PreciousBBW
This is my story! Sad tho it maybe but it's ALL true.
I have always struggled with my weight, even as a child. When I started Junior High School I think I was about 170 lbs, bigger then most other kids in my class.
I was sexually active at a VERY young age, maybe becuz of the abuse I suffered as a child. I was molested at a young age, I think at age 3 or 4, I was still in my cribe I remember that. And becuz of that abuse I used food as a way to push down my feelings. Done it for my whole life. Went thru yrs of thereopy, still need it I think.
I fell in love for the first time at age 15 with a boy that was 13 at the time. We stayed together all thru Junior High and High School, he was my one true love. We did everything together, my parents even brought him along on a family trip to Florida. Becuz of my feelings for him I would do just about anything. I would even walk from my house to his every day and nite. The distance between our 2 houses was about a mile and a 1/2. Yeah, can u imagine? I was that in love with him.
Even in the winter time snow up to my knees, I would walk to his house and walk home, most of the time. Some times his mom would drive me home. His parents loved me, and my parents adored him.
I began losing weight this way, by time summer rolled around again I had lost about 30 pounds. I looked and felt wonderful. but to maintain this weight I had to starve my self. I ate every other day, and became addicted to drugs and drinking to do this as well. The boy I was sO in love with now began to feel the same way about me.
We are now 19 and 17, me being the older. I left home and moved in with him and his family, after being rapped by knife point. I was now about 119 pounds, frail, a druggy and almost homeless. His mom and dad took me in. They never asked for anything in return.
On Dec 21-82 My boyfriend, the boy I loved with all of my heart was killed in a terrible car accident! My whole world was gone, as I knew it. He was burried on Christmas Eve.
I never thought I would EVER get over that, but I did, and gained A LOT of weight in the process. With every heartaching moment I went thru, I would eat. I even gained weight eating apples. I guess if u eat enuff of them u can gain A LOT of weight.
I promised my self I'd never fall in love again. I was able to keep that promise even while married to my 1st husband. I feel bad but I never loved him. I gave him a son on July-22-92 the ONLY Love that ever came out of that marriage.
I divorced him in March of 03. Met a man on line in April -03. He came to visit me from Texas, me in Mi. We fell in love and here I am. Even now I'm gaining weight. Have a lot of health problems becuz of it as well.
I'm diabetic, high blood pressure, Coronary Artery Disease, and Angina. To name a few. I even have a brain tumor, yup, on top of EVERYTHING else. But, I'm still here. The Brain Tumor is like my Personality, without it I would not be the person I am today, good or bad. I first heard about this type of surgery when one of my 3 sister's was gonna have it done. She opted for the lapband. Altho this did not help her . She learned to eat thru the pain, vomit and all. Now she needs an operation to remove the 100 POUND tumor she has growing on her insides. They thik becuz of the surgery. Won't know until it's removed.
I called Medicaid here in Texas to see if lap band is covered here in Texas. The answer I got was "NO" ONLY if it's life threatening..now..I ask you what do they concider life threatening?? Yup, I asked that same question, they said depends on the DR..hum?? I have a Cardiologist and Primary Care Dr that both think I need this, isn't this enuff to get the surgery??? Any ways, I see my Primary Care Dr in the AM at 10:30 so we shall see then what she plans on doing. Will update then.
I did see my Primary Dr. She is VERY excited! She is trying so hard to get things approved by Medicaid. The hard part is finding a Surgeon Here in Texas that will perform the operation. An Up hill battle all the way..but thats ok, I know they will make us jump thru a million hoops before this is all done. It's just par for the course. All good things come to those that wait!
The reason I want this done are many, first for ME! I'm not ready to give up yet! I'm only 42 y/o. I have a 14 y/o son that needs me, I want to be there for ALL the important things in his life. Driving, Graduation, Falling in Love, getting Married, his kids. All the things that he will need me for. Not to mention the every day things. What kinda example am I setting for him??? I see him following in my foot steps, or should I say butt sitting. So this will hopefully be a life changing thing for ALL of us all the way round.
I first wanted the Lap Band, but now that I have done A LOT of research, I now think the best way to go is to have the Mini Gastric Bypass. If anyone reading this has any info or has had it done PLEASE contact me. I'd very much like to hear ur story!
