REDKAT42025
Hi everyone
Apr 11, 2009
Hope everyone is doing well. My Dad died 9 days ago (has it been that long) been stressful handing out Mom and Dad's stuff and turning his house over to a friend he wants to live there until they die. Then it is to go to his grandson, my nephew, who is angry I am letting this person stay there..even tho everyone knows it is Dad's wishes. People were coming out of the woodwork, and relatives you thought you knew were trying to grab things,,,even tho they couldn't stand my Dad and never came around. Also, all this brought home my wonderful mother's death four years ago. It is very sad to see her stuff sorted thru and handed out. But most of that is past me, I wanted to eat but found I didn't have time to eat until very late at night and was getting very little water, and no meds. guess my mental exhaustion has more than one cause. Next week I have to go to court to be his administator, because we can't find the will. The lawyer alone is over $1000 and there are things (money) that I'm having to take care of now, so there is also a financial burden. IF this had been before the surgery, I would have eaten non stop for days, ran my blood sugar up and put on 30lb. So I guess I'm handling it better than I would have. when I decided after 5years I needed this surgery because my diabetes was out of control, I was taking huge amounts of insulin and meds, and I saw my mother die from kidney failure from it and my Dad lost his sight from it, I knew I had to do the RNY ...but I felt like such a failure that I just would not stop eating. I am past that now, I feel like it is blessing and a way GOD has stepped in to help this poor, imperfect child. I was already struggling due to the expenses of the ice storm in Feb...so I'm taking extra work to pay for Dad's expenses ..I'll be tired, but grateful in these economic times I can get extra work. I'm OK. Hope everyone else is doing well,
