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Well tomorrow's my day! It's wierd, I'm not nervous at all. It doesn't feel any different than any other tomorrow. I just barely started packing, and that's only because I needed to. I guess I'm so completely comfortable and ready with my decision that I'm this calm. Still have to finish packing, so I'll check in when I come home.

Day 4 Pre-Op Liquids. I went to see Dr. Ludwig today and Oh My God!, I've already lost 10 pounds in the last 3 1/2 days! This is so worth it! I have been getting dizzy the last 12-18 hours and been having pretty severe headaches the last few nights lasting hours on end. I guess I haven't been consuming my protein frequently enough. I have been only drinking it quickly 3 times a day at 25 grams each, Kathy (the nutritionist) said I should be drinking some every 3 hours and this should help with the dizzyiness. As for the headaches, she said it was a lack of salt and suggested drinking chicken or beef broth. Let's hope this helps!

I AM Stronger Than Myself !!!!

 I'm on day 3 of my pre-op liquid diet and doing much better since I figured out the whole point of it late yesterday.  Laying in bed feeling depressed and almost in tears, I thought about all of the material I have been studying, and remembered the section that said you needed to listen to your body to tell you when your hungry and when your full.  Well , I listened and I  WASN'T HUNGRY AFTERALL, I just missed eating.  That's when I came to the realization that this isn't about the diet, it's a mind game.  Your learning how to break the habit of eating now, before surgery, not only to make it an easier transition to your new life but to fully succeed in your goals.  You need to control your thinking, not have it control you.  Once I realized this is all just a mind game that  I needed to learn how to win, I haven't had much of a problem.  It's now easier to make food for my family and not feel envious and deprived. 

I AM STRONGER THAN MYSELF. 

Thank god I figured this out before I chewed off my own leg!!!  I wish someone would have explained this to me ahead of time.  Then again, maybe that's part of it, you have to break your self down in order to rebuild yourself into your new you and your new life you've came so far for.  

I cleaned out my closet this morning, it felt sooooo good to box up all of my clothes.  I can't wait to donate them to the clothes closet next month!

I go into see Dr. Ludwig for my pre-op tomorrow (Monday). I dread having my pictures and measurements taken.  Maybe it's not so bad, it's sort of like a good-bye and farewell to myself and all that I was AND I wasn't.  I can't wait for the new me!!!!

I've got to go clean something, I have'nt eaten in 2 1/2 days and I've got so much energy I can't sit still!  This is awesome!!!!