pismogirl
I have been heavy all my life. Even as a child I was always a few inches taller than the other kids and larger boned. I should consider that a good thing but I developed unhealthy eating and exercise habits.
By the time I was in 7th grade I was 5'6 and 150lbs. I was teased for being large and fat. By the time I graduated high school I was 200lbs.
Although I was large I did everything my smaller girlfriends did. I've always ridden horses, water skiid, snow skiid.
When I met my husband and got married at 25 I weighed 240lbs. We had 2 beautful baby boys and I lost over 20lbs with both pregnancies. Pregnancy made me feel great for the first time.
I continued to pack on the pounds through my marriage and as my boys grew up but as in my younger days continued to do the things I loved even though it became more difficult. Having boys we are a dirtbiking family and yes me too. We would ride everywhere until I took a bad spill while riding with my younger son. That was the eye opener. A person my size probably shouldn't be riding a dirt bike but I didn't realize how large I'd become until I saw my relection in a window in town.
My husband and I have been married for 18 years and our boys are now 16 and 13 and I'm 300lbs. I don't feel like a 300lb person inside and what I see on the outside scares the hell out of me. I feel trapped in a fat suit that I can't get unzipped. Now I'm finally taking control because it's time to pull the zipper.
