rueish77
Pre-op
Highest weight 292
5'4
1200 cal. pre op diet
was 292 now 174.8
Post Op
8/15 278
09/06 254
11/09 229
03/13 205
04/09 197.1
05/14 193.6
11/04 174.8
Ok so I am not very good at this, I am not sure how to start...so I might just ramble and see what comes out.
Well WLS was suggested to me about 3 years ago, from my edrocrongist, I was seeing him for PCO, and he was treatig my obesity as well, at the time i was completely against surgery as an option, I thought i could do it on my own, and i did well for about a year i lost about 30 lbs, and felt great, i felt great at 220lbs, but then the scale started climbing and hasn't stopped since, I am now up, 70lbs, and couldn't feel worse. I feel tired, i don't like the way i look, I wonder how this happened? haha, how? For the past year now i have gone through my ups and downs about how i felt about WLS, I put it on the fence for a while too. And now i am ready, I am ready, but geez do i wish this process didn't make me so nuts, I am really worried about the insurance part of it now.
I will write more later... I don't know how to just keep writing.. Thanks all
XOXO
RO
April 20th
Monday i went to my first meeting, I found it to be very informative and everyone was so nice. I also met with the nutristionist, I am on a 1200cal. a day diet, which i am findng very hard to follow, but i am doing it, and i am exercising, i like being active, it just sucks that my freaking bones ache when i do it!
well I will keep you posted.
May 3rd in the am
today was my 2nd group meeting. I am down 6lbs i was hoping for more. I get kinda scared sometimes like I am goin to chicken out, and I feel like this whole process is taking so long and it really isn't! I bought a new bike today with my return check from my taxes i use the whole thing too! Ok i really didn't get that my back so it wasn't like a whole lot, but i was excited...! So i have the appt with the surgeon on Friday god am i nervous and sorta know what to expect, i have been reasearching forever, but nerves i guess.
so we will see.
05/10/05
So i have met with the surgeon, pulmonolgist, and pysch, now I don't knwo what happens, i have to be on a 3 month supervised diet 1200cal, with the nutristionist, it may be 6 months for atena, my surgeons office is goin to review my past diet history, which was documented with my endro, and see if that is good enough documentation for insurance, I am thinking it is not,... i was going to him on a regular month to month basis for about 4 months then, it went to 3 months, then i gained and didn't go back for 6 months, and so it went. And here i am!
Today i am having a really low day, I tried goin for a long bike ride and it seems like my mind and body aren't working together, i mean 2 weeks ago i went out for 2 hours today i couldn't go more then 15 min and i came back home, i was so mad and then to top it off i am not so good with gears, and my chain popped off and i had to walk the rest of the way.
I m also having trouble with the 1200cal diet, i am scared to venture and try new things and the brochure i got only has ! day of sample food so i try to sick to stuff on that, and i eating mostly salads for dinner with some grilled chicken, but i am craving other stuff, i am about to get my period and i think that is why, i have lost 6lbs, but i know how my period usally makes me and it will be so easy to gain it if i go off and eat like i want too, but i am tryin so hard.
I know that i always try very hard when it comes to dieting but then i notice when the weight stops, and i slowly go back to my old habits... and it realy sucks.
I need to figure out what i am doing now, that will make me successful with WLS.
I feel like i have been waiting so long! SO long... my whole life long. i know i don't make any sense, haha all over the place...
So how in the world do i make my profile cute?
i think this is enough for today... I am drained
hugs---
05/16/05
Well I went to another meeting tonight and met with the nutrustionist, i lost 9lbs total, and let me tell you its been one rocky road! I have all these feelings, like how am i going to keep this off, how am i goin to lose more, dieting has never been my thing, thus why i have decided to have WLS!
I brought a friend of mine to the meeting and mind you she is really thin, and i felt awful b/c people kept asking her if she had the surgery. Tonights meeting they had a therapsit there and everyone sat in a circle and talked about their issues after WLS, it was interesting to say the least. I was amazed, and it was really good for me to listen.
The one thing i noticed was how everyone is at a different stage, i am still waiting... and it feels like forever, others have a whole new set of issues they are dealing with.
I am not goin into this surgery with too many expectations, i just want to take one day at a time, but the wait feels like forever.
June 9th
Wow its has been a while since my last update, i haven't been able to get on the system for some reason. Not too much has changed however, since my last update as far as surgery goes anyway, i am still pre-op and still don't know anymore then i knew before, i am kinda just sitting in Limbo~ cha cha cha! I have done all my pre-op testing, shrink, pulminolgist, gallblader, hmm can't remember what else. all good so far.
My surgeons office right now is waiting, for my endro to send over my diet history information. I am hoping it is enough for them to submit to insurance, but i am not sure, i was seeing my endro reg. for weigh-ins but I think it was only for the first 4 months and then after then it went to 3 months to 6 months.
When i started seeing my Endro 3 years ago, I was 250, i lost 30 on adipex and then well after a year i slowly gained it back... 3 years later, I was up to 292 highest weight recorded.
I am on a 1200 cal diet under supervision of a nutristionist and surgeon, i have lost i think 13lbs, Last weigh in i was 278, boy it has been hard. I think a lot of days i might go over that. BUt i am trying so hard I am so conscience of everything i put in my mouth.
I was sick last week and went to my Primary, I had a sinus infection, while i was there a nurse said oh we dont' have any labs for you in the past 3 years, I told her that i had blood work done with my endro about 2 months ago, so she says she goin to have them sent to her, i was like ok, well monday morning i get a call from my primary's nurse who was like, "You need to come in and discus your labs, I was like why? i discussed them with my endro. she was like well did he put you on anythign? i was like no.... she was like well your cholestoral is elevated and Your doctor wants to put you on meds, i was like oh? She was like well you had these sent here, and we need to dicuss them, i was like NOOOO YOU HAD THEM SENT THERE! Well he is your primary and you need to come in. I was like oh well, ok, I will call back and make an appt.
SO at this point i was so mad! SO i called my endro and they looked them over again and apparently my cholestorol is elavated but not to the point where i should be on meds> or it was nothing to be concerned about is what they said. So i don't know what to do. I just really thought the nurse and doctors office was really over stepping thier bounds, thats just me though.
My Best friend is getting married in september, and I am her Maid of HOnor, she isn't having bridemaids or anything, but just a witness, which is me! I totally support my friend and i know this is her day, but i am sooo going crazy about having to be in the shadows of her, like in the spotlight indirectly. I will have to be in pictures and pretend to be confindent. BUt all i am doing is trying to just pretend that i am excited that she asked me! woo hoo, i wish i could be more excited, on the surface you would never know, but inside I wish it wasn't me!
She isn't picking a dress for me, but, she gave me one request, to wear some form of ORANGE! so i can match her theme colors which are Burnt orange and peach! Well, I have been so stressed about this b/c all i keep thinking is I am goin to look like a table cloth or A BIG A** PUMPKIN! Great.
So I went to look for a dress this past week, and I found one that i thought was nice, it was mango, and very simple and not puffy or with heavy material A-line which i thought would be flattering. so anyway, the lady takes my measurements and tries to match them up to the designers measurements. well it wasn't working apparently so she calls some other women over. The other women seems to find my waist, or what they think is my waist, they get some measurements and can't match them to the designers specifications, the dress is seperates so it has a top and bottom.... the highest size it goes up to is a 28, so i think oh well i won't have a problem, right now i am wearing anything from a 22 top to 24/26 bottom. well you would think i could order the 28 and it would fit but noooooo.
So the women, says OHHHH wait, someone just backed out of a wedding try on this size 30, so i look at the dress she wants me to try on and first off, it is puffy puke green, with sequence... heavy material, and looks nothing like they dress i wanted to get, so I try it on and it barely fits me, so i come out of the dressing room, and mind you there are other people aroung shopping... and they are sitting there going, we usally don't have this size in the store... Its nice you get to try it on.... and then they are like well this is an idea of what you will look like, I am looking at them like are you kidding? ARE YOU? like i writing so its hard for me to express thier tone when they are talking to me, but it wasn't nice, and i was embarassed! all these people are there trying to ignore what is going on, and i just like standing there like ok? what? what?
Then the lady goes well we will just order you, 6 yards of material, and make it work for you. I was just like get me out of here! get me out! I left there so freaking mad and depressed I just wanted to die.
June 15 2005
So I have been having problems with my endocrinologist, office sending info to my surgeons office, yesterday the receptionist got really short with me and tells me, OH I DON”T KNOW why you are doing this, Atena doesn’t cover that procedure, you should have gone when he suggested it 2 years ago, like getting really mad at me, I was so upset finally she agreed to send all my records there and hung up.
My surgeons office called today and said
That she did in fact get them, but she felt we should wait to submit to insurance, until I am done the 3 month interdisciplinary program in July. Which is fine.
satuday I went to a bridal shower and a women there from my area had surgery, lap gastric bypass, my surgeon suggested i get open, well the women was like, can i make a suggestion to you, don't go to him. I was like why? she was like just don't, she never gave me a real reason other then he does it open and her friend had her surgery done with him and i suppose she wasn't pleased? I don't know, now i feel all crazy, like why shouldn't i go to him? why should i go to hers?
ahhhh
i dunno
7/27
Aprroved first try feeling a bit crazy.
8/29
Had my sugery 8/15 everything went fine. tube come out on thrusday I can't wait, its really annoying me.
8/30
No BM in 2 weeks i am losing it
09/06
So I thought i would be feeling totally better by now, but i am not, i feel ok, a little weak my insicion is sore and bleeds on and off at the bottom!
03/19/06
Well I am feeling like a human again! I just wondering if i will ever see below 200! I have been between 206-202 for like a month, I am yelling at scale!
05/14/06
I doing great! I feel great. I have to have my gall blader removed next month I am not looking forward to it ahhh!