SassyStina
Oh, the nerves...
Jan 04, 2011
I can't believe January is already here, and moving rather quickly, might I add! I can't believe I am possibly a few months away from the surgery that will forever change my life! These 6 months of pre-op work is almost completed, what is left is stressing me out! I know that theoretically I will be ready for surgery in February but since I will need my mom to take off work for a couple of weeks the best we can do is end of March.I love my mom so much for supporting me through this. My brother and dad are really supportive as well, but let me tell you how awesome my mom is: she is researching and asking me her own questions! I was quite shocked the other day when she asked me what my feelings would be when people started to treat me differently because of my weight loss. I expected this from my psych exam or my therapist, but never my mother! I was honest with her and told her that I would treat them the same way I treat people that think I am dumb. Now this probably sounds weird but I will try to explain. I think I am very intelligent and so I sometimes play my dumb card to get what I want. People treat me differently when they realize I'm not dumb after they treat me like I am. Anyways, I use it to my advantage to figure people out. I haven't been wrong yet! So I think I will treat people the same way, if they choose to treat me differently.
It also excites me when I get a text message from mom telling me she is shopping and wanted to pick me up some comfy pj's and nightgowns for my surgery. I think we have agreed that I only need 1 night gown and that is it until the weight starts melting off. (although she did buy me smaller underwear so I won't have any sag in that area!)The one thing I do love to do is SHOP!!! The hardest process is not shopping at all for clothes right now. It has allowed me to save some money for my new wardrobe! I hate shopping with anyone because I feel guilty asking them to come into the plus size store with me, even my parents. My mom loves Anne Klein, Banana Republic, Gap, etc and when I go there I get depressed because nothing is remotely plus size. I think we will need a weekend of outlet shopping next fall for new clothing!
Alright, I'm in a rambling mood so I'm going to stop for now. Have a good night!