PkSteph
Gathering history and an epithemy
Jan 15, 2012
I've been worrying myself into a fit this past week. My consultation with Dr. Kim was only last Wednesday and I've been running around all over the place trying to track down my doctor's notes. hahaNote to self: from this time on make sure to keep one doctor while living here! Sheesh
OMG For a 5-year history I think I'll need to find at least 7 doctors because I am not exactly sure what doctor I saw when.
I have a feeling the year 2009 has no dates. I thought I did, but, I the doctors I thought I might have seen say I didn't see them that year. Great... All I remember is being extremely irritated at myself for failing Weight Watchers after hanging on and fighting for SO very LONG. I didn't want to face my doctor at the time. Maybe I didn't? I DON'T have a clue. Ugh. Who expects to have to remember this stuff years later? I even went as far as to call UHC and ask them for a list of claims for a few years so I can have something other than memory to go by. The rep. said that would take two weeks. (I think I'll drive myself crazy before then!)
On a different and more sane note.... lol... I've had an epiphany. Reading websites like ObesityHelp and going to a seminar,a consultation and speaking with another lady at the office after it (she was giving me lots of "tips" in the parking lot) I am very aware that WLS is not a "magic weight loss solution". Yeah, I knew that already...It's a "tool".... BUT, then it came to me... I need to eat like I've already had the surgery done a long time ago (with modifications... normal size stomach). I've decided that no matter what happens with my insurance approval (I won't be able to get it without insurance) I WILL change my eating habits to reflect a more post-surgery type diet NOW... not a weight loss "diet" but the general term diet..
I quit sodas with caffeine in them two weeks ago (It'll take longer to quit all soda). I've started to write down everything I eat with a running calorie count total. I'm trying my best to get enough water, eat protein first, stop snacking and not to drink with meals. I'm reading as much as I can on how people KEEP weight off - whether by WLS or the 5% who diet their weight off.
There is A LOT of stuff to read and absorb. My biggest problem with WW was not the way of eating or tracking or whatever. Heck that became second nature after a year. A very LONG stall derailed me. I believe I hit a set point at 189 lbs.. Instead of getting pissed at myself I should have kept on going. I need to learn this as I believe this is the KEY for me to KEEP THE WEIGHT OFF no matter how I do it. I bet if I had kept on eating right I would have eventually RESET this set point. It might have taken a while, though. Surgery patients DO have stalls (I never really thought of that until I started reading forums). This will help me in the future.
