princess3375
11 months? really?
May 09, 2009
WOW , it's almost been a year already. I am not going to update my photos until next month , just to keep you coming back!! Today I am 167.7 only 17.7 pounds from my goal. I am struggling between finding where I am going to look the best and a stupid number on the scale. When I look at myself now I think I should stay where I am and not lose any more weight but the moment I get on the scale I deflate instantly because I am not 150. What is 150 except a number? Why is it so important to me??My husband and other family members are trying to convince me not to lose anymore weight as well. Honestly my husband would be happier if I gained some back. This surgery is a great tool but all of us must remember it is just that a physical tool. It is not in anyway going to fix any of the mental or emotional battles most of us have with food. For that we all need to seek help, to help us with our individual battles with food. This journey will continue the rest of our lives. There are many roads in front of us that will split in a million different directions most will in some way tie to food. Getting the tools now to be able to handle those situations with out stress, guilt, anxiety, happiness, or lust is where I am today. I don't think I will ever have a "normal" relationship with food but I am willing to put forth the work necessary to maintain a healthy life.
Chy has been to the the doctor more than I care to mention this month. We will find out on the 27th what her new treatment plan is going to be. So prayers are always welcomed and appreciated.
Peace and blessings until next month.-Char
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06/09/2008
Surgery Date
Feb 26, 2008
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