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I had my surgery on August 24th and did not get to come home until September 4th. I love my doctor but I was one of those if it can go wrong it did.  For starters my left lung collapses.  There was so much swelling it closed of the exit then there was this paralysis of the stomach going on and don't let me forget the 103 degree fever.  Had to have ng tube for a couple of days then it came out then had to have ng tube again. 

This was not what I had in mind and I don't remember reading someone having all this trouble.   But due to many prayers, I am home.  The only thing now is the constant nausea and after so much broth or drink I am vomiting again.

It was not as bad as I thought it would be.  Just out of habit I reached for a piece of garlic bread when I brought it out of the oven.  But I won that little test and drank my cup of chicken broth.  Not quite the same but okay.  Its all about making choices.

It is not all about me.  If it was, things might be simpler.  I look at my grandchildren and know that I am trying to right the wrong examples that I set for my children.  My son has been my example to know that a person can change the way they do and change the way live and can right the many wrongs in even the smallest of life's everyday choices. 
To maintain those changes comes a need to draw deeper into your faith.

I am starting my pre-op diet today for my gastric sleeve surgery scheduled for August 24th. I have spent months studying the different procedures trying to decide which one is best for me. Going to psychiatrists, nutritionists, support group meetings, all that I could do to make a very informed decision on something that would effect me the rest of my life.

Why? some have asked. Number One reason for me is to hopefully be able to pack away the bi-pap machine that keeps me tethered and leaves me feeling that I look like I am going to go deep-sea diving in my bed. Would be great to trade in my high blood pressure and cholesterol medicine in for vitamins only. I do not want to be Ralph Jr. (my dad). Would I like to trade my size 22-24 blouses in for size 8-10's again, absolutely, but that will be the icing on the cake.

My biggest fear is not overcoming my addiction to Pepsi - Dr. Pepper. I quit smoking 2.5 years ago surely I can overcome. Thank goodness sweets and chocolates are not part of my eating habits. I love yeast bread, you know that bread you get a Golden Corral and Santa Fe Steakhouse, that will be a part of my past.

 I panicked yesterday and cried. Kinda silly crying for things that are not good for you. It is after midnight my new way of eating has begun and I will be all the more healthier and happier as time goes by. I hope my friends and family will be able to put up with my perhaps sometimes off the wall behavior and attitude as I adjust to this new journey in my life.