scarroll32
bundle of nerves!
Jul 10, 2009
I am a bundle of nerves right now. I wanted my surgery date to hurry up and get here and now it is five days away and I am SCARED! I know that I shouldn't be but I just keep thinking of what if? Then to make matters worse, my skinny best friend that has never had to watch her weight a day in her life, told me that she couldn't believe that I was doing something this dangerous when all I need to do is diet and exercise. I told her that I appreciated her concern but I will die if I continue on the weight path that I am on. I am sure that everyone has felt this way about their surgery but I just wonder if I am doing the right thing. I guess I shouldn't say that because I know that I am doing the right thing. I am 32 years old and creeping up on 300lbs. I have sleep apnea, infertility and borderline diabetic. I know that this is what I need to do to become a healthier person but I am scared of the pain of surgery and then afraid I will have complications afterwards. I need the proverbial slap in the face right now to snap me out of this! But then I get excited because I think of how great thin will feel! I am also scared of the roller coaster of emotions that I know will continue throughout this process. I am so lucky to have a supportive husband and family. Whew, I had to get that off of my chest! Going to snuggle with my hubby! Goodnite people!