Punkin214
Avoidance!
Jan 05, 2009
Ok, truth be told i have been avoiding this site like the plague! I guess in my mind i thought it would magically disappear. My bff reminded me earlier that i hadn't been on and i'm still in fattie status, lol.
Last time i wrote i was determined to get off my big ass and do something and i did! I had starting going to the gym and i dramatically changed my diet. I even lost 9 pounds!
Lol, then came the hoildays. Hopefully i didn't gain my 9 lbs back. No worries though cause i'm back on track this week. Also, the last time i checked in i met someone. Hopefully this time it's the real thing. Now, i never had a problem having someone love my personality, but i was always skeptical about my appearance. This particular person looks at me everytime he sees me and tells me i'm beautiful. He actually tells me that i become more beautiful every time he sees me. I've seen pictures of a couple of his ex girlfriends and of course they're petite and small. So what, im not! He thinks i'm beautiful, extra curves and all! I'm starting to believe it myself.
But, don't think that just because he's lovin my curves that i still don't wanna loose a few cause i do, i need to! It's just amazing to me that someone is able to look past it. Dammit, i've made myself cry, lol. Well, i'll keep you updated on everything as it unfolds either way....
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Last time i wrote i was determined to get off my big ass and do something and i did! I had starting going to the gym and i dramatically changed my diet. I even lost 9 pounds!
Lol, then came the hoildays. Hopefully i didn't gain my 9 lbs back. No worries though cause i'm back on track this week. Also, the last time i checked in i met someone. Hopefully this time it's the real thing. Now, i never had a problem having someone love my personality, but i was always skeptical about my appearance. This particular person looks at me everytime he sees me and tells me i'm beautiful. He actually tells me that i become more beautiful every time he sees me. I've seen pictures of a couple of his ex girlfriends and of course they're petite and small. So what, im not! He thinks i'm beautiful, extra curves and all! I'm starting to believe it myself.
But, don't think that just because he's lovin my curves that i still don't wanna loose a few cause i do, i need to! It's just amazing to me that someone is able to look past it. Dammit, i've made myself cry, lol. Well, i'll keep you updated on everything as it unfolds either way....
Where Do I Begin?
Dec 08, 2008
ok, i never considered WLS before and was quite upset when my bff started talking about it. she'd been talking about the site for a while and i refused to even take a glance but i did the other day and came to some realizations about myself. although i don't have any health problems(knock on wood) i really need to do something about my weight.
my self esteem is shot to hell and it has been for most of my life. i'm one of those people who can't stand to look in the mirror everyday. i hate taking pictures and when i do they're from the neck up. it's easy to get complacent and comfortable when your weight is involved. just chock it up to it being genetic or pretty much becoming acceptable by today's standards.
losing the weight will not solve all my problems or even half, but i definitely think it's a stepping stone. sure there are men that like a little thickness or meat on the bones, but i don't wanna be the cute lil fat girl anymore. i just wanna be cute :) i don't wanna be the one they pick because "they like big girls" . i want my outside to coincide with what i should feel on the inside.
ok as far as WLS im still reading up on it. i think i can do this naturally, but as far as my bff goes.. im here for ya all the way!! GO FOR IT! by the way you made cry once again THANKS ALOT!
my self esteem is shot to hell and it has been for most of my life. i'm one of those people who can't stand to look in the mirror everyday. i hate taking pictures and when i do they're from the neck up. it's easy to get complacent and comfortable when your weight is involved. just chock it up to it being genetic or pretty much becoming acceptable by today's standards.
losing the weight will not solve all my problems or even half, but i definitely think it's a stepping stone. sure there are men that like a little thickness or meat on the bones, but i don't wanna be the cute lil fat girl anymore. i just wanna be cute :) i don't wanna be the one they pick because "they like big girls" . i want my outside to coincide with what i should feel on the inside.
ok as far as WLS im still reading up on it. i think i can do this naturally, but as far as my bff goes.. im here for ya all the way!! GO FOR IT! by the way you made cry once again THANKS ALOT!
