RENEE BROOKS CARVER

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Hey Ya'll, sorry I have not posted on my profile, life has had me by the butt haha and still wont let go........I am living finally and enjoying what GOD intended for me to enjoy........I can finally get up and LIVE now instead of hanging out in my bed all day and night. I do apologize though for taking so long to come in and say hello to everyone. I feel great and as you all know, I have moved out of my house that I had been in 14 years. I moved to this wonderful little town called Milledgeville GA and IT ROCKS!!! Yeah.......I am still with my hunny, Lawrence and we are so happy together. I am still loosing pounds and inches and I still have yet to experience the "dumping syndrome", but hey no complaints here. I am about 30 pounds away from my goal wt now and my extra skin is hideous YUK but hey I know that I wont be able to get it off me unless I inherit some powerful $$ or maybe win the lotto, so I have told myself I can deal with it. I look ok with clothes on but hey when they come off EVERYTHING, and I mean everything goes to the floor hahahaha......wish I could just pick it up and get a rubber band and put it all in a pony tail somehow but that hasent happened yet......I really dont care if I ever get to have the extra skin chopped off, cos I am happy with or without it. One thing I did not know though, I did not know that ya loose all the boobs after surgery, Yep, mine are gone gone gone all I have is skin there now. I did make God a promise that I would not complain about the skin if he would let me have my surgery, so I need to shush about it all. I have to split now for a lil while but I will be back with more laughs okay?? Yall take care and say yer prayers now cos he is always in charge of everything.......love ya and smooches........RNEY

Ahh I cannot believe that I have forgot how to resize and animate an avatar, I tried and tried to get the pics (four of them) all the same size and to make them clear but nope not this time...I am sorry that yall cannot see me in the pics but I give up haha....if you know of anyone that can help me, PLEASE PM ME...I want to make my befores and afters animate like the rest of the gang on this site. Sorry for the bad image quality, in animation shop it is clear as a bell then when I upload it, this is what I get.....what a headache .....anyway see yall later....at least one can tell that I am about 325 down from where I was two years ago...yeah I guess that is what counts isn't it?? Love yall...Rney......

                 THANK  YOU  

           DR LARRY  HOBSON

           FOR  MY  SURGERY, 

          YOU  SAVED MY  LIFE

             GOD  BLESS  YOU

WOW WOW WOW, that is all I can say since the last time I posted. I have been enjoying my life and living it to the very fullest .....I am so sorry I have not been on to post any updates but SO MUCH has happened in my life that I dont know where to begin.....

Well, to start with, I have only about 60 more pounds to go to reach my goal wt. I feel so good everyday now. I found love again....I am continuing to loose wt everyday and life could not be better. I have not had any comps nor have I been sick due to the surgery.....I did have a stupid moment once and got myself dehydrated and had to go to hospital but all is well now. That was a lesson I had to learn.....and I did believe me.....I found that I cannot live on love alone....I have to get in my water intake or else. Since I was here before, I have been OUTSIDE and have been in the pool most everyday and GOD IS SO GOOD to me that he sent me my better half......YEP ......Im in love again......his name is Lawrence and we were together 28 years ago and five years before that too.....we were kids when we met then we got together when we were 19 and 21. It ended badly that year of 82 and I really thought all was lost for he and I to be together again but nope GOD DOES WORK in weird ways....he put us together again in April and we have been together since. We are closer now and that really terrifies me but at the same time I am happier now than I have been in my WHOLE life. I wake up now feeling like I am on top of the world and everyday is a new day for me. It has been just a year since my surgery and my total wt loss is lets see.....ummm ........316 pounds lost....yep thats right, I am almost home at my goal wt.....wowwowowow.....Sorry I dont get on the computer like I used to do but hey my life is SO FULL now that it is hard to even sit down and say hello to anyone...but you all know that I LOVE YA and i do still think about you. Someone asked me about my extra skin and yep I have TONS of it haha...but I dont complain cos I made GOD a promise that I would not complain once I lost my wt so I have learned to just deal with the extra fat that is on me. Yes it is ugly and it is painful but I am too glad to be alive and I can and do deal with it. I would have to say it probly is about 40 pounds or so but as long as my darlin dont care I wont worry about it. Yall please pray for me and know that I love ya.....See ya later......Renee all smiles now.......

Wow here it is April and I have to ask where oh where has the time gone? I am enjoying spring for the first time in YEARS and it feels so good to be able to get outside and feel the sunshine. This time last year I was homebound and in the house and did not have a clue I would be where I am at now. I was near death a year ago and I hope and pray that I never go back to that part of life again. I am so careful of what I eat and how much. I never want to eat anything that will be bad for me or that will make me dump. I have not experienced that feeling yet and I hope I never do. Ok, let me tell ya, I want to shout it out to you all and tell you that after YEARS of being locked in the house I have been able to do something that I have missed. Let me explain....Where I live, we have a CHERRY BLOSSOM FESTIVAL here and I love the pink trees and all the flowers and oh yeah the events with arts and crafts, I cannot list everything here on this board or Eric would have my head but anyway you get where I'm coming from, it has so much to do that it lasts 10 days to complete it all. Well, one of the events is the Bengal Tiger Show and I have always wanted to see it. I finally got my chance yesterday.....Those animals are truly beautiful and the photos that I will post dont even begin to tell how big they are. They are awesome so check them out in my pics okay? I enjoyed myself very much but learned that those cats are well....wild.... and they mark the territory alot and the people on the front lines got soaked, yep you guessed it, I was one of them haha.....but I got some good pics at least. The park where we were had lots of carnival rides and I wanted to ride them so badly but I was afraid too because I was afraid the my butt would not fit in the seat yet, so I have decided to wait till next year for that. I love all rides like at Six Flags and the faster they go the better it is for me haha.....I hope that this is just the icing on the cake of my new life. I love each and every day that GOD gives me and I enjoy telling you all about it. I never ever thought in a million years that I would feel as good as I do today.....What a wonderful feeling it is to be alive .......see ya ......

I have been waiting since September of last year to have a procedure done on my legs for my lympodema called "The Closure". I was approved for it and had it done on the left leg Wednesday and wow I was so surprised at how painless it was. I did not feel anything. I am having to wear ace bandages on my leg for two weeks till I can take it off. Basically what that procedure does is, it burns the troublesome vein that is keeping fluid in the pocket on my leg, it burns it shut. I did have a giant ball of sorts on my leg that protruded out and would swing when I would walk but now after just two days of wearing the bandages since having that vein burned shut, it is almost gone. The fluid in that leg has absorbed back into me and I have gotten rid of it by bathroom breaks. I still have the horrible hanging skin kind of like the skin on a hound dog haha.....but I told God if he would let me have my GBS and have a chance at a new life, I would not complain about the extra skin. It is hard to do, but I want to keep my word. I have an appt to have the right leg done in two weeks. The only "pain" about the whole set up is wearing the bandages and they are very hard to put on and keep on. I am so glad that I had this done and I am doing very well. I also had to have another tooth pulled Thursday too and I really did not want to do that but I had no choice because I was in severe pain with it. Now I have no front bottom teeth and only have 5 teeth left in my head that are mine. I do have uppers (dentures) and that helps but I do look a fright now when I talk or smile. Maybe one day my ship will come in and I will be able to have bottom dentures put in so I can really have a nice smile again. For now, I will just cover my mouth when I talk or smile because I dont want to gross anyone out. I had to use my rent money to have that tooth pulled because Medicare and Medicaid dont do dental on my plan. I was on the phone with them most of the day Wednesday and the person I spoke with was so cold and uncaring and kept telling me that their was nothing she or anyone could do. I was in tears over the pain I was having and she acted as if she really did not care to speak to me. I had called a "free" clinic here in Macon, begging for help and they told me that because I have Medicare and Medicaid, they would not help me, so you see I was one of the many, many cases that fell through the cracks. I really think that is horrible, to make a person hurt like that. Thank GOD I have an understanding landlord that I was able to take the money out of my rent cash and have that tooth took care of. Many souls out there cannot do that and many resort to taking it to the next level. I was about to do that myself because pain will do that to a person. I think the pain of a toothache is the worst pain on the planet. I know it is only a matter of time before the others give me a problem and yes, I will handle it the same way. It is a shame that the insurance companies will gladly pay 20,000 bucks for surgery and not 200 for tooth extraction. I am still eternally grateful for them paying for my surgery and I always will be but really someone needs to re think the rules of that company .......big time.....and they really need to do health care the right way instead of halfway. Sorry yall I am just venting now, but this is really a very touchy subject with me. I am feeling so good now. I did weigh that day on the 5th and I am now at 288, and so proud of the new me. I am so thankful that I had such a wonderful doctor and team. I am thankful that I was able to have the surgery when I did because I know that if I hadn't when I did, I would be six feet under now. I felt it then and I feel that now. I would still say that I would do it all over again a million times. One thing I am having a bad time with is my blood work. I cannot, for the life of me, get my PCP to get a vitamin count for me. She took blood and when I got the results, I was so aggravated, it was not at all what I asked for so I have no idea if my V-count is alright or not. What does it take to get someone to do tests correctly. She even had the gall to tell me that I was overdoing it on vitamins when she read my chart and saw the vitamins I had listed and those as you know keep me alive from day to day. I guess we will wait and see and I will play the game their way. Well, until next time, I will catch ya later......it has been great hope you have good health and get lots of love and laughter in your lives.......God Bless..........

Yeah I know Im up at odd hours haha. I dont sleep well anymore, I guess I am so excited about the next day that I can live as a normal person and it wakes me up. I am loving this new me. I am nearly 8 months out and still doing very well. I did find out that Bar B Que is a NO NO though haha......I did not dump but I got a lil queasy. I wont do that again that is for sure. I have started taking some "tan tablets". They are supposed to be the answer to getting a tan in a bottle. I have a good friend who took them years ago and she was golden brown after 6 months. I am gonna hope that I can at least get a lil tan cos I do blister out in the sun and it ruins my day totally. My family has told me that for both of my birthdays, they are gonna throw me a "coming out" party and it will be a pool party. What makes this one so special is that I will, for the first time in about 15 years, be able to get into my sisters above ground pool. Up until this point in my life I always had to sit on a chair and put the water hose on me and that is not fun at all. I am really looking forward to this thing cos so far we have nearly 100 folks that will be attending. I cannot wait, it will be the BEST birthday I have ever had. It has not been that long ago when I over did it in the sun and both of my eyes were swollen shut and oh I dont want to do that again. I am now at 298 on the scales and have not weighed this since about 1993. That is a total of 253 since my journey began. I am so happy with myself and yes the skin is ugly but I promised GOD that I would not complain if he would just let me live and have another chance at life. So far I have kept my promise. If I have a place that bugs me that I can see when I look in the mirror it would have to be the place under my chin where I used to have 5 chins at. That is a bad place to look at for me. I will deal with it though cos I am just glad to be healthy for once in my life. My arms are pretty bad too but I wear long sleeves most of the time. Even my feet have lost some sizes cos my tennis shoes look like the shoes minni mouse wears, you know way too big. I am gonna go in for that procedure on my leg next Wednesday so yall say a prayer for me okay? Well, I will see you next time. I dont really get on the computer that much anymore cos I am always into something around here. Talk to ya later.......

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Wow so much has happened lately that I know I wont have the time or space to tell all about it but I have not been chained to the computer as I have for the last 3 years. I am finally enjoying my life and waking up everyday with a smile and have no depression or bad feelings around me. I finally heard from my leg doc and as it stands now, I will have the closure procedure done in March to my left leg. If you watch that show Big Medicane, it had a man on their the week of February 6 that had the exact thing that I have on his legs, it is a ball of sorts that hangs down past the knee and it is HEAVY too. It is painful to walk and looks funny. It almost looks like a tumor and I have been told that it is only fluid that has gathered in that vein. The doc will insert a catherter in that vein and go up to my thigh with it and as he pulls the catherter out, it will burn that vein shut stopping the "dumping" of fluid in that pocket on my leg, thus, the fluid will absorb into me and all I will have then is the hanging skin. I will never be able to have my extra skin cut off and that goes along with getting my teeth done or getting eye glasses, but hey I am living again and I did tell God before surgery I would not complain about the little things if I could just live and breathe again so I dont dare complain about the looks of the new me. I love my new life and the last weigh in for me I was 306 so yep I am almost at the 200's. I still cannot believe how much I have lost and the total number for me is 245 pounds but of course, I have not weighed in about two weeks so I may very well be in the 299 or so rang now. I am still doing very well and it is so hard sometimes not to eat the wrong foods but I win that battle. I am still in church and loving my lessons and my church family with all my heart. I hope to get a house on that side soon so I wont have to travel so far to go to church cos sometimes I have to pick and choose what service I can attend too due to the fact that gas is so darn high and I live 25 miles away from my church. I have a Crown Vic and it is a huge gas hog haha. 5 bucks of gas wont even make it burp. so yeah I have to spend at least 15 or 20 to be able to cross the river to go out there each time. I am so happy now and hopefully I will have a pic for this month. My only regret is that I have had no transportation to go see my surgeon for a check up (my car is too old and wont make the trip) since August and I did not mean to stay away from his office as I have but at least my doc has been faxing over my blood work for me. See ya later....maybe more next time......

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