I can't wait...

Sep 14, 2009

...to wear a belt that fits the way  a belt should fit. (8/28/08) Wore a belt last night, it didn't pop out in the back, it laid flat. And it was comfortable (01/11/09)

...until my shorts do not crawl up my thighs into my crotch! (8/29/08) went the whole summer without the creepy crawly shorts!

...to sit comfortably in an outdoor plastic lawn chair. (8/30/08) not only do I sit comfortably in even the small chairs, I can hug my knees while sitting in it

...to go to an amusement park and ride the rides without worrying about the belt fitting around me or not being able to fit (yes I once was forced to leave a ride because of my size).  (8/31/08) took my neice to a couple parks, and had to pull the slack on the seatbelt to make it tighter!

...to cross my legs (9/01/08) Been crossing 'em for a while now!

...to not hate every thin chick I see, before I've even met her. (9/02/08) Today I saw a cute thin girl and I DIDN'T think "skinny bitch" I DID think "cute top" (11/14/08)

...to ride a horse again. (9/03/08)

...until I buy my new bathing suit next summer (9/04/08) bought a few...cause they are so much cheaper when they are not a "plus size"

...until my jawline and neck are two seperate things, not just a big fatty mass! (9/05/08) yep...I have a neck and a jawline

...to shop in a store that has NO PLUS SIZES (9/06/08) Decided to go to the mall, wanted to see how high the sizes went in NY&Co. I thought probably 16, they had 18. Not 18W, regular 18. I was feeling optimistic and took them into the dressing room, they fit!! I bought 2 pairs. I got to the car and nearly cried tears of joy.  They are still a size 18, but they are size 18 regular and they were bought in a store with NO PLUS SIZES!

...until I don't have to pretend anymore (9/07/08)

...to buy new panties, not bog 'ole underpants! (9/08/08) Bought panties in "regular" size! (3/10/09)

...to go sledding and not worry about going back up the big hill (9/09/08)

...until my back stops hurting so much (9/10/08) I cut my Dad's hair tonight, which usually wrecks my back. I noticed toward the end of the cut that my back didn't hurt at all (01/11/09)

...to wear little skirts and summer dresses (9/11/08) wearing them all of the time now!

...to run (9/12/08) I'm doing it! working on a 5k, will post the date when I accomplish the full 5!!

...until I am not always so uncomfortable (9/13/08)

...to stop wishing and start doing (9/14/08) Ready! (10/29/08)

...to help other people going thru all of this (9/15/08) Doing it (12/10/08)

...to hug my knees (9/16/08) love it!

...to learn how to ice skate (9/17/08)

...to not be afraid to meet new people because I can't imagine that they are not disgusted by me (9/18/08)I am meeting new people all of the time now, and my first thought is not "were they looking at my fat ass?"

...to know what healthy feels like (9/19/08)

...to learn who I am when I stop being the "fat" one (9/20/08)

...to know what good health feels like (9/21/08)

...until my "fantasy jeans" (I've had them for nearly 10 years) are too big, I can not wrap my brain around that idea (9/22/08) yeah those were in the goodwill pile before summer even started!

...until my neice says that I won the bet (that I will be thin next summer, we bet the ride of our choice at six flags!) (9/23/08) she has said it a few times, and to add a little note...she loves to put her little arms all the way around my waist now when she gives me a big hug!

...until I do not feel like my skin is gonna split open from the force of my fat (9/24/08)

...until someone asks me "how much more are you going to loose?" in that "you lost enough" voice (9/25/08)

...to want to look in the mirror (9/26/08) I couldn't get enough of myself today! (01/05/09)

...until my BMI is in the normal range (9/27/08)

...to wake up feeling refreshed and eager to get moving instead of all sore and wanting to lay back down (9/28/08)

...until my mom moves past being worried about my expectations to being proud of my accomplishments (9/29/08) she has... she is so very proud of me

...to wear a pair of heels without my feet getting all numb because I just weigh too much to balanced on high heels (9/30/08) wore 'em last night for hours, I didn't even think of my feet! (01/11/09)

...to take a long, hot, comfortable, bubble bath (10/01/08) I have done this twice now, but I have to say that eben though I got lotsa room, I don't like taking a bath lol

...until my consult with doc c (10/02/08) accomplished 10/16/08!

...to be a positive healthy role model for my neices (10/03/08) they are learning from example how important it is to be active, eat good foods, and drink plenty of water

...to go to the outlet mall!!! (10/04/08) i am addicted, and I shop in EVERY store... GUESS, BEBE, ANN TAYLOR, BANANA REPUBLIC... it is totally awesome, it feels as great as I thought it would!

...until I don't feel guilty every time I eat something (10/05/08)

...until my pants and socks don't leave those dents on my skin (10/06/08)

...to find my sense of style based on what I like instead of what wil fit without making me look like an overstuffed sausage link (10/08/08) problem is....I seem to like just about everything!

*Just a note, posting to this everyday is now excessive, so I'm gonna post when I think of something and not think of something everyday.

...until my jewlery is loose (10/17/08) I got a new ring for Christmas in my "normal" size, too big! (1/2/09)

...to get approval from Univera (10/23/08) Got it! (10/25/08)

...to lose 50 pounds, this is not my goal, but I usually hit a wall around 35 or 40 pounds lost so loosing 50 will be my first weight loss goal. (10/24/08) Did it! I don't remeber the date, it's posted around here somewhere, but I did it!

...until the surgery is over and I am home (11/10/08) They sent me home, surgery is over and I am ready! (11/20/08)

...to lose 100 pounds (3/20/09) I am now working toward 150 pounds!

...to run a 5k charity race (3/20/09)

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