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I HAVE BEEN OVERWEIGHT FOR MANY YEARS NOW(APPROX.17).. I FLUCTUATE BETWEEN 218-267 LBS THE LAST 5 YEARS. BUT CANT SEEM TO TAKE ANYMORE OFF OR KEEP OFF WHAT I DO LOSE..ITS A VICIOUS CYCLE AND SEEM TO GET NO WHERE WITH PCP WHEN I ASK TO HAVE THIS DONE.


1/10/05-WELL I HAD AN APPT. WITH MY PCP TODAY.(259 LBS.) AND GUESS WHAT!? SHE GAVE ME A REFERRAL TO DR. O'MALLY IN ROCHESTER,NY. OF COURSE I HAVE TO GO TO A SEMINAR FIRST AND THEN I GO FROM THERE.. MY APPT. FOR THE SEMINAR IS 6 MONTHES AWAY BUT ATLEAST I AM ON MY WAY TOWARDS A HEALTHIER ME..(JULY 28,2005)


5/16/05-I HAVE AN APPT. FOR NUTRITION ON 8/4/05 BUT MY APPT. WITH PSYCH. ISN'T UNTILL 11/1/05. I GUESS MY SURGERY WON'T BE UNTILL THE END OF 2005 OR BEGINNING OF 2006. I WAS HOPING TO HAVE BY THE END OF 2005 BUT I GUESS IF I HAVE BEEN OVERWEIGHT THIS LONG..I CAN WAITE A FEW MORE MONTHES-RIGHT??
7/05-WELL EVERYTHING WENT TO SHIT... MY INSURANCE DECIDED TO ADD A RIDER TO MY PLAN WITHOUT NOTIFYING ME.. THANK GOD DR. O'MALLEYS OFFICE IS ON THE BALL.. THEY CALLED TO TELL ME I COULDN'T GO TO THE SEMINAR UNTILL I FINISH MY INSURANCES DICIPLINED WEIGHTLOSS PROGRAM.. WELL THANK YOU FOR NOTHING PREFERRED CARE...DR. O'S OFFICE TOLD ME THAT THEY CHANGED IT BACK IN APRIL OR MAY AND WERE SUPPOSED TO LET ME KNOW BUT THE INSURANCE TOLD ME THEY DONT HAVE TO TELL ME. MY DR DOES.. SO LETS PASS THE BUCK AROUND RIGHT???ANYWAY I HAVE SCHEDULED TO GO TO THIS CLASS AND WE WILL SEE WHAT HAPPENS...
10/05- I WENT FOR MY FIRST CLASS BUT IT WAS WITH A PSYCHOLOGIST..SHE HAS SET ME UP FOR MY NEXT CLASS IN
11/05..
11/05- I WAS UNABLE TO GO TO THE CLASS IN NOVEMBER D/T MY MOM GETTING REALLY SICK AND HAD TO HAVE STINTS PUT IN HER HEART.(2 OF THEM)I GUESS I WILL SWITCH MY INSURANCES AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT.. SO ONTO A NEW YEAR WITH NEW HOPES AND DREAMS.. WISH ME LUCK..

1/17/06
well i switched insurance companies and am trying it all over again..so far i have my seminar appt.2/23/06,psych. appt.3/16/06,and nutrion appt. 2/28/06.now all i have to do is survive the waite and hope for the best..

1/24/06- TODAY IS MY SISTER CHRISIES 34TH BIRTHDAY!! WAAHOO!!! HAPPY B-DAY BIG SIS...

1/25/06
HOW DOES ANYONE SURVIVE THIS WAITING??? SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING NUTS WAITING. GOD I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF ANYONE READS THIS OR NOT. SO I FEEL LIKE I AM TALKING TO MYSELF. NOTHING HAPPENS TO EXCITING AROUND MY HOUSE LATELY. MY STEP DAD PASSED AWAY IN AUGUST, MY MOM HAD STINTS PUT IN HER HEART IN NOVEMBER AND LIFE IS JUST REALLY DOWN LATELY. I WAS HOPING THIS WOULD GO BY FAST SO I COULD START MY NEW LIFE SOONER INSTEAD OF LATER. I WANT TO BE ON THE "LOSING SIDE". I FEEL CRAPPY ABOUT MY BODY AND THE WAY I CAN'T DO THINGS WITH MY LITTLE BOY THAT I SHOULD BE ABLE TO DO. I GET TOO TIRED AND OUT OF BREATHE AND THEN I GET MAD AT MYSELF FOR BEING SO FAT AND THEN MY LITTLE BOY SUFFERS FROM IT.I REALLY WANT TO BE THE MOM I HAVE ALWAYS PLANNED ON BEING. I WANT TO PLAY GAMES WITH HIM AND RUN WITH HIM. I JUST FEEL THAT IT TOOK US 5 YEARS AND THE LOSS OF 5 BABIES TO HAVE HIM AND HE SHOULD BE ABLE TO HAVE ALL OF ME..NOT THE MOM SITTING BACK SAYING "YOU DO IT BABY CAUSE MOMMY IS TIRED!!"OR "I CAN'T RIGHT NOW, I HAVE TO CATCH MY BREATHE!!"I WANT TO BE HEALTHIER. I DON'T NECESSARILY NEED TO BE A MISS AMERICA....
I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO PLAY WITH MY BOY AND BE ME!!!!!!!!!WELL THAT'S ENOUGH VENTING FOR ONE NIGHT I HAVE TO GET TO BED AND SLEEP.I HAVE WORK IN THE MORNING..NIGHT TO YOU ALL..

2/9/06- WELL STUFF SEEMS TO NOT BE GETTING ANY BETTER RIGHT NOW..MY MOM IS HAVING A HARD TIME...SHE IS SO DEPRESSED WITH ALL THAT SHE HAS GONE THROUGH. AND I FEEL SO COMPLETELY USELESS TO HELP HER.. I AM THE KIND OF PERSON THAT ALWAYS HAS THE ANSWERS FOR HER OR IF I CAN'T ANSWER IT I WILL GET THE INFO FOR HER AND HELP HER THROUGH WHATEVER IT IS.. AND RIGHT NOW I FEEL LIKE MY MOM IS LOSING HERSELF..GOD I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF ANY ONE READS THIS THING.. I JUST FELT LIKE I NEEDED TO VENT SOMEWHERE AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS.. IF ANYONE HAS ANY IDEA OF HOW I CAN HELP HER......PPPPPLLLLEEEEAAASSSEEEEEEEEEEEE HELP ME.. MY MOM IS GENERALLY THE "STRONG ONE" IN OUR FAMILY AND NOW............PLEASE GOD HELP ME HELP MY MOM GET THROUGH THIS TRYING TIME.....

3/4/06-TODAY IS MY BEST FRIENDS BIRTHDAY!! SHE IS THE GREATEST...I DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT HER..I CAN TELL HER EVERYTHING AND SHE ME..WE EXERCISE TOGETHER AND SHE IS ONE OF MY GREATEST COMFORTS..AND COMPANIONS!! I LOVE YOU BARBIE!!!!!!! AND I LOVE HER HUSBAND RANDY TOO. HE IS ONE OF MY HUSBANDS BEST FRIENDS..HE IS A GOOD GUY!!!!(BJLD!!!)

3/12/06-today would have been my step fathers birthday and my mom is so down today that it is not funny.. well i have gone to my seminar and had my first nutrition appt. she wants to see me for 3 more visits though.. i guess, according to them i havent had enough dr suppervised weight loss attempts..i have appts for the following dates:
3/14/06- abdominal ultra sound(r/o gallstones etc.)
3/16/06- psychological eval.
3/29/06 nutrition 2nd appt.
5/1/06- nutrition 3rd appt.
6/5/06- nutrition 4th appt (hopefully the last one)
and then after that, hopefully will get my consult with dr omalley, my surgery date and approval from my insurance. this is a long road but i am willing to do it all for a healthier me!!!! will update more after my 3/14 and 3/16 appts..

3/14/06-WELL I HAD MY ABDOMINAL U/S AND EVERYTHING IS OK..I AM NOT SURE IF I AM HAPPY ABOUT THAT OR NOT.. I GUESS WHAT I MEAN IS...I WAS HOPING THEY COULD TAKE OUT MY GALL BLADDER WHEN THEY DO THE SURGERY SO I WOULDNT EVER HAVE TO HAVE IT DONE ANY OTHER TIME.. BUT I AM GLAD IT IS GOOD STILL.. SO I AM CONFUSED AND UNSURE HOW TO FEEL.. I KOW I DONT MAKE ANY SENCE..

3/16/06- TODAY IS MY SISTERS BIRTHDAY.. DUANN IS 35 YEARS OLD..WELL I HAD MY PSYCHOLOGICAL EVAL AND EVERYTHING WENT WELL. HE IS GIVING ME MY CLEARANCE. YEEEHAAA!!!! I WAS SO WORRIED ABOUT THIS EVAL AND IT ENDED UP BEING A BREEZE..COOL NOW ONTO ALL MY NUTRITION CLASSES AND THEN CONSULT WITH DR. O'MALLEY, INSURANCE APPROVAL AND THEN SURGERY... I HOPE!!

3/29/06- TODAY IS MY HUSBAND AND BROTHERS BIRTHDAY..MY HUSBAND ROBS I 42ND AND MY BROTHER GEORGES 37TH.. COOL HUH? I WENT TO MY 2ND NUTRITION CLASS TODAY AND SHE SAID IF I KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK WITH MY MENUS AND STUFF. SHE WILL LET ME OUT OF MY LAST CLASS AND GIVE HER APPROVAL..SO AS IT STANDS.. I HAVE MY LAST CLASS ON 5/1/06 AND THEN I WAITE FOR MY CONSULT WITH DR. O'MALLEY ETC.. AND GO FROM THERE.. I HOPE IT GOES REALLY FAST.. I REALLY WOULD LIKE OT HAVE THE SURGERY BY THE END OF MAY.. BUT WHO KNOWS!! THINGS SEEM TO HAPPEN WHENEVER THEY WANT TO WITH THIS SURGERY.. SO I WILL WAITE AS LONG AS I NEED TOO..AND HOPE FOR THE BEST..

3/31/06-TODAY IS MY NEPHEW JAKES 19TH BIRTHDAY, MY SISTER CAROLINES 38TH BIRTHDAY AND MY BROTHER ALBERTS 37TH BIRTHDAY.. WOW HUH? TOO MANY FAMILY BIRTHDAYS IN MARCH...I AM SO BROKE IT IS NOT FUNNY..

4/5/06- WELL TOMORROW IS MY MOTHERS 59TH BIRTHDAY.. I TOOK THE DAY OFF WORK TO SPEND IT WITH HER..ITS HER FIRST WITHOUT HAROLD..SO I KNOW IT WILL BE A ROUGH ONE FOR HER..SHE IS STARTING TO GET BETTER BUT WHO KNOWS IF WE WILL EVER HAVE OUR MOM BACK LIKE SHE USE TO BE.. I THINK THOSE DAYS ARE OVER..BUT I WILL TAKE HER ANYWAY I CAN HAVE HER.. I LOVE MY MOM MORE THAN WORDS COULD EVER SAY...SHE IS THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4/6/06-HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!!!! YOU ARE THE BEST..ALL 95#'S OF YOU!!!!

5/18/06-YYYYEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I RECEIVED MY PHONE CALL FROM DR.O'MALLEYS OFFICE TONIGHT...MY CONSULT IS FOR 6/1/06 AT 10:15 AM..WHICH ALSO HAPPENS TO BE MY 10TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!!!! I AM SO EXCITED..THE OFFICE SAID THAT SURGERY USUALLY FOLLOWS BETWEEN 2-4 WEEKS AFTER THE CONSULT AND THAT I WILL HAVE MY SURGERY DATE WHEN I LEAVE THE APPOINTMENT...YYYYYAAYYYY!
NOW I FEEL LIKE I AM GETTING SOMEWHERE.. AND I HAVE LOST 9 POUNDS SO FAR...I WILL POST MORE AFTER THE APPOINTMENT...BYE FOR NOW!!!!:D

6/1/06 HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ME!!!!! I HAVE A DATE!!!! 6/14/06...(TENTATIVE) THAT'S IN 2 WEEKS..WORK IS NOT HAPPY WITH ME BUT FOR AS MUCH CRAP I DO AND PUT UP WITH THERE...I DON'T CARE!!!! IT IS MY TIME AND THEY HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT...OR NOT!!! I MET WITH DR O'MALLEY AND HIS SCHEDULER DAWN..THEY ARE BOTH VERY INFORMATIVE AND NICE..I HAVE TO CALL MONDAY OR TUESDAY TO SET UP MY PREOP TESTING AND THEY WILL CALL ME AS SOON AS THEY HAVE MY APPROVAL FROM INSURANCE..(OR DENIAL BUT I AM TRYING TO BE POSITIVE)
I AM SO HAPPY AND SO SCARED RIGHT NOW THAT IT IS NOT FUNNY..AND I KNOW IT IS NORMAL..BUT IT DOESN'T STOP THE WAY I FEEL..WWAAAHHHHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!AS LONG AS EVERYTHING FALLS INTO PLACE I WILL BE OK...DAWN SAID THERE SHOULD BE NO PROBLEM WITH MY INSURANCE AS THEY HAVE ALL THE INFO THEY NEED AND ALL THE PAPER WORK IS IN...BE HAPPY FOR ME.. I WILL BE ON THE LOSING SIDE SOON ENOUGH!!!!

6/5/06- WELL TODAY I SETUP MY PREOP TESTING FOR THURSDAY-6/8 @1:45PM AND CALLED MY INSURANCE TO MAKE SURE I DIDNT NEED TO DO ANYTHING ELSE AND THEY SAID THEY HAVEN'T RECEIVED ANYTHING YET BUT THAT IT TAKES UP TO 30 DAYS FOR THEM TO RESPOND..I WAS LIKE "OH MY GOD" MY SURGERY IS SUPPOSED TO BE NEXT WEEK..I AM MORE NERVOUS NOW THAN I WAS BEFORE..WILL THEY GET THE APPROVAL BEFORE THEN OR WILL I HAVE TO HAVE MY DATE CHANGED FOR NEXT MONTH? OH I HOPE NOT!!!!I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE WAITING I CAN TAKE..OF COURSE NOW I AM A WRECK!!!!WHAT THE CRAP!!!!!!I KNOW IT WILL HAPPEN BUT I WANT IT DONE ON THE14TH..
ARRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!LIFE REALLY SUCKS SOMETIMES!!!

6/7/06- I GOT THE RUN AROUND THIS AM WITH THE DR OFFICE AND THEN INSURANCE TOLD ME THEY HADN'T EVEN RECEIVED THE PAPERS YET AND THAT THEY COULD TAKE UP TO A FEW MONTHES TO APPROVE IF THEY WANTED TOO.. THAT WAS AT 9:00AM AND AT 12:30PM DR O'MALLEYS OFFICE CALLED AND DAWN TOLD ME I WAS APPROVED.. EVERYTHING WENT THROUGH JUST FINE AND THAT MY DATE WAS DEFINATELY ON THE 14TH... I HAD MY PREOP TESTS DONE ON THE 8TH AND NOW I AM JUST WAITING OUT MY LAST FIVE DAYS... TODAY IS FRIDAY THE 9TH...I AM SO EXCITED AND SCARED ALL IN ONE..BUT FINALLY IT WILL BE ME ON THE LOSSING SIDE..YYYEEEEEEHHHHHAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!:-D

6/12/06-I RECEIVED MY OFFICAL LETTER IN THE MAIL TODAY FROM MY INSURANCE COMPANY...I AM SO HAPPY AND READY FOR THIS..I KNOW I WILL DO GREAT....AND I CAN ALREADY FEEL THE POUNDS MELTING OFF...( HAHA ) 2 DAYS TO GO!!!!!!!!!!I AM NERVOUS AND EXCITED ALL AT ONCE... TOMORROW I START MY LIQUID DIET..AND I HAVE TO WORK 8 1/2 HOURS..SO I AM PACKING A YUMMY AND SCRUMPTOUS LUNCH..IT CONSISTS OF JELLO, JELLO..OH DID I SAY JELLO!!!HAHA PLUS I AM HAVING CHICKEN BROTH,WATER, AND FAT FREE-SUGAR FREE FLAVORED WATER. CAN YOU SAY YUM YUM!BUT I CAN DEAL WITH IT.IT'S ALL ABOUT TO GET BETTER SOON!!AND I AM WILLING TO DO THIS TO GET HEALTH AND LOSE WEIGHT!!WILL POST MORE ASAP.BYE FOR NOW!!

6/13/06-WELL TOMORROW IS THE DAY..I HAVE TO BE THERE BY 7:45AM AND SURGERY IS SUPPOSED TO BE AROUND 9AM.. I AM SO HAPPY AND NERVOUS AT THE SAME TIME..ON A SADDER NOTE-I JUST FOUND OUT MY BEST FRIENDS HUSBAND HAS LYMPHOMA. A FORM OF CANCER..I AM BESIDE MYSELF THINKING OF HIM..THEY ARENT SURE WHAT KIND YET BUT HE SOUNDS SO OPTIMISTIC ABOUT IT..YOU HAVE TO BE I GUESS...HE IS MY HUSBANDS FRIEND AND I AM HIS WIVES FRIEND..KINDA WEIRD HUH??I AM PRAYING FOR HIM AND WISH TO HAVE EVERYONE ELSE TO KEEP HIM IN THEIR PRAYERS TOO PLEASE...

6/18/06 came home yesterday...glad to be home.. I ended up being in the hospital from Wednesday through Sunday..My blood count went down to 22 and I bled during surgery..But instead of bleeding out I bled into my intestine..Which the drs didn't see..So by Thursday I was on the toilet all day crapping old blood..Ended up with 2 pints of blood(transfsuion)on Friday and had to stay untill my levels leveled off..When I came home yesterday it had evened out to 28..I am a little lightheaded every once in a awhile but other than that I am just trying to get in all my liquids and pudding..Which is easier said than done..I get really full feelings when I drink water but have no problems with popcycles..I ended up with 17 staples all spaced out to 5 different sites..(3,3,3,4,4)am absolutely exstatic about being home..Missed my son,husband and furbabies not to mention the rest of my family..My husband was so scared yesterday that he watched me like a hawk...So far I have dropped 10 lbs since surgery..I am not going to obsess with the scale but was curious on the weightloss so far due to the blood
loss..Am very tired and have a numbing sensation on on part of my stomach..Is that normal?? Havent had the chance to ask surgeon yet but will wed at my post op appt..Ttyl gen