ready2Bme
Here I am yet again. I have a lapband that has not been normal from the get go. So, now on Tuesday, I am being revised to RNY. I am all over the place emotionally with it. I will be great and excited on minute and terrified the next. This will be my fourth sugery related to weight lost and hopefully my last other than maybe some plastics (tummy tuck or something). I cried last night contemplating cancelling the surgery. My husband must think that I am losing it! He is trying so hard to be supportive. And I know that my last minute bouts of cold feet are making him a little crazy. I just need to know for certain that this time it will work and that this is the right decision. Yeah, I know, noone can tell me what is right for me....... I get it. I just feel like more of a failure than ever since the band did not work. Let me stress that I had lots of problems with the band without getting into the details. I cannot honestly tell anyone else that it isn't a good tool. I had a bad surgeon and bad experience. So, I feel that I don't have normal band experience to compare to. Anyway, I am sick of being so big. I just wish I wasn't so afraid of this.
If anyone reads this.......say a prayer for me on Tuesday.
I will post again as soon as can.
