Not Gaining, Barely Losing... In Hawaii

Feb 25, 2011

Who would think it would be hard to lose weight while in Hawaii?  Yes, sarcasm was implied.  I was talking with friends about their trips - we all had about the same amount of time in Hawaii from the Mainland, and I was scared  by what I was hearing.

Jeff's dad (my almost Father-in-Law) gained a whopping 15 pounds, his buddy gained 20 - and they are active and near normal BMI/weight.  Mike & Carol, both said they had put on 20 - 30 pounds (oh, lord, they have been so good on their diets, I am in for trouble).  Here I sit, considering all the little things I have been consuming, and starting to worry.  Macadamia nuts (roughly 200 calories per ounce)  - "But aren't they GOOD fat?"  Hersheys makes macadamia nut Kisses - "But, I can only have three at a time..."  Looking at the calories - nine Kisses with macadamia nuts is 220 calories, time for some quick math!

Alcohol isn't a factor, I cannot drink it.  Frozen fruit delight - made with tropical fruit, something I have made at least four times.  Time for more math.  My worst problem by far seems to be the snacking my friends have been doing - okay, not them - MINE!  I cannot do anything but take responsibility for my actions.  Yes, the food was just sitting there, but I didn't need to eat it.  My biggest lapse in judgment had to be, "My shorts fell off, I have lost so much weight... This little snack won't be bad..."  Well, now I am starting to sweat the lack of diligence on my part.

Before I left, I vowed not to look at a scale, looking forward to a dramatic weight loss.  I was so sure of myself, so on the right track, I did not think I needed to worry.  Well, I am worried, so I did peek at a scale.  My weight before I left, and the weight it showed me today, I am in for some trouble.  I haven't gained weight - by the number shown - but, I haven't lost enough for the time gone.  Self justification:  I wasn't home, so I couldn't eat my usual diet; I am on my period; I haven't had a bowel movement; the last two weeks has been bad weather, so I did not do as much activity... Monday will be my moment to either sink or float.

I have my three month follow up on Monday, February 28th.  I have to say Aloha to Hawaii, and I am already wanting to plan next year's visit.  The feeling of dread, facing both my surgeon and primary doctor, "Did I lose enough weight in this last month?"  Accountability, that is what I have to remember.  When I weigh myself once a week, I am accountable for that weeks actions.  I have gone three weeks without a scale to make me face reality, now I have to pull my big girl panties (which really are loose) and get my tubby butt moving!

Monday, I will post the numbers, and take responsibility for whatever the scale says.  I am feeling happy about my blood work - that is something I did not get lazy about, taking my supplements.  The trip has been wonderful, I am actually physically more fit than I have been in years.  The trip also was a learning experience for me - do not take your food journals for granted!  Okay, I am officially back on "The Wagon," and filling out my food journals.  Even if the scale doesn't show a gain, I am still not pleased with my behavior.  This is my NEW lifestyle, and I need to keep watching what I do and consume, as it does show and I do not like being an underachiever.

Brenda  : )~

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