Brenda C.
Eeyore Feeling, Again...
Oct 16, 2010
I know, I know, but I am feeling the "It'll never work...." all the time, lately. I am trying to stay positive, but it just isn't working. Monday, I see Dr Hunter again, but I just have the feeling I will be told to wait even longer. Knowing myself, I just wonder how much more "Wait & See" before I just throw in the towel? Last year I got sidetracked by an auto accident. Then around December 09 I made the call to go to a seminar. Went in February, saw the surgeon in March, then put on hold. Got frustrated, contacted a second surgeon & went to HIS seminar. Got a negative response & told to go back to the first surgeon. In the meantime I started looking for another surgeon, I got told not to bother coming back to the first surgeon. Went to surgeon number three's seminar, then got lost in the shuffle -- I already had many of the steps finished from the first surgeon, so I sat on my hands a couple more months. Last month I finally got the word, "Just lose a little more weight... Come back in a month..." I just feel like I am never going to get that Golden Ticket.Patience may be a virtue, but sitting on your hands in pain is no fun. I get to feeling like, "Well crap, if I am supposed to lose XYZ, then why bother getting surgery?!" If I throw in the towel, I would be a quitter. I do not like being a quitter, just the opposite. If I cannot get to the end result traveling in one direction, I try the scenic route! Maybe the Universe is trying to tell me something? Speak up, I cannot make out what it's trying to tell me.
Monday, I will pop back on here & maybe have some answer. Good or bad, I just want to know. Being emotionally invested for over a year, just to see I am still spinning my wheels isn't fun anymore -- not like it ever was! I try to tell myself one of my Brenda-isms: Be Optimistic enough to sell a Pessimist a Dream!
Chug, chug, chug, the Little engine kept saying, "I think I can! I think I can! I think I can...." Eeyore, go back to Pooh's Corner!
B : )~
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38.8
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Surgery
11/16/2010
Surgery Date
Mar 16, 2010
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