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Not One Single Pound!!
Aug 31, 2007
Thursday. My weigh in day. . . I step on, listening for the big drum roll please! Don don don. Nothing. Not one pound from surgery! 3 weeks later and nothing! Totally bummed and feelin lower then low, I remind myself of swelling and body adjustments and blah blah blah. I go online to send out loves to others when the phone rings, SIL "Hi Skinny!! How you doin?" ARGH!! Brother calls "So How much weight have you lost already?!" AAAAAHHHHHH!!!! SO I jump online and send out a Ranting post about my lack of weight loss and the failure that I am, I spent thousands of dollars to lose 14 pounds!! It was lovely really, not.
Thank heavens for all the wonderful people here. The support poured in and all the reminders that they have been here and I am going to get through this and I am normal and its okay. . How lucky am I to have found this site. I will do this. I will not fail again. next week will be different. and if not, well I will turn to my friends again.
2 Weeks Out and I am Going to Live!!
Aug 23, 2007
My only problem now is energy, still lacking, but I think it might have something to do with my cycle which nicely came a week and 1/2 early. Another side effect of surgery they don't tell ya about. it screws up your cycle for about 3 to 6 months after!! once this passes I think I will be whole. It will be nice to feel as energetic as I need to be.
I don't regret the surgery and I am so excited about the idea of loosing even more weight. remember the Doc says to me, "obese women of your age tend to gain between 3 to 8 pounds during their cycle" I'll take the 8 please! I don't mind dropping another 8 pounds thank you very much!!
3 days out
Aug 10, 2007
I have read and scoured this site and I felt really prepared for everything but not that Gas nothing hurt like that before. You just think that there is no way this is gas, it hurts too much! Walking did help though. I still can't believe that.
We called the Doc the second day out and explained the pain, We're freaked and he was all Mr. Calm telling me to walk. I was thinkin, fine I'll walk and you can meet me in the Emergency tomorrow with an apology!" So I shuffeled around and as I did I would kinda twist and rotate my arms. any real movements to "move the gas" I looked like a freaky zombie, but you can't listen to kids. I would stand for a while after my walks and sure enough I would statr to pass gas. Even though I was burping the whole time, from recovery room on, I hadn't tooted that was the secret. I started to feel just a bit better with each sweet toot.
Today is much better then yesterday which means tomorrow will be even better! I am still sore, but its duable, I have pain meds that I take when I need to. I walk and I have gone up and down the stairs. I am glad I made it through. Even with all that I feel right now, with the pain so fresh, I have no regrets. This is the best thing I have ever done. I have lost 13 pounds on the pre-op diet which means I am offically lighter then I was 9 years ago. This life is a blessing and so was the surgery. Everyday is a new day for me. Thank you to my friends on here for all the support and love, it was greatly appreciated and needed.
Surgery tomorrow
Aug 07, 2007
I survived the 2 week liquid protein diet with a bit of plain tuna here or there. it seem to be the only way for me and I can honestly say i did my best. Today is clear liquid only, no protein and today is the day i feel the hungriest and the most tired. In fact i am leaning over in my chair right now its hard to hold myself up. I haven't posted on the boards in a few days. and I was quite the troll before. I guess I don't have enough mental energy to do it. I spent my whole life planning, worrying and doing for someone else this is the first time that I have completely focused on me. its weird. Not sure I like it. But it was needed to get here. Here I am, tomorrow is the surgery. I am less nervous today then I have ever been! Is it lack of brain energy? or relief? I don't know. I wnet to the boards, read but still couldn't post. I came here because I know I need to. I can do this. I will do this and my life will change, for the better. I can do this I will do this and my life will change for the better.
The support of the OH has been wonderful. I am grateful for it and my Band Buddy Cutie, who has been with me through this all. I think I will take a nap. maybe I need it.
another day another shake
Jul 31, 2007
I'm Whinning again.
Jul 28, 2007
The Best Pre-Op Ever!!
Jul 28, 2007
Today is a New Day! A New Me!!
Jul 21, 2007
Is it because of the surgery?
Jun 27, 2007
I have noticed lately that I am just not comfortable in my own skin anymore. I have always been comfortable with who I am and how I look basically, you know. I figured we all come in different shapes and sizes and I was just supposed to be big. Granted I have decided these last few years that this was too big for me, but still. I dress well and I do everything I can to look as good as a 300 pound woman can. But latley I find myself actually wanting to apologize for being so big. when people pass by me or make eye contact its like there is this voice in my head saying "This isn't me! I am making changes! Sorry I'm so fat but I'm working on it really!" "I don't think this is okay either!"
What is Wrong with me?!! I guess I should just be grateful I haven't actually said them out loud yet huh? Man if this is what the surgery does to your head pre-op whats next?
signed; tryin to keep my mouth shut!!
I got a Date!
Jun 16, 2007
I am so afraid of plastics after. This really is the reason I avoided doing the surgery two years ago. I just don't want to be cut up like a rag doll, I don't want to take all the healing time away from my family. I would need a full body lift and arms and butt and so on. Very scary. I am going to join a Gym and start toning now. My Hunny promises to love me no matter whats hangin, but I see some pics and i think "whoa thats alot to ask.". Maybe I wont have a really low goal? Maybe I will just be a big girl! Anything is better then 300 pounds. I just want to be under 2. I haven't had that since high school.