princesslaigh
Get on it already
Sep 27, 2009
So in 5 days it will be my one year anniversary!!! I've lost a total of 104lbs as of today, sitting at 212. I WAS down to 204. But being the self sabotaging individual I am I dealt with my recent bout with depression with ice cream and fast food. Ever since my roommate left about two months ago, I stopped working out, just kinda retreated into myself. NO MORE. So I've set my goals. Which is good, cause I'm pretty good with goals. My goals are: don't eat fast food for one month (have to break the addiction,) don't drink soda more than twice a week (that stuff's bad for you, even if it is diet!) and get below 200lbs by November 15th. The deal is, I want to hit my goal by January 1, 2010. I have a New Years resolution, to get to my goal weight of 185 by New Years and STAY there, maybe even get down to 175 by 2011. I'm 5'8", so that may still seem heavy, but I have a very wide bone structure and a very muscular frame. I want to ring in the new year in control of my eating and exercise. And I will do this.
I just wish I wasn't hungry all the time. It's hard when you eat and feel hungry ever hour and a half. I was SUPPOSED to not feel hungry anymore. That... did not work. I was hungry about 4 days after surgery. Real hunger, I don't even want to eat. I just get little hunger pains... it's so frustrating. That's one of the reasons I had the surgery. So I wouldn't have to deal with constant hunger. But I have to stick to 1200 calories a day. I have to. If I'm going to work out like a maniac I could splurge to 1350 or so, but I've got to be strict. Eat vegetables for snacks, stay away from refined sugars, low carb high protein. It's worked thus far and it will work again. I just have to tell myself it's ok to be happy about my body. It's ok to work to lose weight, I do deserve it. I've got to stop relying on things other than God for strength. I need to put my focus on my faith, my career/finances, keeping my house clean, being faithful with my depression medications, and treating my body like it deserves to be treated. That's my goal for the rest of 2009 and 2010. Wish me luck.
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I just wish I wasn't hungry all the time. It's hard when you eat and feel hungry ever hour and a half. I was SUPPOSED to not feel hungry anymore. That... did not work. I was hungry about 4 days after surgery. Real hunger, I don't even want to eat. I just get little hunger pains... it's so frustrating. That's one of the reasons I had the surgery. So I wouldn't have to deal with constant hunger. But I have to stick to 1200 calories a day. I have to. If I'm going to work out like a maniac I could splurge to 1350 or so, but I've got to be strict. Eat vegetables for snacks, stay away from refined sugars, low carb high protein. It's worked thus far and it will work again. I just have to tell myself it's ok to be happy about my body. It's ok to work to lose weight, I do deserve it. I've got to stop relying on things other than God for strength. I need to put my focus on my faith, my career/finances, keeping my house clean, being faithful with my depression medications, and treating my body like it deserves to be treated. That's my goal for the rest of 2009 and 2010. Wish me luck.
