PRINCESSKL
It's been a long time!
Jul 28, 2007
July 29, 2007
I have not been on here in so long but I figured I would update. I am 10 months out and have lost 116lbs. I started at 274 lbs and now weigh 158. I am 3 pounds away from my goal of 155. I lost 100lbs by six months and the last 16 has come off pretty slow. It is amazing how far I have come and how much my life has changed since I had my surgery. I am still working on trying to get the inside to catch up with the changes outside. I am having a hard time seeing myself as others see me. I can't get used to people calling me thin or tiny. I really don't see it. I don't see myself as fat, but to me I don't feel thin. I also thought before I had the surgery that it would change my thinking, but it only changed me physically. I still struggle everyday with my "food demons" but Thank GOD I can't physically eat like I used to. I am really afraid because I can eat a little more now that I am going to gain the weight back. Failure is my biggest fear. I never want to look the way I did before. I also have a lot of excess skin. I would like to get plastic surgery but I can not afford it right now. Everyone says they can't see it, but they don't have to look at me with my clothes off. I am actually more self conscious of the skin than I was when I was obese. It is so funny when guys check me out now, I just laugh to myself because I think if they only knew what it looks like under the clothes you wouldn't be looking! But overall I am thrilled I got the surgery and wished I had done it years ago. I also have become the spokesmodel for Gastric Bypass at my job. I have had 3 women that I didn't even know come talk to me about Gastric Bypass. One lady already had it, and the other two want to get it. I don't mind talking to them about it. I am very open about the fact that I had the surgery and am willing to answer any questions about it. I am proud of my success and don't mind sharing it. Despite how scared I was before, I am so glad I got this surgery. It has truly changed my life! I will post an after photo soon.
I have not been on here in so long but I figured I would update. I am 10 months out and have lost 116lbs. I started at 274 lbs and now weigh 158. I am 3 pounds away from my goal of 155. I lost 100lbs by six months and the last 16 has come off pretty slow. It is amazing how far I have come and how much my life has changed since I had my surgery. I am still working on trying to get the inside to catch up with the changes outside. I am having a hard time seeing myself as others see me. I can't get used to people calling me thin or tiny. I really don't see it. I don't see myself as fat, but to me I don't feel thin. I also thought before I had the surgery that it would change my thinking, but it only changed me physically. I still struggle everyday with my "food demons" but Thank GOD I can't physically eat like I used to. I am really afraid because I can eat a little more now that I am going to gain the weight back. Failure is my biggest fear. I never want to look the way I did before. I also have a lot of excess skin. I would like to get plastic surgery but I can not afford it right now. Everyone says they can't see it, but they don't have to look at me with my clothes off. I am actually more self conscious of the skin than I was when I was obese. It is so funny when guys check me out now, I just laugh to myself because I think if they only knew what it looks like under the clothes you wouldn't be looking! But overall I am thrilled I got the surgery and wished I had done it years ago. I also have become the spokesmodel for Gastric Bypass at my job. I have had 3 women that I didn't even know come talk to me about Gastric Bypass. One lady already had it, and the other two want to get it. I don't mind talking to them about it. I am very open about the fact that I had the surgery and am willing to answer any questions about it. I am proud of my success and don't mind sharing it. Despite how scared I was before, I am so glad I got this surgery. It has truly changed my life! I will post an after photo soon.
