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I don't know where to start my story....
The smallest weight I ever remember being in my life was when I was age 12, I weighed 180lbs. My mother died when I was 14 , I never knew my father....and at age 15 I found someone to help me have a baby. ( I know, I know..but Im 33 now) Two months after I turned 16, I had my son, and I was 100lbs heavier. When I first got pregnant, I lost about 20lbs...and I stayed at 20 lbs lighter until about my 5th month, then started gaining. My son was born very late by emergency secerian. He was breech and my blood pressue was some crazy insane number like 280/110 and inducing labor was not an option. After he was born, I was down about 20lbs and weighed about 260. I quickly gained the 20lbs back and remained at 280lbs for approximately 10 years. Then it started happening...I started gaining and have been slowly gaining more and more ever since. My heaviest weight has been over 400lbs. I may be somewhere around 420 now...I know I am not less than 380. I need to start going to a place that has a scale that can actually get a correct weight on me...my current care provider does not have a scale large enough to get my true weight.
My health has declined, I have struggled to stay on top...I became unable to work full time, and then unreliable at part time too...I was a CNA and decided to go back to school for my Med Aide. I got that thinking it would help me continue to keep working...but the opposite happened. I now did the work of a CNA, CMA as well as had some of the nursing responsibilities like wound care and dressings (closed) and charting under my nurse. Threetimes more work than before..it was just more than I could take, but I was determined to keep trying. So I applied for and started going to MCC for all my pre-rec's into nursing. I did great the first (short-summer) semester. I passed my first remedial maths and got my required "b" in A&P for my extra points and everything.
The next semester did not go as well, I was at a down time and was having alot of difficulty making it to classes from the parkinglot. several of my classes that semester did not have a big persons desk or chair...and it was extremely painful to me to sit in the chairs there..and I just got fed up one day after sitting in the parking lot crying for an hour or so and I threw up my hands and quit. I gave up...I had nothing left...I was done fighting and I knew then..I had to have help.
I filed for disability and remained out of work and had many Dr's appointments over the course of two years when at last I was approved. Two very long long years it seemed. I just got my Medicare card in the mail and I am ready to get back to living!! With any luck, I will not only live through it and get back to living, but also hopefully live a life I have never had before, thinner and healthier and able to do things...
I know this might sound funny, but one of the first things I want to do when I lose weight is ride a rollercoaster...I have not been able to do that since I was a small child because of my weight...I am 32 years old and I want to ride a kitty ride..silly huh? There really are alot more things I would love to do as well...I can' hardly wait!! I hope this works...I hope I am able to have this done. I want the RNY.
I guess I did write a story huh...??
Thanks to everyone who reads it and to all those who have been working with me so far.
Linda
