12.10.09

Dec 09, 2009

I just need to vent...I have only told a few people that I was planning on having weight loss surgery and the one's that I told was the one's I thought would be most supportive. The most important my mom, she says she is supportive but she never wants to talk about the surgery with me...I can remember when she was going to have the bypass I had her back I wanted her to have it cause as long as I remembered my mom was pretty but obese...Back in 2005 she took since and lost over a 100 lbs on her own. She is now smaller than me weight size and im not saying she thinks she is the shit. But her confidence has boosted up and I am not mad at her at all.... But it seems like everything she says about my weight is so negative. She made me so upset the other day i just left her home and cried...I was going thru some emotional things like us women all do. And I made a statement I have no life and my mother's response was the reason you have no life is all you do is glut food and sleep and like a sharp sword she killed my spirit. I am no disrespectful child because I was raised to respect and beside I know my mom, even though I am 34 she will still knock fire out my ass because thats the real Madea, but how could she perch her lips to even throw that low blow at me. I still have not said anything about how she made me feel that day because its so sensitive to me. I dont want to go off on her cause she is my mom now had that been someone else I might have gave them the pumpkin head...Its not like im not trying this is a step I am making I am putting my life at risk to try to improve my health and Im getting criticized If anybody knows those closest to me knows I have tried diet pills, diets, personal trainers etc...Im so irritated and really didnt have anyone to turn to but my oh family cause I know some of you have been there...What did you? And how did you handle the sitiuation?

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