Ann R.
The Ups And The Downs And The Feelings That Go With It!
Sep 03, 2010
Wow! I can't believe how long it is since I have written anything to my blog. I do have some updates to post on here. First I was finally put in the yellow book back in May. I was so pleased with that.Well the call finally came to meet the surgeon. Linda from Guelph called me around the beginning of August with a date to meet Dr. Reed. So I will be meeting him on September 14th. It's hard to believe that is only 10 more sleeps away. Here I am counting down like a little kid. I have been so excited and so scared about this stage of the process. It means that my time is finally here.
But what if when I meet with him he tells me that I am not ready to have surgery. Or that he doesn't think that I am prepared enough for it. All these things scare me. If that happens I am going to feel like such a failure. What will my family think. I can hear it not. "Just something else that she failed at". What if I have the surgery and it doesn't work for me? What are the failure rates?
I know that I am not the only person to have these worries before surgery.
The saying "walk a mile in my shoes before you discriminate against me " has never been more true. Only people who have been where we are can understand the feelings that we go through each and everyday. I read an article today that was written in the Toronto Sun about weight loss surgery. It was so upsetting, but not near as upsetting as the rude and nasty comments that were posted in reply to it. In this day and age it's hard to fathom that people can still be so mean and cruel to people who suffer from weight issues. Reading it took me back to my childhood and the things that were said to me and about me behind my back when they thought that I couldn't hear them. I actually sat and cried while reading it.
Like everyone else I want to have to surgery to live longer and be healthy. I want to be there when my children come home and tell me that they have found the love of their lives and are getting married. Or when they phone and say "Mum we are going to have a baby". If I continued on the road that I was on, I know in my heart that I wouldn't be there for those things. That's not only unfair to me but also to them. They deserve to have their Mum around, and I deserve to be around for it all too!
I am sorry that this is long and goes all over the place, but this is really the only place that I can put these feelings down. I welcome any comments about what I have written.
Ann
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About Me
Dashwood, ON
Location
30.1
BMI
Surgery
12/18/2010
Surgery Date
Sep 24, 2009
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