduated I was probably about the size I am now.  I have tried every diet possible.  Low Calorie, low fat, high protein, Atkins, South Beach, Slim Fast, the Grapefruit Diet, Weight Watchers and the list goes on and on and on.  I am married to a wonderful man who truly loves me for me.  He is very secure in the marriage but he really likes ALL THIS LUVIN!!!!  I am trying to convince him that this is going to benefit him as much as myself (if you know what I mean )!!!
I am a Christian and I love my church!!!  They have been a big support for me in my considering WLS.  I love to sing, cook and hang out with my wonderful husband and son.  I am in the process of writing some music which I would love to have recorded.  I enjoy shopping almost to much (lol)

September 15, 2006
My meeting with the doctor is planned for Sept. 26th.  I am sooo nervous.  I have tossed this idea back and forth for so long.  I remember when I first told my husband.  Needless to say he was not to thrilled, but now he seems more at ease.  I have to be healthy for him and for my son.  I love them both and I feel like I am robbing them of the opportunity to enjoy life with my weight being an issue for me. We are planning on doing Disney World next year and I will be able to ride with my son and not be embarrassed.  This is going to be a journey but my faith and convictions are holding me fast knowing the "He that began a good work in me will be faithful to complete it".  I have a destiny and I have things to do for the kingdom.  Praise God for my salvation or I dont think I could go through with this.  I am searching on this site for people who can relate to where I am and to what I am feeling.

September 21,2006
I have gone to a couple of people that I know who have had the surgery just to get an idea of what to expect.  I have gotten some really good feedback.  I am excited about what is going to transpire.  The thought of myself being 100 lbs lighter (or more) blows my mind.  I dont know if I will be able to wrap my mind around  the concept.  I had my friends laughing, I told them when I get into a smaller size I gonna buy me some AppleBottom jeans (ohhh yeah)!!!  Okay for real....I am just looking forward to a healthier life and being pain free from my back always hurting.  I have started a journal that records my thoughts while I go through this.  I know in a years time I am going to laugh at some of the stuff I have written but thats what I was feeling.
I am 5 days from seeing the surgeon.  The people I know who have had the surgery recently got approved and scheduled for surgery in 2 weeks time. Oh Lord let that happen for me.  My anniversary is coming up so I have a lot to look forward to.  I told my son I am going to take him to Disney Land.  Its going to fun and a first for me to be able to go and be able to ride the amusement park rides.  Thats another thing I am looking forward to.  My son will not have the "fat Mommy".  Praise God for that!!!

September 22, 2006
I am on such a high that I can put it into words.  I have searched this site high and low, emailed people who I felt are close in proximity of weight and what I desire to look like.  I am still trying to get my head to understand that this is going to be in a few short months.  I have read of people being scared to do it.  I have put that thought away because I know I have things to do in ministry and God has given me this option to get me where I need to be.  I have some many desires to accomplish once I am rid of the weight. 
1.  To buy a pair of Apple Bottom jeans....oh yeah girl!!!    Done 2/17/07
2. Sit in an airplane without a seatbelt extender
3. To ride every ride at Disney Land with my son and not be afraid if the seat will close or hold me.
4. Ride on my husbands back and not give the poor man a broken back.
5. But the cutsie bra and panties sets from Victoria's and make some secrets of my own
6. To wear a White Fox or Mink coat and not look like Sasquatch (sp.) rofl!!!
These are just a few of the things I am going to do.  So world....Look out cuz here I come.

               
September 25, 2006
I have gotten so much good advice from people from this site.  I never thought it could be but i have gotten so addicted to this place.  It would be wonderful if I got addicted to it and left food alone (lol)  I am going to see the surgeon on tomorrow and I am so excited.  I am going to start dieting now in preparation for the surgery.  Its on now!!!!  I  am also going to go and look for my Apple Bottom jeans.  My hubby is a little worried.  I dont think he really wants me to have the surgery but I think because he knows how bad I want it that he is going along with it.  I havent told many people, just those who are close to me.  I talked to my sister-in-law and she was telling me how much she weighs.  She and I are the same height so I am going to try to get down to her size which is about 230 lbs.   I have been off work because of my back for a couple months now.  I am getting so fed up with them losing my information or not doing things in a timely manner.  It is my prayer that once I have this surgery that I can go back to work and not have to worry about this again.  I know once I have this surgery that I wont have to worry about my back hurting.   I am a blessed woman, I have been given 3 angels of support, Gigi, Jenn and Jeannie.  These ladies have given me some encouragement and some understand of what I should expect to some degree.  I thank God for them!!!!  You ladies are the best!!!

September 26, 2006
Well I met with the surgeon and he did my physical etc and told me based on my medical history that I would be a perfect candidate for the surgery and that he feels, but can't guarantee that I shouldn't have any complications as I have no major health issues.  Its good I am not diabetic or have high cholestorol.  I had him laughing I said "yeah I am pretty healthy just a little fat" (lol)  Today was so great.  After I met with the surgeon by the grace of God the psychologist had an opening this afternoon so I was able to meet with the surgeon, have all my labwork done and get my psych evaluation done all in the same day!!!  God is so good!!!  Only HE could have worked this all out in my favor.  The psych eval was so cooky.  They asked some of the dumbest questions like do I hear voices or see things that noone else can see or hear.  I was like...ughhhh NO!!!!  I am so excited that this is all working for my good.  I don't know if anyone else has ever had this much ease but I praise God.  I looked at the website for AppleBottom and Baby Phat jeans....Thats a work in motion.  I was also told by the doctor that I will be able to use their health facility and gym for 3 months for free and I will be meeting with the dietician as to what to expect pre-op and post-op.  I also have to attend a workout pre-op so that I know what to expect.  I saw my mothers co-worker who had the surgery about 10 months ago and she looks really good.  She lost 140 lbs.  She has lost a lot of her good sense as she is cheating on her husband...thats pretty dumb.  She had the Lap Band and she says Ishould have had that done.  I am quite satisfied with what I am.

 September 27, 2006
I sat here and was doing some research on weight loss after I have the surgery.  I have decided that my goal weight will be 242 lbs.  Which means I have 160 lbs to lose.  According to the information on this site, that is absolutely possible for me to lose this amount of weight in a years time.  That would be so good for me.  I talked with my sister-in-law and she is at 229 lbs. so that was what gave me a visual idea of what I want to look like.  Please Lord dont let the boobs go...I luv my girls!!!  I am getting all anxious and its only been a day.  I am hoping that since I was able to get all my stuff done that it will not take a long time for me to get approved.  It would be great to get approved this week and get my surgery date.  I am going to have to wait at least until after my son's birthday which is on the 7th of October.  Anytime in between that time would be cool and then at least when my wedding anniversary comes on the 25th I will be on my way to complete healing.  There are going to be some haters I know but thats on them.  No more will they have to think of me as the "fat cute girl".  I know I am going to change I am not going to get ugly though.  I want to be sweet and loving like I am...(I am sweet...!!!) I have also decided not to share what I am doing with my immediate family.  I know that would be a whole other drama that I am not with right now.  I have only told a few people at my church and a few people I hang out with, one which has already had the surgery.  I am still trying to tell my dude that this is going to be a good thing.  He actually told me that he is going to buy a gun because he is going to defend what belongs to him.  That is to much!!!  I don't understand men.  He is tripping.  I am not going anywhere and he needs to understand that. 
When I sit and think about life after the surgery, I think about being confident enough to mnister in front of people without them thinking "she is very pretty, but she sure is fat" which is what I think when I am before people.  Even on sunday when I am singing, I think people are automatically staring at me.  Thats why whenever I go out anywhere I make sure I always look my best.  I go above and beyond to make sure that noone can ever say I was big, fat and sloppy!!  No sir, not me.  My hair has to be done, and my face has to be "beat".  I am a little upset because all my fat girl clothes are really fierce....but then I have to think of the positive that I will be able to get fierce smaller clothes which will probably be a lot cheaper.  I guess I have to see the good in it all!!!

September 29, 2006
AAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGHHH!!!! Okay I am so ready to move this into progress fast track.  Yeah I know its only been a few days but wouldnt it be nice if I got a call and they said "you're approved" and your date is blah blah blah!!!!???  Yeah it would be.  Okay I openly admit that I am addicted to this site.  I have heard about so many people who have received so much support since they signed on to this site.  I am hoping that the same thing will happen for me.  I am looking for an angel to (sobbing...lol)  Well one good thing has happened, I said before that I was going to try and eat the light version to prepare myself for my new eating habits after surgery.  I did and I actually lost about 6 lbs.  I was shocked when I got on the scale this morning.  I feel really good.  I have been faithful taking my vitamins so this thing can get to moving on.  There are some really cool people on this site.  But I think I am missing some of the steps as to what I have to do.  I only had to have a psychological evaluation done and all this bloodwork (they took about 8 vials of blood outta me..ouch!)  and that was it.  I knw one thing, they better not be trying ot mess and say that oh you have to get another test or something cuz yeah I will have to let it go on them.  I was talking to some people last night and they just came back from a cruise.  Now that I am on this new joureny I am really interested in pursuing some of these trips.  They said they have an agenda for the kids that runs from 8am until midnight the whole time you are on the cruise.  My son would love that.   Then me and my hubby would be able to get the honeymoon that we never got.  Oh lawd a sistah will be able to rock a swimming suit and shorts and not feel like the world and saying "what the heck was she thinking".  I have told a few people that I am having the surgery and I have gotten mixed messages from different people.  I think its just the little hateration going on for some.  When people get use to you being the "fat cute girl" then its like they feel instantly threatened by you.  No need to feel threatened by me...I got a man (rofl) and most of them dont.  My son would say to me about that statement "Mommy thats not Jesus" okay I.....uh....never mind! 

               

October 2, 2006
I talked with my "Angelette" Robin on friday. ( I guess thats what she is, ....lol.  I am so new at this)   She was very encouraging.  I cracked up laughing listening to her talk about her weight now.  She is off the hook.  She said she doesnt even look at Plus Size clothes anymore.  I dont know if I will be able to do that especially since I am over 6 feet tall.  But boy what it would be like to have a pair of pants that dont start with a 2 or a 3 in that case.  I looked at myself in the mirror and everyday I am looking at the phone mad at it cuz its not ringing with my Coordinator from the surgeons office telling me...."Guess what Veronica, we have your approval and surgery date".  Is there no kindness in the world.  They need to know I am having a hizzy.  Lets do this already.  I am going through summer clothes and as I am packing them, I am like heyyy, next summer I wont be able to wear these.  Oh now thats depressing in a sorts.  I have really cute clothes.  Even if they are kinda big.  My mother and my friend Dee is gonna be so cute.  I wont have any of these clothes next year.  My friends better watch out.  I am finally gonna be able to be that moochin' friend that borrows clothes and gives them back after they are no long in style.  I am that character "Lynn" on "Girlfriends" in a sort.  I borrow stuff now and wait to give it back.  I am sooo ready to just do this!!  I made my own self laugh thinking I will have the surgery, hide out the rest of the winter in my "Big Girl" clothes and then Summer 2007 bangggggg!!!!!!!  Its gonna be on and poppin!
I am so pissed, I called the insurance company to see if the pre-authiorization was submitted and they dont have any record of it as of yet.  I  am so mad!!!  What da devil?  This is so nerve-wrecking.  I will of course check back in the next couple of days.  I am going to give them til Friday and then I am calling back.  My faith isnt wavering I am just ready.  I go back to the doctor on the 20th for my back and I wanna make sure that I can extend my time off so that I can do this while I am off and give myself some time to recuperate. 

               
October 4, 2006

The devil is a liar!!!  Thats all I am going to say.  My doctors office called to say that they were denied because my insurance company said I didn't have insurance.  I hit the roof.  Now how could that be when I work for them....duh????   Of course I got my butt on the phone and started calling around.  I told them they needed to fix this today as I have been to the doctor already and I have plans on what I am going to do.  I am so pissed because if they had gotten payment today, they would have called me with a surgery date.  I could scream.  Thank God for the Holy Spirit because had I not been praying this morning I probably would have gone off for real.  I know this is a test.  I am not mad.  They said they are going to try again tomorrow and prayerfully Deanna will contact me and let me know what the date is.  Its funny because I was watching Christian TV and Dr. Cindy Trimm said the word "Synergy" and I was struck with that hmmmm feeling because thats the name of the clinic I am using for my surgery.  When she told me that biblically synergy means Gods timing, I knew that this was for me.  Some people believe in priminitions (sp) but I believe in God's divine interpretation.  I know that this is what I am going to do and that I am going to be just fine.  I claim it in Jesus name.  I am excited about all the people that I am meeting from BAH.  I feel like I have my own life Gastric Bypass family....(lol)  There are some very cool people on BAF. 

               

October 6, 2006
Well I called the insurance company and they have all my information corrected.  The Utilization Management department said that I would definitely have an answer by next week.  They can come on and just say YES!!!!  I have not come all this way to turn around.  Now the disability people want to say that they dont know why I have been off work when I sit at a desk.  I wish they had to sit at the desk for 8 hours and not be in pain.  I do good to sit on the couch for an hour and not hurt.  My back hurts all the time and I know that once I get some of this weight off that I will feel better....thats just inevitable.  I dont see what they could possibly come up with to deny me.  I refuse to believe that I am getting denied.  I am getting approved in Jesus name.   There are still a few things I need to get done before I have surgery but I can do that in the coming weeks.  Its funny because now I preparing for surgery, people are coming to me giving me all these clothes.  I had to laugh to myself.  I am like, well I wont be wearing you but a few times.  How come I couldnt get all this when I wasnt thinking about surgery.  I had to laugh last night.  I was looking online for some hot dress boots.  I mean some boots that make the leg go "oh yeah"!!!   I am really going to have to buy all new clothes but its okay.  I just want to be healthy.  I went on a photo shoot today with my photographer.  I hadnt done that in so long but it was fun to be at it again.  I can't wait to get the pictures back.  Even though these will be a collection of my before pictures.  Then I will get some taken as I make progress.  I wish I could get a preview of what I will look like 100 lbs lighter.  Just a sneak preview!!!  Well I will keep posting with whats going on in my life on this lonnnnnnnnnnnnggggg wait for APPROVAL!!!

               

October 9, 2006
HALLELUJAH!!!! The nurse coordinator from my surgeons office just called and said I was approved and given a date of October 26th!!  I am so excited.  But in the same token I am nervous.  I just have to remember that "HE is faithful to complete that which HE started in me".  this is the beginning to my life.  I am excited about all the things that I will be able to do once I have the surgery.  Okay I am not going to lie, the thought of pain is a bit much for me.  I happen to be the biggest baby this side of the equator.  They better make sure a sistah has good strong drugs.  Well I am on my way!!!!  God is so awesome and I love Him so much....thanks for this opportunity!!!! 

October 12, 2006

Well I am 14 days from my surgery...the next biggest even in my life and I cant wait.  I finallhy was approved for my disability payments and I am going to be able to stay out until the first of the year which is a good thing.  Hopefully by the time I go back to work I will have lost a significant amount of weight.  I am excited about what I will look like once I have the surgery.  I wonder how long it will be before I will be able to rock a pair of stilettos.  I know that my hubby is wondering what size I am going to get down to before I reach my goal.  He swears I am going to get down to a size 10.....this man should already know I dont wanna be skinny.  I think being voluptuous is still sexy I just dont wanna be FAT! (lol)  I am going to my exercise and nutrition class on next week at the surgeons office.  That should be interesting being able to learn what I can and cant do.  I have always been very flexible as far as exercising, my back is what limited me from doing a lot.  I am excited about the weight loss!!!  I am going to be healthy for the first time in over 20 years!!!

October 16, 2006

The last 4 days have been the longest in life.  Buffalo had an ice/snow storm which meant we were without electricity, heat and worst of all.....the internet (lol)  I had a lot of time to think about what was going to happen int he next two weeks.  I have a lot to do, I go to my exercise and nutrition class this week and I am really excited.  My best friend is thinking about having the surgery.  He lives in Canada so he isnt sure how OHIP will handle him having surgery in the USA.  I have to see if anyone knows of what he can do to make the transition smooth for him.  He is so worried.  My husband is still talking about buying a gun.  Dude needs to relax.  I keep telling him I am not going anywhere.  Until I can find a man who will buy me a new Cadillac and give me money like he has done for me....(lol)  no I'm just serious. (lol)  I am happily married and he better know that.

October 19, 2006

Well I am one week before my surgery and I am so excited.  I had my appointment with me PCP who cleared me for my surgery.  I went to Bible Study and my Pastor only confirmed in my spirit what I was feeling.  This surgery is my transition into the next phase of my life, my marriage, motherhood and my minisitry!!!  I just believe that now I will be able to minister and not wonder what I look like as the biggest person on the praise team or the choir.  I wont be so focused on when I speak/teach that people arent hearing what I am saying but looking at me all crazy.   Its funny how for so long that was a major issue for me and now in a weeks time I wont be able to use that for an excuse.  Its time to do what I been called to do!!!

October 24, 2006

People need to really think about what they say.  I am cutting this chick who claims to be my friend wayyyy back.  I purposely did not tell her that I was having the surgery because she always has something smart to say.  She calls when I was at the hospital getting my pre-op and of course I had to tell her I would call her back because I couldnt talk on the phone.  No sooner do I get home she calls me back and says "are you having that surgery"? So of course I told her yeah and she had the nerve to tell me, why dont I just get on a treadmill and a good diet?....how about I could have smacked the little bit of Jesus she does have right out.  I didnt tell her not to have her boobs done when she did.  I am having my surgery despite her smart comments.  I think she is a little jealous because I have always been cuter (lol) than her and to now not to be the "fat friend" anymore I think its more than she wants to deal with.  Tomorrow is my wedding anniversary so I have to make sure "my man" enjoys himself since the following day I will be having surgery and not able to celebrate much until I recuperate.  I am very exciting about this next journey to weightloss!!!!  Losing side...I am on my way!

October 25, 2006

Today is my wedding Anniversary!!  I am so happy in my marriage and this surgery is going to strengthen our relationship in so many ways.  My husband has planned a trip for us in February once I have recuperated totally.  I love that man.  Well I am hours away from my re-birth and I am so excited.  I talked to my "twin" Marcia who had the surgery 3 years ago.  She gave me so much encouragement and she just spoke so prophetically in my life.  She spoke right where I am at.  She began to say that now is the time for me to go forth in ministry.  She hit it right on the head.  I will regain the lost years from being overweight and do what I need to do.   LOSING SIDE HERE I COME!!!!

October 29, 2006

Well I had my surgery on the 26th and everything went wonderfully.  I got the hospital at 6:05 am and they took us back to the pre-op area around 6:30 am.   They took my blood pressure, my temp and all the other vitals.  I weighed before I left for the hospital and I was 404 lbs.  Dang you would have thought I would have been losing and not gaining going into WLS.  (lol).  Once that was done I was taken to anesthesia area and I kissed my hubby bye and told him I would see him in a couple hours.  I had the people in the anesthesia area laughing because they allowed me to bring my KiKi bear in and I told them he would need anesthesia as well and they hooked up a "line" for KiKi.  That anesthesia is no joke.  He told me to take some deep breaths and after two (which is all I can remember taking) I was out cold.   When I came to I was in the post-op area and of course doing the normal me.....being nosey!!!  There were some funny people in there.  I was shocked and so grateful that I wasnt in any pain.  They then just put me in my room and I had to walk to the bathroom.  I didnt sleep well while in the hospital because they wake you up every two hours for vitals.  I had the most wonderful nurses I have ever met.  They were the absolutely best.  Very kind and they were always just a call away.   The weirdest thing is when they take the tubes out.  I laugh even now because it is such an awkward feeling.  It makes me laugh when I think about it.  Its rather uncomfortable but the rhythm of it coming out just tickeled me. (rofl).   I was discharged on the 28th.  My BP was a little elevated but once it went down I was sent home.  It was an adjustment sleeping in my bed so I slept in the recliner.  The nurse came today and I have officially lost 13 lbs!!!  Heeyyyyy..... Gloryyyyy to God!!! Thank ya Jesus.

November 8, 2006

Well I had my first post-op appointment and I have lost 26 lbs since my surgery!!!!! YAHOOOOOO~~~!!!!!  I am so thankful.  I would never have thought that it would have been this sucessful but I have to remember that this was what I prayed and asked God to do for me.  I am feeling so good.  I have to keep reminding myself to eat and to get my water in.  Thats the hardest part.  Before it would be nothing for me to eat even when I am not hungry but now if I eat and I am not hungry I make myself sick.  The doctor told me to try and get the protein shakes that will be a double-plus for me.  I get the meal and the protein.  I decided to try the Slimfast for Low Carb dieters that doesnt have a  lot of sugar in it.  To me the others were a waste of money because they were so laden with sugar.  This has been a trying time for also because now my hubby is in the hospital.  He is diabetic and his foot started bleeding and would not stop.  They admitted him and sai they believe that the foot is infected.  He is in good hands and the good thing is that he has excellent doctors working with him.  He is getting the best treatment available.  He was a little down but we know that all things work together for the good!!!!  This is an awesome ride and I am enjoying the beginning of what is ahead....THE BEST IS YET TO COME!!!!!

November 20, 2006

Its been so long since I posted.  I feel so neglectful but my life since my surgery has been a constant ride.  Some good some not so good but a ride just the same.  My husband only needed to be in the hospital about 5 days and he is getting better everyday.  His foot is healing wonderfully and I am so glad for that.  I have been getting a great deal of attention.  I am so proud to say that as of today, I am down 40 lbs!!!!!!  Oh yeah I am working this to the max !!!!  I feel good, and the results are already starting to show.  My sister gave me a coat that I really loved of hers and I actually wore it, and buttoned it with clothes on and had room to move around.  I could have cried.  I got into my jeans that my sister in law bought me 3 years ago.  They are a size 26 (non-stretch) and I got them on and they were a little loose.  This is amazing because if this has happened with just 40 lbs, what happens when its 80 lbs???  My husband is getting the accolades of my work as well.  Different men are telling him how good I look etc.  I think because of my height is the reason that I am showing so much.  I am going back to therapy for my back this week.  I feel I can make a double effort from this.  I will get my workout on and strengthen my back all at the same time.  We are moving soon and its going to be good to start over.  I love our new house.  I'll be posting my new photos soon....cant wait.  More later!!!!

December 23, 2006

Okay I have been really bad about updating this profile.  I have been so busy getting me a life so hey whats a girl to do (lol)  I took some pictures which I have uploaded on my profile and my face looks so different than it did 2 months ago.  I actually have cheekbones and a neck....whooooaaaa!!!  Who would have ever known.  I feel really good.  My hubby and I are having a couple of issues but I know we will get through it.  I have been getting so much attention.  I ran across an ole ex' a few weeks ago and boyyyy ohhh boy!!!  Thats all I am going to say about that.  I am officially down 52 lbs.  I am trying to do some new things to get the weight off at an even pattern.  I am stressing and obsessing about the weight loss.  I keep trying to tell people that unless you been the fat cute girl then you have no idea what it feels like to start losing weight and feeling good.  I am praying for a wonderful holiday season and I would love to be 60 lbs down by the new year.  Oh yeah best believe I am going to Protein train it to the hill.  Well until next time.....may the butterfly continue to emerge!!!!

January 23, 2007

Well its been a great month.  I got through the holidays with no major concerns.  I went back to work right before Christmas and of course they had every kind of sweet goody-goody food you could ask for.  I told a coworker I remember the days when I would have taken some cookies or cheesecake to the "head" (lol).  But I actually was able to go through without being obsessed with eating junk food.   I am down 70 lbs now and feeling absolutely great!!!!  I am hoping to hit the Century mark by Valentine's day.  Especially since I have this hot little number I would love to wear to the Sweethearts ball.  When I started this journey I was wearing a size 30/32, now I can wear a size 22/24 depending on the material.   So needless to say this experience has been great for me. 

February 26, 2007

Well it has been officially 4 months since that wonderful day that my life changed forever!!! I am officially 94lbs down and I am moving fast to the century mark.  I can hardly believe how I feel.  I went from a size 30-32 and now I am in size 22 pants and some 20's.  Whaaaat??? Oh yeah!!!  I saw a friend of mines that has known me for years and he didnt recognize me.  Its funny because people approach you when you are a smaller size.  People tend to look you in the face and they are more friendly.  Thats the part that upsets me because I am the same person when I was 400 lbs but now they treat you differently.  People dont believe when I tell them how much I weigh now.  I guess thats because I am so tall and I just carry it a little better.  I have another 86 lbs to lose to get to what I would consider a good weight for me.  I like my Voluptuousness so I dont want to get to small.  240 lbs would do me wonderfully!!!  I'll keep posting as I do better!!!

March 28, 2007

Well it is officially 5 mnths since my life changed forever.  I am happy to say that I have reached my first goal of losing 100 lbs which I did right before my anniversary!!!!  I am now under 300 lbs which I havent been in I dont know how long.  As of today I am 298 lbs and I feel absolutely wonderful.  I have to admit that after reading so many other profiles I had a much easier time during my transition then some have.  I have become obsessed with exercising.  My husband thinks I am crazy...lol.  I am usually walking about 2.5 to 3 miles a day.  I work out every other day and I am doing strength training as well.  I am going to finally get me a membership at the gym and get to my next goal.  The funny thing is that I know I am losing weight really well, seems like I can eat not a whole lot but more then what I thought I would be able to after surgery.  I still have not had sugar in my diet and I am not eating unhealthy.  I promised myself and God that once I had surgery I would not go back to unhealthy habits in my eating,.  I am now wearing a size 20 (my sister is so hating because all her cute clothes I can NOW fit and she is sick!!!....lol)  It hard to not buy new clothes especially when my 30/32's just do not fit anymore.  But I wouldnt go back to over 400 lbs for all the money in the world.  I am praying that by the summer I will be at my next goal of weighing somewhere near 230 lbs.  I dont want to be thin but I do want to be a comfortable size.  My marriage is stronger than ever and all is well.  My husband is getting more compliments than I do sometimes.  So even though he wasnt totally for it in the beginning.....he is truly reaping the benefits.  I love him for that!!!!

April 26, 2007

Well I am officially 6 months out and man has this been one heck of a ride. I am now down 118 lbs!!!!!  SAY WHATTTT, SAY HUHHHH???  Even I cant believe it.  I think about what has happened these last 6 months and it blows me away.  I feel so good I could scream.  Its funny because years ago I was "fatty" or "big girl" now people have the nerve (lol) to call me "slim" and skinny...I am like...who?  I know you not talking about me.  I am enjoying this tool.  I have been so blessed.  I wonder what I would be doing had I not had this surgery.  My life has gone through some huge transitions and I am so happy.  I like the way that I feel and I love the attention...yeah I said it!!!  I am getting all types of attention.  My energy levels are off the chart.  I have purchased a membership at the gym which is something I would never have done before.  I am looking forward to toning up.  I dont have a lot of loose skin but I wanna be toned.  Its funny because some of the people who had the surgery before me, I have passed them.  A lot of people have told me how encouraging I have been for them and how proud of me they are.  This one lady told me that she sees how it has helped me come out a lot more.  I was always very outgoing but now I dont feel so self conscious that people are laughing with me and not at me.  It feels good to look good.  I loved me before but I totally appreciate me now.  I am healthy and I am enjoying life.  My husband keeps cracking jokes that he thinks I need to eat a donut or something.   He loves the new me but I think he is a little nervous that I might get out of hand....nahhh not me!!!  


July 26, 2007

Okay I have been really bad at updating this profile and I will get better.  The last few months have been unbelievable.  My hubby was back and forth in the hospital and the one thing we were hoping wouldn't happen did happen but we are grateful to God because as of today he is totally healed.  I  am officially down 145lbs!!!   It's even hard for me to believe.  I feel so good.  I am in a size 18 which of course means I have very few clothes because I go through these huge transitions that even when the scale doesnt go down my measurments go down.  I remember before surgery I would look at some of the profiles and see how quickly people lost and their huge transformation and to think I look at me and can hardly believe its me.  I look at my pictures from just a few months ago and think...."Is that really me"?  Its been hard with my husband being sick I fell off for a minute but I got right back.  I had to remind myself that I did NOT come this far to turn around and gain it all back.  Plus I love to go shopping and the clothes I can go and pick up right from the rack is exactly what I always wanted to do.  I would love to get down to about 225lbs which for me would be great.  I am almost 6'2 so therefore I dont think I would look good at 175 lbs.  You know they would think I either was smoking that stuff or I had the "Monster" (lol)...you know its true.  I will see as I get closer to my goal what I look like and make my decision then.  Again I feel great and I am hopefully about to come off the last medication I am on.  Its amazing how I am so obsessed with the gym.  I get on the elliptical and I be doing it!!!  I don't get winded or do I give up.  My next goal is to jog.  I am building myself up for that.  
I did accomplish one major goal for myself.  For the first time ever...I wore a pair of 4 inch heels and I looked good.  I wore them to church and actually go to get my praise on with them.  I shocked even myself. 
I am so happy that I made this decision 9 months ago....If I had to do it over again I would do it in a heartbeat!!!!!

December 1, 2007

This has been one heck of a year.  Today is my 39th birthday and its one of the best birthdays that I have experienced in sooo long.  I am so happy with the new me.  I have been terrible about updating this profile and I do feel bad.  Well I am officially under 250 lbs which for me is huge when I started a year ago at 406 lbs.  Its funny because people look at me and think I weigh about 160 lbs which totally cracks me up.  I have reset my goal weight so many times until its not funny.  I am getting better with my exercising and my tool is still working as of lately I have not been hungry.  I have gotten really good at drinking.  I am now into more protein shakes, coffee (w/sugar free syrups) and SF juices.  I feel if that is what will keep me from eating then cool.  I did good during Thanksgiving and I know Christmas will be about the same.  My baby sister is getting married and I am so excited.  The dresses are sleeveless and with me being her Matron of Honor I know I will have to work myself into getting the dress to fit the ME of today.  I am not real comfortable with sleeveless but I would never have even considered it a year ago.  I am going back to school for my sociology degree and I have decided that I am going to minor in Nutrition because I there are so many people battling with weight and self esteem and coming from that I know God has some people out there that I need to help.  Its taking me to a place of uncomfortability because I have to discuss my issues with food, my compulsive behaviors with food and then getting a grasp of this obsession.  It has not been easy but others need to know that.  Marriage and motherhood are good.  Me and hubby are doing okay.  Its been a journey but anything worth having is worth working for and Praise God that we made it.    I am going to promise to do better with updating this profile.  But until then.....BE BLSSD in HIM!!!!  Luv ya all


March 18, 2008
Wowww, its been a long time since I have updated my page.  I almost don't know where to start.  The New Year started off really well.  I got through all the holidays with no major issues with my eating.  I worked out and did what I was supposed to do.  It wasnt until a month later that everything around me started to fall apart.  As I sit today I sit as a SINGLE woman/mother.  Yeah my husband told me that I had become the person he was not attracted to.  He always like plus size women and I really didnt have his full support going into having my surgery but that with some other issues just finally took toll.  He had become extremely jealous of friends that I have always had. (Never been big on women friends...always liked hanging with the fellas) and that was a problem for him.  I came home one day and he said he couldn't take it and he was leaving.  Well I did one better and I packed my things and decided I had had enough of the drama trying to prove my love.  It has been a rough couple weeks but I am getting through them.  I have a tremendous support system and some people that I never knew were in my corner have come through with flying colors!!!  I so appreciate them.  I am rebuilding my life to be happier and healthier in every way and regardless if I have a husband or not, I will be happy!!!!  
As far as my weight I am down to 220 lbs and in a good size 14!!!!!!  Boy I never thought I would see that.  My doctor told me that I was at a good weight because of my large bone structure and the fact that I am 6'2.  I am getting me a personal trainer because I want to make it happen this summer.  I am going to do the one thing I haven't done since I was about 8 yrs old and thats wear a swimsuit without a coverup.  I am feeling really good.  If I had to do it all over again...I wouldn't change a thing.  
Much luv to you