Thank you for leaving me a post, so far your the only one but its nice to hear from someone who has an idea where I am at right now. So far I have done what I need to do to get by with the rest of my life but where I am at in my head can sometimes be a pretty dark place. I know there is light at the end of my tunnle, but knowing that doesn't make the walk any shorter make the dark any lighter at this point, I still have to travel the road to get there. Anyway, Thanks again, it does help to know that while I may feel a lot of things, alone doesn't have to be one of them. -Grizzlybearpaul