QUEENGEE
April 6 2006
Who is Queen Gee?
I am a 35 year old single (Holding out for Jamie Foxx or Terrence Howard) mother of a beautiful 10 year old child who I gained a ton of weight after having. I wasn't always heavy I was that girl who my best friend said had the body that other girls wanted (so slim to thick women beware it can happen to you too so don't go looking down ya nose at the big girls). Since gaining the weight I have been told that I have more confidence than most but it's hard to be confident when ya back and knees are aching not to mention the looks and comments of others who are like dang how did she let herself go like that. All of that combined with the knowledge that even though I don't have any major health issues at this time I can develop them due to family history starts to wear on a womans spirits so I started researching the surgery a couple of years ago and have learned a lot but was too afraid to go thru with it. In 2004 I decided to go ahead with it went thru all of my pre surgery testing and then chickened out but like any other addict has to hit rock bottom so did I so here I sit today at my wits end and ready to do something about this weight because I can't go on like this too much longer. Today is the beginning of the rest of my life I go for my first surgery seminar at 4pm today.
I am excited because I know I am truly ready and this time I have decided to include my best friends in and im glad because they are being very supportive and told me they are going to see me thru every step of the way which is great because I don't have the support of family members that live in NY to do so. (Oh and of course my lil mama who I can never leave out also says she will be TAE-BOing with me, Lovely child that she is.) Pray for me I need it every day.
6:30 PM
I just returned from my the mandatory seminar that Dr, Merola has all his patients attend it was most informative and the manner in which he treated his prospective patients was wonderful. I felt quite comfortable with him as a person as well as a professional and so did my size 6 wearing skinny supportive best friend who attended with me. (Quick Shoutout Thank You Tiy Tiy)
4/21/06
Today was my first official consult with Dr, Merola he is so nice and his staff really makes you feel comfortable they are all quite wonderful. We didnt have to wait long long he truly knows the meaning of appt. times which for me is important because my patience level with waiting is next to nil. As he entered the office he was very warm and friendly and was very happy with the fact that I was highly informed about this procedure and asked how I knew so much about it so you know I had to throw in the OH plug lol. He took my history and decided that I needed to see a pulmonolgist, nutrionist, and the psychiatrist. And he also checked me about my nasty cigarette habit which I am determined to quit (meanwhile plumes of smoke are twirling in the air as I type this. Pray for me cause I'm gonna need it on this one) So off I went to schedule appts. I managed to get a pulmonology appt. on the 25th and psych is on the 26th. (that was quick and effortless) Oh yeah I almost forgot to give another shout out to Tiy she is the best friend ever gotta love that gal she is the greatest besides the Queen Gee of Course.
4/25
I changed my PCP cause she is an evil witch and before I had to go there on her I figured we needed to part company but it works out for the better for me because my new PCP is off the hook he leaves no stone unturned and he is actually an associate of Dr. Merola as well as Dr. Sriraman the pulmonologist that im seeing today how lovely is that!!!!!!! Oh yeah and he slammed me about the cigarettes and told me to tell Dr. Sriraman to go easy on me cause I had, had enough abuse for one day lol
4:00 pm
Dr. Sriraman was great and I gave him Dr. Sure's message and we laughed another nice guy go figure because I have worked for some of the craziest physicians ever and they had me believing all doctors were crazy lol. Anyway I passed the PFT Newports, Asthma and all. Of course he gave me the patch abd a new nebulizer and meds but I must say this allergy season hasn't triggered me to need any of the meds thank goodness. I'm a very happy camper thus far I must say.
4/26
Today I saw Kristie the psych she was great when I entered I filled out the questionairre and she came and got me and we sat in her office and chatted for a few minutes and she pleasantly discovered that I was well informed about Obesity Surgery so the next 35 minutes I proceeded to get in her business now I know its supposed to be the other way around but hey she was overweight too and had achy knees due to an injury so I made a few recommendations and told her about OH and then we had a discussion about turbo Jam (has anyone saw the infomercial and tried this if so email me) but anyway she said she had it and she tried and loved it but she needs to motivate herself so she can be consisten this is where I plugged OH again so she said she would look into it and also refer her patients. She was truly genuine and nice and she told me if I needed anything I could always come back lol. (At 80 bucks an hour of course I can come back lol it's not like we peeps and she gon do it for free lol)
4/27
Just when ya think that everything is going smooth there is always a blackeye being thrown in the game.....Now I know its not a truly big deal but I refuse to pay a buck 25 for something I know I can get thru insurance and pay nada. The nutritionist that Dr. Merola recommended wants me to pay but I have had friends and relatives who have gone thru this procedure and paid nothing so I called my insurance company and I'm awaiting a list of nutritionists who take my insurance and once that process is completed i can schedule my surgery date. I plan on it being somewhere around the end of the first or second week of July mainly because I'm going to a wedding in June and I want to be able to eat drink and get my 2 step on for my last time as a big girl. So July is great and by the time November hits I have should have worked my tool to the fullest and feeling pain free and looking great so I can bring in the 36th birthday with a new attitude. I can't wait to be able to do the things that I used to and not feel like simple things like housework are such a major chore. Who knew being heavy was this much work. Pray for me I always need it and I will be praying for all of you. TTYL
5/22
I haven't updated in a minute so here it goes...I finally found a nutritionist who will accept my insurance yipppeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! so I will go see her on Wednesday 5/24 and that is then its on to my PCP who will give me clearance (he is just as excited as I am you would think he was the one having the surgery lol) I have a date scheduled but it's not official until after I see Dr. Merola for the final consult which should be within the next 2 weeks and if all goes according to plan I will be on the losing side on July 11th a simple 7 weeks from tomorrow so pray for me that things go according to plan because I'm ready to do this the weight is driving me crazy and my slow metabolism isnt helping. I'm tryna drop some pounds for my debut in memphis in 4 weeks but it just doesn't seem to be working out for me and that is not making me a happy camper so I guess I will go on the atkins until then so I can greet my public and not feel totally uncomfortable. In any event I'm soooooooooo excited about this surgery I feel like a door is being opened up and all I have to do is walk right through it in order to find the me that I need to be. People don't realize when they're not walking in your shoes that it's very hard being overweight and it seriously affects your quality of life. Enough rambling for today but I'll come back before I'm a loser trust me I won't leave ya hanging wondering about the next episode in the drama of the life of Queen Gee lol. TTYL
5/24/06
Ok so I go see the nutritionist today and thank goodness she wasn't my pcp and had to give me clearance because I got the idea that she was not too keen on anyone having gastric bypass surgery and I came to this conclusion based on the fact that she gave me her unwarranted opionion( The nerve of her) I really was only there to get her nutrition advice but what I got instead was her negative attitude towards the surgery. (She realllllllllllllllllllllllllllyyyy pissed me off but I woulndn't give her the satisfaction of knowing it.) In any event she said she would mail her evaluation to my surgeon that evening so no matter how she feels she still has a job to do and she better do it well. lol TTYL
6/2/06
Went to my final consult with the surgeon and It went very well Dr. Merola is quite wonderful and I feel quite blessed to have him as my surgeon he is truly a master in his field. What more can I say? Oh yeah one other thing I can say about him that I have never experienced is the fact that he told me if I had any questions or concerns to contact him no matter what it was and gave me his email address what doctor do you know who does that? anyway gotta roll out. TTYL
6/7/06
Well before I start off with the true foolishness going on in my life I have to give a few shoutouts to my BAF fam especially my girl Lovely V who has agreed to be my Angel she is soooo sweet and funny as hell, Lalani Blake (I will be joining you on that losers bench soon so I can rock my mini skirts and you can rock your Applebottoms at the same time), Seductive Caramel we gonna represent for the big girls til we drop it like its hot then we gonna represent for the slim goodies ya heard lol. If I didn't mention you then I'll hit ya next time but now on to the BS that affects me on the day to day....I have heard the cliche no struggle no progress many times in my life so with that being said I guess this is the part where I struggle because in the course of one week my life has flipped completely upside down. To start off I find out that for technical difficulty reasons (don't ask) I have to change my dang blang insurance carrier and the one I'm switching to may or may not make me have to do the 6 month supervised diet crap, I lost my job, and I am finding myself sinking slowly into very deep depression no matter how hard I try to fight it (I will SURVIVE). I'm trying not to let this get me down but it's hard because a sista has bills to pay and a child to feed and to look for a job now when I'm supposed to be having surgery in a coupla weeks is unrealistic furthermore in NYC that is virtually impossible anyway because the job situation here sucks. The only thing thats keeping me grounded at this point is my love for my daughter and my trip to memphis in 2 weeks where I will be spending time with my family for the first time in a very long time other than that I'm just simply existing waking up getting lil mama ready for school and staring at the 4 walls of my mind. I'm too mentally tired to even go on at this point so I'm gonna say be blessed and please pray for me cause I truly need it. TTYL
