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background=" I am 30 years old. I am married to the most wonderful man ever.. and he has given me the most wonderful son. I have always been heavy growing up, but since I married I have just got heavier. I gained 67 pounds in my pregnacy and did not lose all of the weight. My heaviest is 267 (preg) and I am 249 now. Our son is 4 yrs old.. thought that by now I would have lost some more weight!?! Well, we thought about WLS for about 3 years now. After long talks and seeing a surgen, we went forward with the plan. As of now I am still waiting for a date.I cant wait to start my new life with my family. There is so many things that I miss doing with my husband!! And there is things that I have never been able to do with my son. Like riding rides at the fair, riding bikes together or even just sitting on the floor to play cars. These are the things that break my heart daily. I just want to move on now. I just want to smile again. I have been feeling so bad lately. Always tired, no energy,and vomitting everyday. It has gotten so bad that I am finding ways to stay in the bed room all the time. Not enough umph to get through the day. 04/30/2006 01/2007
7/8/05
I've got a date!!! July 26th. I can't wait.. we are very excitied!! My Pop Pop's birthday.
7/18/05
I go today for my pre op testing. I can't believe how fast the days are flying!! It is weird to be so happy and scare silly at the same time. One minute I am balling my eyes out and the next I am walking on clouds thinking about all of the things I want to do afterwards. Co workers just think that I am strange!! After today I have boot-Camp and final Dr. Visit....Than I am off to the races!!
7/19/05
I am APPROVED!!!! And we are off........
7/21/05
I went today for my "Boot Camp". It was neat. Lots of stuff to remember, I am glad that my husband came with me. We visited a room where one of the girls from my nutritionist classes was in. She looked great for haveing the surgery the afternoon before. Even Steve (my husband) thought that she looked good. They showed us the drains that we will have, the bed ( pretty cool!! ) and the chair that will be in our rooms. They explained a little bit about the proceedure and the days in the hospital.Strait from there I went to my Surgeons office for my last visit. He gave the green light to go on Tuesday. I lost 4 pounds! Didn't need to before surgery but I did some how. My Doctor was very pleased. For him if you gain prior to surgery he will not do it. He will postpone it till the extra weight comes off. So I am happy, just didn't want to spoil my chances at having the surgery as planned. Still excited, yet still very nervous. I just put my trust in God that things will work out for the best. What ever that may be. We never know what the plan is until it is to be. So Tuesday July 26, 2005...I am coming!!
7/23/05
Today Barb updated my profile!!! I love it. She really did a great job! Who don't love Eeyore?!
7/23/05
Tonight we went to dinner with Steve's ( my husband ) sister, her husband and their two daughters. So it was the seven of us. My pick. I choose the Olive Garden. We had a good time. It was nice to good out one last time prior to surgery with them. It will be awhile before I do that again! Than Steve and I went to Atlantic City to see Larry the Cable Guy at the Taj. We really had a nice time. We had good seats on the floor level. Loved it!!
7/25/05
I am going in the morning. Can't wait. I am really nervous though. Who wouldn't Right?
7/28/05
I am home!! I can't believe that I did it. I can't wait to be on the lossing side!! Things are going very well. Still in love with the pain meds, but only when I need them. Steve and Stephen have really helped me out. They have been there for me hand and foot. What would I do with out my Men? I love them with all my heart and soul. Plus Holly ( my mother inlaw ) is going to come to our house every night to help me change my dressing. She said that they look good. So far so good!!
7/30/05
Well today I am in a bit of pain. Nothing that I cant handle. We went for our first walk today. We went down the street to my Inlaws house. (About 2 blocks one way.)I did pretty well. Had to stop a couple of times but it was just to fix my pillow. When we got there we relaxed and visited for a while before coming home. It was fine by me. I felt good enough to walk back to. So 4 blocks down today. Holly is very happy with the way the incesions look. Very little draining now. Trying to get the water and jello in. Still can't handle the Isopure. So I need to find a way to get protein in.
8/4/05
Its been a few days since my last post. All has been well. Still trying to get the proper amount of water in. Doing my best. I have very little pain now. I am not taking any pain meds.
I saw Dr. O today. Down 11 lbs.!! Yah!!
I am going to try to work tomorrow. Since I work with my brother I should be well taken care of.
8/12/05
Well I only have been able to do half days at work. It gets to be to much. My Brother yells at me to go home when he sees that I am doing to much. I loves him! Things are going well here. Still working on the water, vitamen, and protein. I am getting sick over differant smells and tastes. I can't go into my pantre (sp), or the ice box with out holding my breath. No one else smells it just me. Called the Doctors office about it. They still say that it is normal.
8/22/05
I feel like a baby. I still have no energy. I can't do the simple things like opening a bag or standing for long. Steve has been wonderful and Stephen is my baby. They are too good to me. I get to see the doctor on the 25th. Hope that he tells me that all is well. I lasted longer at work today. I need the money for the family!!
8/27/05
We went to Great Adventure today. We saw Travis Tritt in concert. How great was that!! Steve pushed me around in a wheel chair the whole time. I can't believe that I can't walk this any more. Such a baby. I am so tired and I did nothing.
8/29/05
So the pain in my chest is so unbareable. Every sip I take. I can't eat that much. Two spoons of yogurt and I am done. Than the pain comes again. The only way to stop the pain in the chest is to vomit. However, 10 min. later that pain is back!! I don't know what to do. It makes it hard to work like this. Adam at work said that I never smile any more. This is not what I wanted. I hope that Stephen doesn't notice the lack of smiles.
9/2/05
I have been calling Doctor O's office everyday. God bless those women. They have been great. I have done everything that they told me too and I was not getting better.
On 8/30/05 it had gotten so bad that everyone at work looked at me funny. I had customers asking me if I was ok. I left a bit early and on the way home Doctor O called and asked me to go to the ER.
Came home to get Steve and off to the ER we went. After a bit of a wait we were able to see Dr. O. He wanted me to stay for a few days to get the needed fluids and rest. My potassium level was to low and I needed to hydrate. While I am there he suggested that I had a Gastro Dr. dilate my stomach opening. He believes that that is the cause of my vomitting. Too small of a opening will not allow the nessiary food and nutriants in to my stomach.
I stayed at the hospital from 8/30--9/2/05. I did get the opening dilatated a bit. I am so happy to be home!!
We went to the camp ground to meet up with Jody and to pick up Stephen. I ate my first " real food " tonight. I had some chicken and mash potatoes!! Wow it felt so good. And I did not get sick. I did not even get the chest pain! I did gain 16 lbs. from the IV fluids while in the hospital. I guess that my body was a bit thirsty!!
Today is the first day since the surgery that I feel Normal.
Its good to be back... plus 16 lbs. and all.
01/06/06
Well, its been a long time since my last message. A lot has happened. I have had a total of 3 hospital stays. I finally feel better. I have not been back in the hospital since October. I am amazed with the amount that I have lost. I am having trouble seeing it in the mirror though. I have been told that I am crazy. How can you not notice. I don't. I don't know why. I assume that it will change one day. Down to 157 as of this morning. Since I started at 244 and I am only 5 months out I'd say that it is pretty good. 87 pounds!! Way to go for me. I am able to do much more now. Things are looking up.
01/26/06
I went for my 6 month check up today. Everything went very well. I am down 94 lbs and looking good. Dr. O. was very happy with me. I am so happy. I feel good and I look good. My birthday is in two days. I have never felt so good. We are going out on the town. 31 here I come.
2/05/06
Well, Super Bowl is here. I love football. Its a shame that the Eagles couldn't get them selfs together this year. Next year we will be good to go! My Birthday was last week. I had such a good time. My husband took me out on the town. We got a Hotel room and stayed out all night. I finally liked what I saw in the mirror and I think that he did too. Looking good and feeling great!! I am 31 years old now and l look better than ever.
02/21/06
So today was a great day. I weighed myself first thing like always and the scale read143 lbs. I thought that was cool, till it dawned on me that I was now 101 lbs. down from surgery!! That made my day. I told every one about it, twice to some!! I can't believe it. I am so proud. I can't wait till I hit goal. 23 lbs. more and I will be "book perfect". But the best is how I feel. Wonderful. One word.
Plus I got my before and after pictures today put up. I have a face!
03/03/06
Look!! I received my Century Club Card!! I am now down 104 lbs. And once again I am stalled. But that is ok. I am not sure if I really want to lose much more. I was told to be around 120. The nutritionist said 130. Well, I am 140 now and feel great. I am in a medium shirt ( from a 3x ) and in 10 jeans kinda loose ( from 28 ). So how much more should I try for? Maybe just the 10 more lbs. Maybe that will make me a size 8 jean. I don't remember EVER being a size 8!! Nor a 10!! Its good to be me!!!
04/03/06
Well, its been a month. And I only lost 5 lbs. I am now down 109 total. Not that I am complaining. I am amazed that I lost that much. I feel good and looking good too. I am still fighting to get to those size 8 jeans!! Boy do I want it!!
I am getting excited about our Disney trip. We leave May 8th and I can hardly wait. It will be my first plane ride since I was a senior in High School. To many moons ago. It is going to be so much fun. Plus we will be there for our 10th anniversary. How cool is that. I haven't made him crazy yet. I'll have to work harder!
I am lookin forward to maybe 10 more pounds. If I work harder at it I might make it for the trip. I have laxed abit. So I will have to put my foot down and just do it. Well, till next time......
04/26/2006
So, today is my 9 month anniversary from the surgery. I am as of this morning, 133 lbs and BMI of 26.2. I am very excited!! I am just starting to lose again. Seem to stall alot. Disney is just 2 weeks away. Maybe I will hit my mini goal of 125. All the same I am proud of what I did. And the weight that came off is wonderful. Loving life.... h
I had never really had goal weight to hit. I wanted to get into a size 8 jean and a medium top.... I did it. I bought some jean shorts yesterday! 8's!! And they are not the stretchy ones! Normal jeans. This year I am wearing shorts. In public too!! I can't remember the last time I wore them. (Besides in my own home.)How cool is that?! And I am in a small tee shirt! I can't believe it. And the kicking bonus is that my BMI is normal. Never seen that. Never imagined it either! I am beyond happy. Feeling great to go with the new me.
So 1 week from tomorrow is Disney and I am so excited!! I just can't wait to see everything, ride everything and enjoy my family again. Till next time.......
05/20/2006
I can't even begin to tell you about Disney. I had a wonderful time. We enjoyed it all. I did the rides and the plan with out any problems. I wore shorts and a pair of capris! What a great time to celebrate our 10 anniversary and Mothers Day. I couldn't ask for a better gift. Ieven lost a pound while I was away. Must have been the walking.
And we got a puppy now too. He is so cute and sweet. He was born March 27, 06. So he is just 8 weeks on may 22, 06. We love him to pieces.
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7/05/2006
Its been not that long since my last post. But alot has happened. I am still in size 4 jeans. Some cuts not so comphy. I seem to be traveling in the wrong direction these last few weeks. Pound here and three there are finding their way back. 4 pounds all together. Not what I want just three weeks away from my one year mark. I am proud of what I did. And I am very excited about my small top / size 4 jeans.... just want to be that way for awhile. I still need to lose a few pounds according to the magic number the book states for my height. I was only 3 away. Now I am 7. I am under what the nutritionist wanted me to be. So that is good. I do need to be stricter with what I am eating. I seem to be snacking on pretzels and potato chips. No, no. I know. I will get on track again. Tomorrow is a new day and I will make it to my goal!! Everyone has to learn and I am no differant. I can do it and I will. Just need to remind myself from time to time why I did this. And he is so worth it!!
My son is doing well. He is enjoying summer vacation. We have gone camping and done a few things. It is kinda hard when we both work. He is looking foward to first grade.
Our new pup is very well....puppy. He likes the trash. And no matter how many times we say no, I guess he is hard of hearing. He is too cute. I will be sending in some pictures soon.
10/2/2006
I have been so bad. It has been way too long since my last entry. I am bad!! I feel great. Doing great. Working hard and trying to keep up with Stephen. My men are good. Stephen turned 6! And lost his first tooth all in the same week. He is playing street hockey again. Doing better this year. He is still learning the basics. Steve is working hard as always. We have been enjoying the new camper. When ever we can we have been in it.
I will report more later.